Winkie's thoughts
Alright, Haku suggested I should create a thread with my poems/songs/whatever.. So here it is..
All is written by me and I'm the only one who owns it. If you want to use it for something, ask me for permission.. Feel free to comment or something like that. Just be honest and tell me what you think about it. Love, Winkie |
Why do I miss you
Why do I care Wouldn’t it be better To act like we don’t exist Why do I bother Why do I hurt And every time we talk Feels like lightning burning Through my veins Why isn’t it simple How could it be this hard Seems like a lifetime Since we last kissed Why do we breath The same air together Why do I love you It’s all just too hard Isn’t it meant to be The perfect loving feeling Isn’t it meant to be The greatest time of life Isn’t it supposed to be You and me and me and you Then why won’t you tell me Why does it hurt I love you.. ©Winkie |
My Heroine
Hear me.. I'll be your heroine Save me.. I am your victim Help me.. Make all the aching stop Cuz I don't want to feel no more Why won't you just save me From the hurting in my heart Save me.. From the pain drawn in your eyes Oh save me.. Close your eyes And you feel my hands Close my eyes And I taste your breath Please make this feeling stop Why won't you just save me From the hurting in my heart Save me.. From the pain drawn in your eyes Oh save me.. You said you loved me You showed me you cared You said it wasn't your kind of thing To be with me like that Save me.. From the hurting in my heart Save me.. From the pain drawn in your eyes Oh save me.. I didn't kiss away your tears cuz I was so scared I didn't want to hurt you more than you already did Why did you leave? Did you ever care? Save me.. From the hurting in my heart Save me.. From the pain drawn in your eyes Oh save me.. So now you're there And I'm sitting here Did you ever truelly care? Save me.. Save me.. From the hurting in my heart Save me.. From the pain drawn in your eyes Oh save me.. Save me.. I'll be your heroine Save me.. I am your victim Save me.. ©Winkie |
They're both great! I love My Heroine :done:
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Thank you.. I used to have a lot more, but well, they're either in Dutch, or I threw them away.. :p
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Starnight
And I still remember Our starful night Sitting side by side By the lake Yeah I still remember Our starful night And I need your love Again And love does no good To anyone Just leaves us all in pain But at night outside By the lake I still remember Our starful night Worlds of love and promises Lies I even thought were true Yeah I still remember Our starful night And I'm gonna miss Your face And all the words You said to me Were lies And all the kisses They just weren't there And all the hugs I never had your heart But still I remember Our starful night And I'm gonna miss The lies Yes I remember Our starful night I never felt So safe And love is nothing but A feeling It's only meant to hurt I can only think 'bout your body Bout the kisses And your eyes Yes I can see My starless nights It meant so much less To you What to do 'Bout my starless nights When all I can think 'bout Is you And I'm gonna miss That starful night I'm gonna miss you eyes And although I loved That starful night I can't live Living your lie So I still love Your starful eyes Can only try to Forget And I hope you think 'bout That starful night When you look up at A starnights sky ©Winkie |
Actually, this is the first thing I wrote in English and was actually proud of. It was written some time ago, in November '03
Left Alone I feel your hands Everywhere, always I’m left alone with you, And there’s nowhere left to go. Your gaze on me, Every minute, every hour. Just a second, Left alone with you You stare at me, Every minute, every hour. Just a moment, Without you. Just a second, Without sleeping. Just a minute, Without nightmares. To be honest, I don’t want you. But we all know, I can’t stop it. Just a minute. Just a moment, just a second. Just some time, Seems an eternity. Just my luck, Just a change. Just some words, I try to understand. I feel your hands, Everywhere, always. I’m left alone with you, And there’s nowhere left to go… ©Winkie |
Two more great ones there, Winkie! :done: 'Starnight' is just so sad and beautiful, and 'Left Alone' is great too! You got talent!
