The Princess and the Pauper (Fanfic)

[vicky7]

Hi Guys! Having finally been able to get into the forum I am going to start posting my first ever fanfic. I have been posting it on tatu.us but I have been dying to post it here because this is the first place I read fanfics which have inspired me. I would really love to read any feedback you might want to give me especially from fanfic writers. There are 5 chapters so far which I will put into separate posts. Enjoy!

Chapter 1 – New Home, Same Old Mother


Lena looked around her apartment a wide smile spreading across her lovely features. She finally had everything she had ever wanted – a first rate degree, the job of her dreams, the perfect boyfriend and now her own place. Things couldn’t get any better, she thought as she tiredly flopped down on the brown leather sofa.

She ran a hand through her long curly red locks and wiped the sweat off her brow. She had set the alarm early this morning so she could move the last of her furniture into the apartment. She had then dashed to the shops to buy some bedding for her new king sized bed. Also, she cleaned the spare bedroom, the ‘guest bedroom’ as she now would call it and had set about preparing food for the romantic evening she had planned for her boyfriend Roman.

Roman was an investment banker who travelled the world to glamorous places like London, New York and Paris and who unfortunately she rarely saw. They had met through a mutual friend, a psychologist who worked at Lena’s practice, Mikhail Bogdanov. Mikhail was a nice enough guy, if a little dull but having introduced her to the gorgeous Roman she would always be eternally grateful to him.

They had met at the Passion nightclub in town after Lena, Mikhail and a whole crowd of the younger psychologists from the practise had escaped their older, stuffier colleagues at the Christmas party to partake in the drinking, dancing and mating rituals that were so synonymous with Christmas. However, it wouldn’t have mattered when and where she had met Roman she would always have fallen deeply in love…

Lena was suddenly broken from her revere by the harsh shrill ring of the phone. She jumped up and grabbed the receiver. “Hello”

“Lena, its your mother, I just wanted to see if you were still alive.” Her mother, Inessa said sarcastically.

Lena pulled her face, holding the phone slightly away from her ear, the sound of her mother’s voice grating on her brain. “Mum, I’m sorry I haven’t been in touch, it’s just that...” Inessa cut her off mid sentence, the volume of her voice steadily rising and the ranting Lena was so glad she no longer had to endure on a daily basis beginning with aplomb. “I don’t care how busy you are Elena Katina, how long does it take to call to let me know how you are? I only brought you into the world, fed and clothed you and gave you the best education money could buy, all in spite of that useless man who sometimes calls himself your father.”

Lena had wondered how long it would be before she brought her father into it. Admittedly, Sergey Katin wasn’t the father of any girl’s dreams but he was the only father Lena knew. The fact that Inessa constantly sniped about him felt like someone constantly picking at an old wound, never letting it fully heal. It was bad enough that the day he left them haunted her to this day.


The past

Sergey had left Lena and Inessa when Lena was seven. She clearly recalled the smashing plates, the shouting and her mother’s anguished wails. She had crept out of her bedroom that unforgettable night, her tired little body carrying her slowly, her green eyes clouded over with sleep. She had hid behind one of the armchairs in the living room listening intently as the two adults she depended on fought like animals.

“Inessa” her father had said in a calm voice “calm down, you’ll wake Lena.”

“CALM DOWN, YOU’RE LEAVING US FOR SOME WHORE WHO’S HAVING YOUR BABY AND YOU’RE ASKING ME TO CALM DOWN” Inessa’s voice broke as she sobbed incessantly. Lena bit her lip, trying not to cry, unable to believe what she was hearing. Her Daddy, the man who read her stories and sang her to asleep was leaving? Why? What had she done wrong? Why did he want another baby?

She heard footsteps as her mother and father moved their slanging match into the living room. Lena could only remain frozen to the spot. “You’re going now? What am I going to tell Lena? That her Daddy doesn’t love her enough to stay?” Inessa wailed.

