Winkie's thoughts

[Winkie]

Alright, Haku suggested I should create a thread with my poems/songs/whatever.. So here it is..
All is written by me and I'm the only one who owns it. If you want to use it for something, ask me for permission..
Feel free to comment or something like that. Just be honest and tell me what you think about it.

Love,

Winkie

[Winkie]

Why do I miss you
Why do I care
Wouldn’t it be better
To act like we don’t exist

Why do I bother
Why do I hurt
And every time we talk
Feels like lightning burning
Through my veins

Why isn’t it simple
How could it be this hard
Seems like a lifetime
Since we last kissed

Why do we breath
The same air together
Why do I love you
It’s all just too hard

Isn’t it meant to be
The perfect loving feeling
Isn’t it meant to be
The greatest time of life
Isn’t it supposed to be
You and me and me and you
Then why won’t you tell me
Why does it hurt

I love you..

©Winkie

[Winkie]

My Heroine

Hear me..
I'll be your heroine
Save me..
I am your victim
Help me..
Make all the aching stop
Cuz I don't want to feel no more
Why won't you just save me
From the hurting in my heart
Save me..
From the pain drawn in your eyes
Oh save me..

Close your eyes
And you feel my hands
Close my eyes
And I taste your breath
Please make this feeling stop
Why won't you just save me
From the hurting in my heart
Save me..
From the pain drawn in your eyes
Oh save me..

You said you loved me
You showed me you cared
You said it wasn't your kind of thing
To be with me like that
Save me..
From the hurting in my heart
Save me..
From the pain drawn in your eyes
Oh save me..

I didn't kiss away your tears cuz I was so scared
I didn't want to hurt you more than you already did
Why did you leave? Did you ever care?
Save me..
From the hurting in my heart
Save me..
From the pain drawn in your eyes
Oh save me..

So now you're there
And I'm sitting here
Did you ever truelly care?
Save me..

Save me..
From the hurting in my heart
Save me..
From the pain drawn in your eyes
Oh save me..

Save me.. I'll be your heroine
Save me.. I am your victim
Save me..

©Winkie

[Kyro]

They're both great! I love My Heroine

[Winkie]

Thank you.. I used to have a lot more, but well, they're either in Dutch, or I threw them away..

[Winkie]

Starnight

And I still remember
Our starful night
Sitting side by side
By the lake
Yeah I still remember
Our starful night
And I need your love
Again

And love does no good
To anyone
Just leaves us all in pain
But at night outside
By the lake

I still remember
Our starful night
Worlds of love and promises
Lies I even thought were true
Yeah I still remember
Our starful night
And I'm gonna miss
Your face

And all the words
You said to me
Were lies
And all the kisses
They just weren't there
And all the hugs
I never had your heart

But still I remember
Our starful night
And I'm gonna miss
The lies
Yes I remember
Our starful night
I never felt
So safe

And love is nothing but
A feeling
It's only meant to hurt
I can only think 'bout your body
Bout the kisses
And your eyes

Yes I can see
My starless nights
It meant so much less
To you
What to do
'Bout my starless nights
When all I can think 'bout
Is you

And I'm gonna miss
That starful night
I'm gonna miss you eyes
And although I loved
That starful night
I can't live
Living your lie

So I still love
Your starful eyes
Can only try to
Forget
And I hope you think 'bout
That starful night
When you look up at
A starnights sky

©Winkie

[Winkie]

Actually, this is the first thing I wrote in English and was actually proud of. It was written some time ago, in November '03

Left Alone

I feel your hands
Everywhere, always
I’m left alone with you,
And there’s nowhere left to go.

Your gaze on me,
Every minute, every hour.
Just a second,
Left alone with you

You stare at me,
Every minute, every hour.
Just a moment,
Without you.

Just a second,
Without sleeping.
Just a minute,
Without nightmares.

To be honest,
I don’t want you.
But we all know,
I can’t stop it.

Just a minute.
Just a moment, just a second.
Just some time,
Seems an eternity.

Just my luck,
Just a change.
Just some words,
I try to understand.

I feel your hands,
Everywhere, always.
I’m left alone with you,
And there’s nowhere left to go…

©Winkie

[Kyro]

Two more great ones there, Winkie! 'Starnight' is just so sad and beautiful, and 'Left Alone' is great too! You got talent!