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Thank you *blushes* I found some other ones too, but they're all in dutch.. Ah well, I'll post one anyway (A), because I like them, and people think it's a funny language ;) So have fun looking at my funny language ;)
Raadselachtig en verloren Aan de rand van het water naar de dood De angst is weerspiegeld in haar ogen Haar rug vol met striemen, kwetsbaar, bloot Ze wacht eenzaam op het einde Dat haar uit haar lijden verlost Want wat is nu het nut van haar leven Als haar vader haar dagelijks afrost Het water des doods is koud en zwart Helder als sterren, donker als de nacht Ze verlangt naar haar einde De rust en stilte die haar al verwacht Verdrietig en eenzaam Probeert ze een eind aan haar leven te maken Probeert ze wanhopig Haar adem te stoppen, haar hartslag te staken Kopje onder in de kou Die haar als een geliefde omarmt Haar kwetst tot in het diepst van haar ziel Maar haar ook vol vertrouwen verwarmt Bloed stroomt uit wonden op haar armen Huilend zakt ze ineen tegen de muur van de spijt Smekend om vergeving, vragend voor begrip Want die ene luisterende vriend, wil zij niet kwijt Elke keer opnieuw verdrinkt ze in eenzaamheid, kou en pijn Drie oude bekenden Ze begroet ze als haar vrienden en familie Ze heeft toch niemand anders, tot wie zij zich kan wenden.. ©Winkie |
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Hehe I can try to translate it but I think it'd lose the flow.. But I'll give it a try, okay? And it would lose the "special, double meanings"
Raadselachtig en verloren Aan de rand van het water naar de dood De angst is weerspiegeld in haar ogen Haar rug vol met striemen, kwetsbaar, bloot Mysterious and lost On the edge of the water to death The fear is being mirrored in her eyes Her back full of lashes, vulnerable, naked Ze wacht eenzaam op het einde Dat haar uit haar lijden verlost Want wat is nu het nut van haar leven Als haar vader haar dagelijks afrost She's lonely, waiting for the end To help her out of her suffering Cuz what's the meaning of her life When her dad hits her every day Het water des doods is koud en zwart Helder als sterren, donker als de nacht Ze verlangt naar haar einde De rust en stilte die haar al verwacht The water of death is cold and black Bright as the stars, dark as the night She's longing for her end The silence and comfort that are already expecting her Verdrietig en eenzaam Probeert ze een eind aan haar leven te maken Probeert ze wanhopig Haar adem te stoppen, haar hartslag te staken Sad and lonesome Is she trying to end her life Is she trying desperately To stop her breathing, to quit her heartbeat Kopje onder in de kou Die haar als een geliefde omarmt Haar kwetst tot in het diepst van haar ziel Maar haar ook vol vertrouwen verwarmt Going under in the cold That embraces her as a lover Hurts her in the deepest part of her soul But also embraces her full of trust Bloed stroomt uit wonden op haar armen Huilend zakt ze ineen tegen de muur van de spijt Smekend om vergeving, vragend voor begrip Want die ene luisterende vriend, wil zij niet kwijt Blood's flowing from wounds on her arms Crying she falls against the wall of regret Begging for forgiveness, asking for understanding Cuz that one listening friend, she doesn't want to lose Elke keer opnieuw verdrinkt ze in eenzaamheid, kou en pijn Drie oude bekenden Ze begroet ze als haar vrienden en familie Ze heeft toch niemand anders, tot wie zij zich kan wenden.. Every time again she drowns in loneliness, cold, and pain Three familiar faces She greets them as her friends and family After all, she doesn't have anyone else, to go to.. It loses it's flow and "magic" but this is basically what it says ©Winkie |
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I love this part,, oh Winkie,, u made me fall in love with those lines,,,,,,, |
I'm having fun translating, so I'll continue (A) If you guys don't mind, that is..