“Inessa, we both know this has nothing to do with Lena. You and I shouldn’t be together anymore, you know that…” Sergey said in a tired voice. Lena could see her mother’s pained expression, her face white, her eyes ringed red, mascara clogging heavily with her tears. Her shaking hands were covered in blood making Lena sick to her stomach. She hated blood. Whenever she cut herself her father would always scoop her up, cover the wound and start singing to her. Only then would she forget the blood as Sergey cleaned the gashes. She loved him so much. If he had to leave she wanted to go too.

A few seconds later, Sergey came into her line of vision. He too was covered in blood, his face scratched, seemingly the work of Inessa’s fingernails. Blood oozed from the wound mingling with his dark beard, his deep-set green eyes portraying a man who had grown tired of living the lie of a loveless marriage. In his left hand he was carrying a large black suitcase. He really was going to leave Lena.

Her mother broke the silence, her sorrowful expression replaced by a sudden calm. “Well Sergey, if you don’t want me, you don’t want your daughter. If it’s the last thing I do I will NEVER, EVER let you see her again.” Her voice shook with anger, her bloodied hands clenched into white balls of fury.

At that Lena could no longer conceal her presence; she couldn’t let her father go. If she never saw him again it would kill her. “NOOOOO, DADDY! DADDY, PLEASE DON’T GO! I PROMISE I’LL BE A GOOD GIRL, I PROMISE” she wailed, throwing herself at her father’s mercy, clinging as tightly to his legs as her little hands could possibly grip.

“Hey, hey, Lena sweetie, you’re always a good girl, my good girl, always.” Sergey said softly. He bent down to Lena detaching her from his legs and raised her in his arms gazing lovingly into her eyes, his eyes.

“Lena, I have to go sweetie, but it doesn’t mean I don’t love you. I love you so so much, please don’t ever doubt that.” He said throatily, kissing her forehead and wiping the wells of tears streaming from her eyes. “I will see you all the time I promise, nothing will change, its just sometimes Mummies and Daddies can’t live together forever because they make each other unhappy. You don’t want me and Mummy to be unhappy do you?” Lena shook her head, her rumpled red curls flying wildly about her shoulders.

“Can I come with you Daddy?” she questioned.

“Lena, you need to stay with Mummy and look after her, she loves you so much.”

“But I love you more. I need you Daddy.” Lena pleaded. He put her down, “I’m sorry darling, stay with Mummy, she needs you, I really have to go, I’m so sorry.”

With that he lifted his suitcase and hurried out the front door without a backward glance at the broken family he had left behind. From that day on Lena suspected her mother never forgave her for wanting to leave with her father. Things had never been the same between them and since that night she had seen her father only eleven times, she had counted.


The present…

“Yes mum, I know what you’ve done for me and believe me I am soo grateful. I promise I’ll phone you tomorrow and we’ll arrange for you to come round and we’ll all have dinner. Me, Roman, you, Boris and Katya, ok?”

Inessa’s voice dramatically changed at the mention of Roman. “So how is that lovely boyfriend of yours?"

“He’s great, he’s been in Paris for the last two weeks, he’s flying in at 6 O’clock tonight so I’m gonna go and meet him at the airport.”

“Well, you’d better make yourself presentable before you go and collect him, you have to work hard to keep a man you know Lena.” Inessa chided.

Lena rolled her eyes. Her mother was unbelievable! If she hadn’t been on the phone ranting and raving, Lena could have jumped in and out the shower and applied her makeup by now. What a woman! “Right then mum, I’ll go and shower now and will speak to you tomorrow.”

“Promise?” Inessa questioned.

“Yeah, promise”

“Bye Lena”

“Bye Mum” Lena replaced the handset and glanced at the clock above the fireplace. Sh*t, it was 4:30pm! She had about half an hour before she would have to set out for the airport. With that she ran into the bathroom stripping her clothes off as she went.

[vicky7]

Chapter 2 – The ‘Perfect’ Boyfriend


Roman Popov - short dark hair, chocolate brown eyes, a perfect white smile and a beautiful body… The way he looked at her like she was the only girl on earth – she always felt so special when they were together she thought dreamily pulling out the new figure hugging short black dress she had bought especially for his homecoming. She detested dresses. She felt far more comfortable slumming about in her jeans, a t-shirt and her favourite trainers. She had never been a girly girl but as much as she hated to admit it, her mum was right. She had to make the effort for Roman. How else was she going to keep him? Roman could have anyone he wanted, why would he choose a tomboy over an ultra feminine woman, dressed to kill with the aim to please? The answer was – he wouldn’t.

