*hugs
Katoren*
I will be fine, maybe not fine, but I'll be okay.. I won't let this destroy me..
We have to live on, even if it's just for Joost.. But it feels so bad.. I went out last night, to the café we always went to, and I talked to people.. So many memories.. So many people who cared.. So many thoughts. I can't even voice it..
We'll have a ceremony with all his friends, because there can't be a funeral..
Like a friend said:
when you are waiting for news about one of your friends, every second seems like an eternity. and I think that's so true. When you care about someone, and there's something wrong with them, time seems to slow down and I feel like time hasn't even moved since the 3th of october