Eén enk’le traan teveel.. One single tear too much Je blijft hezelfde Je ziet niet in hoe ik me voel Ik trek de muren van steen om mijn hart weer op Ik probeer je niet te laten zien Dat de tranen blijven stromen You stay the same You don't see how I feel I'm pulling up the walls of stone around my heart again I'm trying not to show you That the tears keep on flowing De tranen blijven binnen in me Het gat met steenkoud ijs is terug Ik dacht echt dat het was verdwenen Maar blijkbaar is het een deel van mijn leven En mijn tranen blijven stromen The tears stay inside of me The hole with freezing ice is back I really thought it disappeared But apparently it's a part of my life And my tears keep on flowing Ik trek de muren op om mijn hart Probeer te doen alsof je me niet raakt Elk gevoel blok ik uit Mijn blik wordt van steen Maar mijn tranen blijven stromen I'm pulling up the walls around my heart Try to act as if you don't hit me I'm blocking out every feeling My gaze turns into stone But my tears keep on flowing Houden van is wat ik doe Ik houd van jou houd jij van mij? Of vraag ik dan teveel vraag ik mij af Als ik het mes in mijn polsen zet Terwijl mijn tranen blijven stromen Loving is what I do I love you do you love me? Or do I ask too much, is what I ask myself When I'm putting the knife in my wrists While my tears keep on flowing Bloedrode tranen stromen over mijn polsen Angstig en verloren kijk ik ernaar Ben ik deze keer dan te ver gegaan? Je hebt me te diep in mijn ziel geraakt en verwond De wonden gaan naar de buitenkant toe dit maal Terwijl bloedrode tranen blijven stromen Bloodred tears flow over my wrists Scared and lost am I looking at it Did I go too far this time You hit and hurted me too deep in my soul The wounds are on the outside this time While the tears keep on flowing Je komt naar me toe je schreeuwt en roept Maar bereiken doe je mij al niet meer Deze keer ben ik te fel gekwetst Heb me voorgoed van je afgewend Je denkt dat ik geen gevoel meer heb Terwijl jij ziet hoe rode tranen blijven stromen You're coming to me you're screaming and shouting But you can't reach me anymore This time I was hurt too bad Turned away from you forever You think I don't have any feelings left While you see how red tears keep on flowing Eén keer te hard gekwetst Eén keer niet bestand tegen jouw geweld Eén keer kon ik het niet meer hebben Eén keer kon ik er niet meer tegen Eén keer.. Eén enk’le traan teveel.. One time hurt too much One time not able to stand your violence One time I had enough One time I couldn't take it anymore One time One single tear too much ©Winkie |
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If you don't mind me asking, are these songs all autobiographical? |
Hmm.. I don't mind you asking.. :)
Actually, all of them are autobiographical somehow. Not all the things in it, though.. For example: Cuz what's the meaning of her life When her dad hits her every day My dad did not hit me ;) But a friend of mine, her dad did hit her. So well, I just put that part in it.. But besides that, they're all autobiographical yeah.. |
they are great :) :)
can I use them in my wallpapers some of the words romantic i think tatu should use them you should work with them:coctail: ;) |
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Well.. I wrote this one in December.. It's about.. Well, just read it and tell me what you guys think it's about okay? Winner gets a kiss.. (or not, if he/she does not want to have one :p)
A black door I walked out of a door tonight A door to my dreams, and it's black My feelings are empty, my hope is gone You stole my dreams, why won't you take my life? You walked out of my dream last month You killed me - almost - , left me bleeding and freezing. I'm empty, I can't feel nor think. You left me and I don't think I will survive That door to my dreams, it's so black now. I'm feeling so empty and I'm feeling so cold. All hope is gone, the memories fade. You stole my dreams, why won't you take my life? There are simply no tears left in my eyes. I stare up at the sky. I look at you and smile. Cause you took my dreams, but gave back my life. You can take your love away, but you cannot stop mine. You've decided to leave, but you'll never be gone. The memory is always there. But just like the way ice melts, do memories fade.. Don't they..?! ©Winkie |
very Talented!.