Her wardrobe contained many short, tight designer dresses that Roman had carefully picked out for her during their two-month relationship, he was so generous. However, as far as Lena was concerned the one good thing about him working away was the fact that she rarely had to wear them. Besides the dresses, he bought her masses of sexy underwear but despite this Roman and Lena had in fact slept together only once. Tonight was going to be the second time – the difference being this time Lena was determined to remember it.

The traffic on the way to the airport was horrendous. Lena had desperately tried to weave her Mini Cooper through the heavy traffic but with little success. She finally arrived in the airport car park at 5.55pm, hastily pulling into a space, practically jumping out of the car before she had even pulled the keys from the ignition. She crossed the car park in two huge strides, pulled out some change and ran back to the car to display her ticket.

She ran inside the airport terminal, looking up at the arrivals board to see that flight MS563 from Paris had landed at 5.45pm. It was now 6.02pm. Roman would be with her in a matter of minutes.

6.06pm – She checked her watch again, still no sight of him. Out of the corner of her eye she noticed a stall selling flowers a few yards away. There was a huge selection of red roses and on impulse she decided to buy some. Why should guys always have to be the romantic ones? She picked out a dozen roses and handed over some money to the stallholder. He smiled warmly at her, she wasn’t the first to buy flowers for her loved one that day but in his opinion she was one of the prettiest, her boyfriend was a lucky guy. As she admired the bunch of roses and was about to turn around and go back to the arrivals lounge she felt two large hands cover her eyes and a familiar voice whispered in her ear “Guess who?”

She smiled. “I dunno, Justin Timberlake?” She heard Roman’s throaty laugh and turned around to see him smiling broadly at her.

“Hey, I’m sorry to disappoint you Elena but its only me, your boring boyfriend” he frowned, pretending to be hurt.

“Oh shame, well never mind, I suppose you’ll have to do.” She said with a cheeky grin.

“So, are they for your other boyfriend Elena?” Roman was pointing at the roses.

Roman always called her Elena. He considered Lena to be a common name and that she should use her full name, which was ‘classier’ or something. Lena had simply shrugged her shoulders when he had said this to her, it was no big deal as long as he wanted to be with her but she still considered it to be her ‘naughty’ name. As a child she always knew when she was in trouble when her mother shouted “ELENA, COME HERE PLEASE!” It happened frequently after her father left, she had found it hard to respect her mother after that. How hard was it to keep a man happy after all?

She remembered the flowers she was holding and held them out to Roman “There for you honey.”

“Oh, you shouldn’t have you know, I should be the one buying you flowers not the other way round” he exclaimed.

“Well, I just saw them and thought of you, I just had to buy them” A sudden shyness overcame Lena at this point. It had been Valentine’s Day four days earlier and Roman had evidently forgotten as she had not heard from him or received a card or anything. She had put it to the back of her mind because when he was around he was a great boyfriend, he just obviously didn’t believe in Valentine’s Day she had reasoned with herself.

“You’re such as sweetie” Roman engulfed her in his arms looking down into her eyes. Lena melted into her chocolate eyes as the intensity took over. She ruffled his hair lovingly “And you’re gorgeous.”

“Hey, don’t do that, you’ll mess me up” he protested

“You’re so vain, I thought appearances weren’t supposed to matter?”

“Only ugly people say that” Roman proclaimed seriously.

Lena laughed at this although she knew he wasn’t joking. “C’mon, let me take you home so I can show you how much I’ve missed you.”

“I thought you’d never ask.” With that he picked up his luggage in one hand and wrapped his free arm about Lena’s shoulders.

When Lena had gotten Roman back to the apartment she had served up a three course meal of his favourite asparagus soup, a huge fillet steak with all the trimmings, with herself as dessert – Roman did not know that yet though. After dinner she had excused herself to the kitchen to make coffee and disappeared to her bedroom. She changed into her cream satin negligee, which barely covered her thighs and returned to the dining area to offer herself up to Roman on a plate. He was still hungry.