[Winkie]

Thank you *blushes* I found some other ones too, but they're all in dutch.. Ah well, I'll post one anyway (A), because I like them, and people think it's a funny language So have fun looking at my funny language

Raadselachtig en verloren
Aan de rand van het water naar de dood
De angst is weerspiegeld in haar ogen
Haar rug vol met striemen, kwetsbaar, bloot

Ze wacht eenzaam op het einde
Dat haar uit haar lijden verlost
Want wat is nu het nut van haar leven
Als haar vader haar dagelijks afrost

Het water des doods is koud en zwart
Helder als sterren, donker als de nacht
Ze verlangt naar haar einde
De rust en stilte die haar al verwacht

Verdrietig en eenzaam
Probeert ze een eind aan haar leven te maken
Probeert ze wanhopig
Haar adem te stoppen, haar hartslag te staken

Kopje onder in de kou
Die haar als een geliefde omarmt
Haar kwetst tot in het diepst van haar ziel
Maar haar ook vol vertrouwen verwarmt

Bloed stroomt uit wonden op haar armen
Huilend zakt ze ineen tegen de muur van de spijt
Smekend om vergeving, vragend voor begrip
Want die ene luisterende vriend, wil zij niet kwijt

Elke keer opnieuw verdrinkt ze in eenzaamheid, kou en pijn
Drie oude bekenden
Ze begroet ze als haar vrienden en familie
Ze heeft toch niemand anders, tot wie zij zich kan wenden..

©Winkie

[Kyro]

Originally Posted by Winkie

So have fun looking at my funny language

I had a lot of fun trying to read it! I don't know why it looks so strange to me, but every time I look at it I just laugh!

[Winkie]

Hehe I can try to translate it but I think it'd lose the flow.. But I'll give it a try, okay? And it would lose the "special, double meanings"


Raadselachtig en verloren
Aan de rand van het water naar de dood
De angst is weerspiegeld in haar ogen
Haar rug vol met striemen, kwetsbaar, bloot

Mysterious and lost
On the edge of the water to death
The fear is being mirrored in her eyes
Her back full of lashes, vulnerable, naked

Ze wacht eenzaam op het einde
Dat haar uit haar lijden verlost
Want wat is nu het nut van haar leven
Als haar vader haar dagelijks afrost

She's lonely, waiting for the end
To help her out of her suffering
Cuz what's the meaning of her life
When her dad hits her every day

Het water des doods is koud en zwart
Helder als sterren, donker als de nacht
Ze verlangt naar haar einde
De rust en stilte die haar al verwacht

The water of death is cold and black
Bright as the stars, dark as the night
She's longing for her end
The silence and comfort that are already expecting her

Verdrietig en eenzaam
Probeert ze een eind aan haar leven te maken
Probeert ze wanhopig
Haar adem te stoppen, haar hartslag te staken

Sad and lonesome
Is she trying to end her life
Is she trying desperately
To stop her breathing, to quit her heartbeat

Kopje onder in de kou
Die haar als een geliefde omarmt
Haar kwetst tot in het diepst van haar ziel
Maar haar ook vol vertrouwen verwarmt

Going under in the cold
That embraces her as a lover
Hurts her in the deepest part of her soul
But also embraces her full of trust

Bloed stroomt uit wonden op haar armen
Huilend zakt ze ineen tegen de muur van de spijt
Smekend om vergeving, vragend voor begrip
Want die ene luisterende vriend, wil zij niet kwijt

Blood's flowing from wounds on her arms
Crying she falls against the wall of regret
Begging for forgiveness, asking for understanding
Cuz that one listening friend, she doesn't want to lose

Elke keer opnieuw verdrinkt ze in eenzaamheid, kou en pijn
Drie oude bekenden
Ze begroet ze als haar vrienden en familie
Ze heeft toch niemand anders, tot wie zij zich kan wenden..

Every time again she drowns in loneliness, cold, and pain
Three familiar faces
She greets them as her friends and family
After all, she doesn't have anyone else, to go to..

It loses it's flow and "magic" but this is basically what it says

©Winkie

[Kyro]

Originally Posted by Winkie

It loses it's flow and "magic" but this is basically what it says

If that's not as good as it is in Dutch, then I really wanna learn Dutch! That's amazing even like that, so I can't even imagine how good it is before translation!

[Winkie]

Originally Posted by Kyro

If that's not as good as it is in Dutch, then I really wanna learn Dutch! That's amazing even like that, so I can't even imagine how good it is before translation!