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Thank you
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check this: the water is blue, the sky too.. the moon is white, the snow too.. im very cool and you too!:D :D jajajajaja-- lol...lol... this is my poem!!! :D |
Yeah.. Cool.. But I think I've read that one before, so not very original :) ;)
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lol.:D . yes ... i learn this poem in the kindergarden!.. i just wanna be funny .. but you are so deep!... ..im sorry..:bum:
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Now I can see what I truelly meant to you
It seems as if nothing hurts me But inside I feel so torn Everything around me changes But somehow I try to stay the same And it hurts I wish I could tell you how I really feel But I know I will lose you again if I try I wish I could show you what you truelly deserve But I know you'd rather die than let me do that And somehow I can't feel anymore But that hurts I wish I could tell you and know you'd feel the same I wish I could live in dreams and never wake up I wish I could stay in the past Cuz my future seems so empty now I wish I could show what it truelly means To love Nothing seems to matter now When I picture you with him I wish I still had a chance But I know I lost you Lost you for good this time Lost you forever In the haunting of my dreams It hurts so much to think It hurts so much to feel I wish I could go numb again You woke me up yesterday Now you've killed me again What is it with you and hurting me? I wish I could show you my love ©Winkie - 16/08/06 |
Your poems are so sad but very beautiful. Do you write only when you are hurt or do you have any happy poems?
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Sometimes when I'm happy, but most of the times when I'm sad or hurt or lonely, or something else that makes me feel depressed. It's a way to get rid of that feeling.. :) It doesn't always help, but it feels better to write it down, because then I won't have to carry it all with me..
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omg !! Anne, that's so beautiful
here's for you :rose: |
:rose: Thank you.. :) Well.. I think you know who it is about, right? ;)
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Right, I feel like writing but I don't know a subject.. Soo this is just something I'm thinking of.. I might be editing it a few more times, but hey.. I'm never satisfied (when it comes to writing, that is :lalala: )
So here goes: (italic text is the translation) Ik wilde dat ik je een keer kon vertellen Hoezeer ik om je geef en hoe ik me voel van binnen Ik wilde dat ik je een keer kon vertellen Hoe erg het voelt alsof ik sterft I wish I could tell you one time How much I care about you and how I feel on the inside I wish I could tell you one time How bad it feels to die Mijn longen lijken te verbranden in het licht Mijn ogen zijn vervuld van duisternis Schaduwen en duisternis verbergen mij nog steeds Verbergen wat ik voel en wie ik werk'lijk ben My lungs seem to burn in the light My eyes are filled with darkness Shadows and darkness still hide me Hide what I feel and who I truelly am Mijn lichaam lijkt te smelten in de zon Mijn handen voelen niks En liefde glipt als zand tussen mijn vingers door Ontastbaar, onaanraakbaar, ongenaakbaar My body seems to melt in sunlight My hands can't feel a thing And love is slipping in between my fingers, just like sand I can't touch it, I can't feel it, I can't change it En meer dan alles zie ik door verwrongen oogleden Hoe alles om me heen lijkt te baden in het licht Hoe jij lacht en speelt en vrijt met hem Terwijl ik hier verborgen in de schaduw leef And through distorted eyelids I can see How everything around me bathes in light How you laugh and play and sleep with him While I live here hidden in the darkness Ik klaag niet meer ik zeur niet meer Ik aanvaard het nu in stilte Als jij gelukkig bent vind ik het goed En trek mij terug in de schaduwen I won't complain no more, I won't nag no more I can accept it and stay silent When you're happy, I'm okay And I will withdraw myself into the shadows ©Winkie I don't have a good feeling about it.. But it's the best I can think of now.. :^) |
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it's one of the only sentence I understand without reading the translation :p you're so lovely *pecks* such a good writer |
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good luck beautiful, btw try to enter the Erasmus program and come to France, College here is just another word to say laziness loool (it depends of the studies of course) kusjes sacht !! :gigi: |