Her legs wrapped around his waist as he carried her into the bedroom. He crashed her back against one of the bedroom walls kissing her roughly. Her back ached on the impact of the hard wall but she managed to suppress the pain. She kissed Roman back in an attempt to slow the tempo of the kissing and increase the intimacy and her enjoyment. However, Roman had other ideas and twisted around pushing her down on the bed landing heavily on top of her, a gasp of pain audible from Lena’s lips.

She could feel a hardness pushing against her as he unzipped himself ready for action. With that she pulled out a condom from her bedside cabinet and helped him into it. At that point Lena expected more foreplay, only to be bitterly disappointed. Roman plunged into her, her un-aroused body throbbing from the injection of the foreign object. She clenched her teeth trying not to scream from the pain he was inflicting upon her.

After a few minutes of Lena biting down on the pain, Roman looked down into her eyes expectantly, she knew what she had to do. With that she started to moan loudly. “Oh yes, Roman, yes, oh god…” she faked to the extreme. She could see he was satisfied by her reaction so she went silent, Roman then rolled off her on to the right side of the bed releasing himself from the condom, tossing it into the bin, falling asleep in an instant.

Lena watched his back steadily rise up and down, as he began to snore loudly. She felt utterly dejected. The last time (her first time) they had sex she had written off as a bad one off because she had been drunk out of her skull but this time… Well, she would have preferred to have gone to the dentists – she hated the dentists. Was that as good as it would ever be? Would she ever enjoy sex? Maybe some people were more sexual than others and Lena was one of the least sexual. But if that was the case why was she so disillusioned…


The following morning Lena woke up and watched Roman sleep for a while. He was so peaceful. When the clock read 10.01am she decided to get up and make breakfast. As she moved to leave the bedroom Roman groaned. “Where you going?”

“I just thought I’d make us some breakfast.”

“Mmm, sounds good” He pulled Lena close for a quick kiss.

She departed from the bedroom as Roman watched on. Elena was good wife material as far as he was concerned – the typical trophy wife. She was pretty, sweet and intelligent but slightly boring and the sex although they had only had it twice was appalling. Thank god there were others who filled his sexual requirements. He lay there groggily for several minutes before his mobile phone started to ring. Svetlana, his phone told him, her name flashing up on the display.

“Hello”

“Hey Roman, I take it you’re with that prissy girlfriend of yours” Svetlana bitched.

“Yeah, I’m at her place now” he whispered looking around suspiciously for Lena’s reappearance.

“Come on, get round here so I can give you the ride of your life.” Roman smiled to himself; Svetlana was the best in bed.

“What are you wearing?” he asked cheekily.

“Wouldn’t you like to know?” she answered coyly. Roman raised an eyebrow at this, completely turned on.

“When you coming round?” Svetlana questioned.

As soon as I can, promise.”

“Roman, breakfast is ready, honey.” Lena called sweetly.

“Coming sweetie.” he acknowledged.

“Yeah go get your breakfast Roman, you’re gonna need all the energy you can get” Svetlana purred down the phone seductively twirling the phone cable around her fingers. She knew he would be around within the hour, of that she was completely certain.

Roman hurried to the kitchen as soon as he had gotten off the phone to Svetlana. He gulped down the breakfast Lena had placed in front of him at break neck speed. He wanted to go to Svetlana as soon as possible. He felt guilty but he was a man who needed sexual pleasure and lots of it. It wasn’t his fault Lena couldn’t deliver.

“Roman” Lena interrupted his thoughts. “I’m gonna invite Mum, Boris and Katya for dinner tonight, you’ll come won’t you?” She enquired hopefully.

“Hey, of course I will sweetie, anything for you, my love.”

Lena smiled contentedly. “I knew I could rely on you.”

Roman smirked to himself as Lena turned and took his plate from him to wash it in the sink. If she really thought he was prepared to make small talk with her nagging mother, her dimwit stepfather and that brat of a sister then she really was delusional. But whatever, he was gong to make his excuses and leave in a few minutes to go and get well and truly laid. That was all he could think about right now, sex.