You know, I'm more fluent in Dutch, I know more words.. Also words that fit better in it, although they have the same meaning.. In my opinion, it's way better in Dutch..

[Obie]

Originally Posted by Winkie

My Heroine



Save me..
From the hurting in my heart
Save me..
From the pain drawn in your eyes
Oh save me..

Save me.. I'll be your heroine
Save me.. I am your victim
Save me..

I love this part,, oh Winkie,, u made me fall in love with those lines,,,,,,,

[Winkie]

I'm having fun translating, so I'll continue (A) If you guys don't mind, that is..

Eén enk’le traan teveel..
One single tear too much

Je blijft hezelfde
Je ziet niet in hoe ik me voel
Ik trek de muren van steen om mijn hart weer op
Ik probeer je niet te laten zien
Dat de tranen blijven stromen

You stay the same
You don't see how I feel
I'm pulling up the walls of stone around my heart again
I'm trying not to show you
That the tears keep on flowing

De tranen blijven binnen in me
Het gat met steenkoud ijs is terug
Ik dacht echt dat het was verdwenen
Maar blijkbaar is het een deel van mijn leven
En mijn tranen blijven stromen

The tears stay inside of me
The hole with freezing ice is back
I really thought it disappeared
But apparently it's a part of my life
And my tears keep on flowing

Ik trek de muren op om mijn hart
Probeer te doen alsof je me niet raakt
Elk gevoel blok ik uit
Mijn blik wordt van steen
Maar mijn tranen blijven stromen

I'm pulling up the walls around my heart
Try to act as if you don't hit me
I'm blocking out every feeling
My gaze turns into stone
But my tears keep on flowing

Houden van is wat ik doe
Ik houd van jou houd jij van mij?
Of vraag ik dan teveel vraag ik mij af
Als ik het mes in mijn polsen zet
Terwijl mijn tranen blijven stromen

Loving is what I do
I love you do you love me?
Or do I ask too much, is what I ask myself
When I'm putting the knife in my wrists
While my tears keep on flowing

Bloedrode tranen stromen over mijn polsen
Angstig en verloren kijk ik ernaar
Ben ik deze keer dan te ver gegaan?
Je hebt me te diep in mijn ziel geraakt en verwond
De wonden gaan naar de buitenkant toe dit maal
Terwijl bloedrode tranen blijven stromen

Bloodred tears flow over my wrists
Scared and lost am I looking at it
Did I go too far this time
You hit and hurted me too deep in my soul
The wounds are on the outside this time
While the tears keep on flowing

Je komt naar me toe je schreeuwt en roept
Maar bereiken doe je mij al niet meer
Deze keer ben ik te fel gekwetst
Heb me voorgoed van je afgewend
Je denkt dat ik geen gevoel meer heb
Terwijl jij ziet hoe rode tranen blijven stromen

You're coming to me you're screaming and shouting
But you can't reach me anymore
This time I was hurt too bad
Turned away from you forever
You think I don't have any feelings left
While you see how red tears keep on flowing

Eén keer te hard gekwetst
Eén keer niet bestand tegen jouw geweld
Eén keer kon ik het niet meer hebben
Eén keer kon ik er niet meer tegen
Eén keer..
Eén enk’le traan teveel..

One time hurt too much
One time not able to stand your violence
One time I had enough
One time I couldn't take it anymore
One time
One single tear too much

©Winkie

[Winkie]

Originally Posted by Obezyanki

I love this part,, oh Winkie,, u made me fall in love with those lines,,,,,,,

Well, at least that's one good thing coming from that song So thank you..

[Kyro]

Originally Posted by Winkie

I'm having fun translating, so I'll continue (A) If you guys don't mind, that is..

Translate as much as you like, I'll read it all

I really like that last one, especially

Originally Posted by Winkie

My gaze turns into stone
But my tears keep on flowing

I love that image.

If you don't mind me asking, are these songs all autobiographical?

[Winkie]

Hmm.. I don't mind you asking..
Actually, all of them are autobiographical somehow. Not all the things in it, though.. For example:

Cuz what's the meaning of her life
When her dad hits her every day

My dad did not hit me But a friend of mine, her dad did hit her. So well, I just put that part in it.. But besides that, they're all autobiographical yeah..

[roysolid2]

they are great
can I use them in my wallpapers
some of the words romantic
i think tatu should use them
you should work with them

[Winkie]

they are great
can I use them in my wallpapers
some of the words romantic
i think tatu should use them
you should work with them

I sent you a personal message about this..