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Kusjes schat ;) |
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please answer to this lil' question :D I'm just curious Quote:
if I don't change my orientation next year, I could go to Canada, Spain or England hehe so cool doeidoei lekker ding Offtop: I try to do my best to remember what you've learnt to me |
How can I use my own tongue on myself? :p I'm sorry, but I don't reach that :p
And well.. I don't remember what I've learnt yuo, to be honest (A) Besides some small Dutch sentences.. |
Short story
Het blijft donker om me heen. Soms betwijfel ik of het duister van buitenaf komt. Of van binnen in mij. Als ik mijn ogen sluit, voel ik niks anders dan koude, koele duisternis. Duisternis die mij langzaam naar zich toe trekt sinds die ene dag. Die ene seconde. Als ik mijn ogen sluit, en ik probeer de mist die over mijn herinneringen hangt, weg te jagen, kan ik die ene dag herleven. Een mooie, warme augustusmiddag. Een van die dagen waarop je de zomer kan ruiken. Zoet, geurend hooi, uitgestrekte weiden, omringd door bossen die langverzochte verkoeling brengen bij een vennetje. Zo'n dag was het. Maar ik woon in een stad. In zo'n wijk met flatgebouwen zonder één stukje groen. Zo'n wijk waar de warmte blijft hangen tussen de gebouwen. Waar je 's middags niemand op straat ziet. Hij en ik hadden afgesproken in een garagebox, verkoeling zoekend. Uit de radio die we konden horen speelde "rock you baby", en het nummer leek perfect te passen bij de zomerhitte. Ja, de dag startte goed. Toen had ik nog niet kunnen verwachten dat ik die avond verscheurd thuis zou komen, verlangend naar warmte en liefde. Dromend van klamme, dunne handen die tastend onder mijn kleren bewogen. Mijn schreeuw, vermoord in mijn keel. Sinds die middag leef ik in de duisternis. Tastend glijden mijn vingers over mijn licht opbollende buik. "Victor", kreun ik, en ik breng de fles vodka naar mijn lippen. Liggend op mijn rug kijk ik naar de sterrenhemel. Mijn hand blijft op mijn buik liggen en ik voel het beginnende leven onder mijn vingers. Ik walg, ik wil dat leven niet. Ik wil het uit me, en ik wil hier weg. Ver onder me hoor ik de auto's langs de flatgebouwen rijden. Niemand weet dat ik hier lig, op het dak. Ik glimlach en sta op. Enigzins waggelend door de vodka loop ik naar de rand. Als ik daar ben, loop ik door. Dood was ik toch al. Het kost maar een seconde om een leven te vernietigen. ©Winkie It stays dark around me. Sometimes I doubt whether the darkness comes from the outside, or the inside of me. When I close my eyes, I feel nothing but cool, cold darkness. Darkness that keeps pulling myself towards it ever since that one day. Ever since that one second. When I close my eyes, and I try to erase the smoke that's been clouded over my memories, I can relive that day. A beautiful, hot August afternoon. One of those days where you can smell the summer. Sweet smelling hay, large pastures, surrounded by forrests that offer that coolness that you've been looking for, near a pond. Yeah, the day started well. At that time I could not suspect that I'd come home destroyed that evening, looking for love and warmth. Dreaming of clammy, thin fingers that moved under my clothes in a searching way. My scream, killed in my throat. Yeah, it was such a day. But I live in the city. In a neighbourhoud with appartment building without trees, gras, or anything. Such a neighbourhood where the warmth of the day stays 'till late in the evening. Where you don't see anyone on the streets in the afternoon. He and I wanted to meet in a basement, looking for some cold. We could hear a radio, playing "rock you baby". It seemed to fit in with this summerheat. Ever since that afternoon, I've been living in darkness. My fingers are sliding over my slightly growing stomach. I moan "Victor", and I bring the bottle of Vodka to my lips again. I am laying on my back and I am watching the stars. My hand stays on my tummy and I can feel the life starting to grow underneath them. I feel disgusted. I don't want that life. I want it out of me, and I want to leave this place. Far beneath me, I can hear the cars driving through the streets. Nobody knows I'm laying here, on the roof. I smile and get up. A little bit clumsy cuz of the vodka, I walk to the edge. When I get there, I walk on. I was dead already anyway. It only takes a second, to destroy a life. ©Winkie |
Winkie, aaaaaaaawww your story is amazing :eek:
you're so talented, I'm a big fan go on like this |
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