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Chapter 3 – A Family Dinner Party

After Roman had left her apartment Lena prepared her own modest breakfast comprising of low fat cereal, skimmed milk and a cup of her favourite herbal tea. She had to work so hard to stay slim, food didn’t like her too much, and she seemed to only have to look at a bar of chocolate to feel the pounds piling on. Also, for some reason when she was around Roman she could barely eat a thing always concerned she was eating like a pig and was not ladylike enough for him.

As she devoured her breakfast she flicked through Saturday’s newspaper to find bad news, more bad news and wait for it, she thought turning the page hopefully… more bad news. She sighed as she turned the page again this time arriving at the horoscopes section. She didn’t really believe in horoscopes but there was no harm in reading them was there? The first few lines did not really say anything and then she read the last few lines. “If you follow your heart and not your head you will unlock the door to a new era of your life, don’t be afraid.”

Mmm, maybe tonight’s dinner party would finally resolve all the family tension and they would all live happily ever all Lena thought. She wasn’t counting on it but she picked up the phone to call her mother anyway, she had promised after all.


“Yeah Mum, ok.” Lena said trying to bring the conversation to an end.

“Are you sure you don’t need me to come and help you, you’re not the best in the kitchen” Inessa griped.

“I’ve been practising, I’m getting good at cooking now you’ll be surprised, honestly,” Lena answered through gritted teeth. Her mother and her criticism did her head in. Fair enough everyone needs a little constructive criticism but her mother’s criticism was purely destructive. Even when Lena had excelled in her finals the most she got out of her mother was “We expected nothing less of you.” No congratulations, no nothing.

The best thing about her graduation was the brief appearance of her father. He had looked so proud of her and she was so glad to see him even if her Mum and Boris had scared him away. Why Boris had even bothered to attend the graduation she would never know. To him she was just a reminder of Inessa’s past with Sergey, someone who lived in his house but was not part of his family. As far as Boris was concerned his family consisted of Inessa and Katya. There was no room for Lena something he reminded her of on a regular basis she had been pushed out since the day her brat of a half sister was born. If Lena had something Katya wanted it crying until Boris had taken it off Lena and given it to her. She would then smirk at Lena with a knowing look that she was the important daughter, the only one that mattered.

Inessa had never stuck up for Lena, disappearing the second Boris was shouting and cursing at her. Lena had always been studious with little time for boys and Boris would always torment her with his comments, which she could still recall vividly.

“Shouldn’t you be out f**king like other girls?” he would say with venom in his voice. “But then again who would want you? Your own father doesn’t even want you, does he? I bet you wish you were pretty like Katya but that’s never going to happen, so I’d study all you can because you’re always going to be alone, always because you’re ugly!”

Unshed tears would sting her eyes but she would never crack in front of Boris, the hate she felt towards him wouldn’t allow her to show him any weakness, he was a bully and bullies thrived on weakness Lena knew as much. She had simply vowed to work as hard as she could so she could go to University and leave the hell of her ‘family’ existence behind her. The only thing that kept her happy at home had been her beloved Blanca, the most loving cuddly Chow chow ever, always so pleased to see her and being a present from her Dad being all the more special. Since Blanca had died Lena felt she had even fewer reasons to visit the family home.

Once she had hung up the phone she made a list of all the things she had to buy from the supermarket before grabbing her keys and heading out of her apartment block. The block of apartments was full of young professionals just like Lena and she was already on speaking terms with the majority of her floor. She was going to love living here she was sure.

As the supermarket was on the other side of town she had to go by car and as it was Saturday morning the traffic was heavy. When Lena got to the front of the queue of traffic the lights changed from green to red, just her luck! For some unknown reason she felt the urge to look around her and out of the corner of her eye she saw a child sat in a shop doorway a few hundred yards away. Such a little thing, a girl, Lena thought.
She was scrunched up in a ball, seemingly trying to protect herself from the world as people walked by chatting and laughing ignoring her. She was invisible to them - a nobody. Why didn’t anyone care about the little girl? What had she done that had been so bad that the whole world had turned their backs on her? Lena couldn’t help but think.

BEEP, BEEP!

The lights had turned to green and the angry drivers behind her impatiently urged her to go. Lena put the car into gear and sped off in autopilot, distracted with thoughts of the homeless child.


“God, it’s 7.15pm, where is everybody” Lena exclaimed out loud to herself. She was getting very frustrated now, Roman had promised her he would be there by half past six to help her get ready for when her family turned up at seven but he had not arrived and his mobile was switched off and the answer phone had picked up at his apartment. Why the hell was he doing this to her, he knew how important this dinner was to her. She wanted to show her crappy family she had everything now and that she had achieved it all by herself without them and she didn’t need them for anything. Roman had let her down so badly, she was extremely disappointed with him she had been so sure she could trust him.

She could feel the tears starting to come and she looked at herself in the mirror trying to get a grip of herself. She was pretty enough, intelligent, good at her job and a nice person so why should she let any of them get her down. She had been independent most of her life as she had no one to depend on so why did she need anyone now. She was a fighter, it was her against the world and she would win, she had to.

At that moment the doorbell rang and Lena quickly ran a hand through her hair and straightened her tight top and her trousers and walked to the door with a smile fixed firmly on her face. It was the family all wearing grimaces, just for a change.

“Hi!” Lena said over enthusiastically “I was beginning to think you’d got lost.” She joked.

“We did” Boris grunted.

“Oh” Lena’s enthusiasm died it was going to be a long night.

“Can we come in or do we have to wait outside with all the prostitutes?” Katya snarled her pretty features screwed up in obvious distain for Lena.

“Sure, come in and take a seat.” she said ushering them into the living room. Katya and Boris sat down and Boris noticing the television remote control picked it up and flicked on the television set. Inessa who had yet to sit down was wandering around the apartment taking in every detail occasionally flicking her fingers across Lena’s furniture eagerly searching for dust. When she couldn’t find any she turned the conversation to Roman, Lena had wondered how long it would be until she noticed his absence.

“So, where’s Roman?” she probed.

Lena felt uncomfortable, how could she say she didn’t know without making a fool out of herself in front of Boris and Katya. Her mother she could handle but she knew despite the fact they were both watching the television that they were waiting for her reply so they could pounce with their snide comments and she was determined not to give them the satisfaction.

“Can I get you all a drink? Roman will..” Lena was cut off by the sound of the phone ringing. Please let it be Roman she thought to herself. She snatched the phone off the kitchen wall. “Hello?” she asked hopefully.

“Lena, its me honey” Lena could feel herself relax and released the breathe she seemed to have been holding since her family had arrived, Roman was going to save her she was sure. “Hey Roman, where are you?”

“I’ve had a disaster..”

“What? You’re alright aren’t you, please tell me you’re alright” she panicked.

“Lena, Lena, calm down, I’m fine there’s just an emergency at work. I got called in a few hours ago and just got so caught up in it all that I forgot to call. You forgive me don’t you sweetie, I know you’re put a lot of effort into dinner, I’m really sorry, I can’t tell you how disappointed I am that I can’t meet your family”

“What? You mean you’re not coming,” she barked at him down the phone.

“Look, I’m sorry Lena but I’m up to my eyes in it.” Roman said apologetically.

Lena heard laughing in the background at that point that she found confusing, if things were so bad at work why was that girl laughing? “Who’s that?” Lena couldn’t resist asking; she could feel jealousy coursing through her veins at the sound of that haughty laugh.

“My secretary, she’s chatting to one of her boyfriends on the phone.” he replied

“You wanna ask her what’s so funny? When you’ve got an emergency, it’s a little inappropriate when you’re all stressed out.”

“Hmm, yeah, look I gotta go I think I’m gonna be here to at least eleven o’clock so I’ll phone you later on if that’s alright to see how dinner went”

“Ahh that will be great, I’ll miss you baby” Lena said sweetly softening towards him.

“I’ll miss you too, speak to you later” Roman said echoing her tone.

“Ok, bye Roman”

Lena replaced the phone on the receiver and looked around at the family they were all staring intently at her. Before she had the chance to open her mouth and explain away Roman’s absence Boris decided to speak instead. “I take it your baby isn’t coming.” he said sarcastically.

“Roman’s had an emergency at work” she said turning her back on Boris and talking to her mother. Although Inessa never had any sympathy for Lena she thought she might have some for Roman after all she had always liked the sound of rich, handsome Roman despite the fact she had never laid eyes on him.

“That’s such a shame, I really wanted to meet him tonight”

“Yeah, that’s the only reason she wanted to come to have a nosey at this rich guy you’ve been knobbing” Katya piped up.

Lena shot her an evil look and Inessa chided her “Katya don’t talk like that, I came to see how your sister was settling in”

“Yeah, right whatever and she’s not my sister” Katya pointed out. “My Dad’s not a loser!”

Lena lost her cool, she had had enough insults when she was at home but things were different now, this was her home and she wasn’t being spoken to like that by that little sh*t, no way. “KATYA SHUT YOUR MOUTH YOU SILLY LITTLE BITCH!”

“Lena, don’t speak to her like that” Inessa said defending her teenage daughter.

“No, I’ve had enough, I refuse to have those f**king idiots sniping at me the whole time, I’m not at home anymore” Lena raged.

“No, but perhaps its time we were. Come on Inessa, Katya, we’re going, let’s leave her alone like she deserves to be.” Boris got up, eyeballing Lena coldly before grabbing Inessa around the shoulder and marching her out of the apartment.

Katya trailed behind them and Lena could only watch on. To Lena’s surprise Katya turned round and smirked at her. “Lena”

“What?” she answered defensively.

“Can you smell something burning?”

“Oh sh*t!” Lena ran to the oven where smoke was beginning to belch its way through the oven door, hearing Katya laugh and the door slam shut behind her. So much for a new era.

[vicky7]

Chapter 4 – Have A Pizza This

Lena’s head pounded, the expensive food she had bought was ruined, her boyfriend was working and she had been left to deal with her family alone. What a night! She was absolutely staving! Suppressing a yawn Lena grabbed her big overcoat in anticipation of the bitter weather that had begun to descend upon Moscow and headed for the door. She lumbered down the steps, avoiding the elevator as her fear of closed spaces prevented her from taking that easy option. She walked out of her apartment building smiling at the young doorman as she walked onto the main street.

She had decided she wanted pizza so she crossed the road to the pizza parlour, noticing the doorway that had earlier been occupied by the small child had been vacated. Lena felt bad at that moment, here she was feeling sorry for herself and some poor child was probably walking the streets that very second, by comparison she was so lucky.

“F**KIN’ DON’T COME BEGGIN’ FOR FOOD HERE, YOU F**KIN’ PIECE OF SHIT, CRAWL BACK INTO THE GUTTER WHERE YOU BELONG!” A big, round man with a huge red face was shouting at the top of his voice at a child, a vein throbbing furiously in his temple, the child was the one Lena had just been thinking about…

The child scurried past Lena and Lena could tell at that moment it was a young girl, just a few inches shorter than herself. As she glanced behind her she noticed that the girl had once again taken up station in the shop doorway. Lena scowled and walked deep in thought into the pizza parlour. Having realised that Lena must have witnessed the scene with the girl the man distinctly altered his tone of voice as he spoke to her.

“Sorry about that Miss, just had some homeless kid come in ‘ere beggin’ for food as if I’m some charity.”

Lena nodded and smiled half-heartedly. She didn’t understand why was it so hard to show a bit of kindness to someone who didn’t have a home, a bed or a family. Well, she thought determinedly if he wouldn’t help the girl, she would.

“What can I get you Miss” the pot bellied pig of a man enquired.

“I’ll have two Meat Feasts, two portions of garlic bread and two bottles of coke please.”

Lena paid for the food, waiting impatiently for it to be ready. If he didn’t hurry up the girl might have gone and Lena would have pizza coming out of her ears. Finally it was ready and she walked out the door laden with pizza boxes. She could see from a distance that the girl was still there. Lena hesitated for a moment, what if the girl was scared of her? What if she lashed out and had a knife or something? Lena took a deep breath and got a grip of herself powering her way towards the hunched figure that lay in the doorway. The girl’s head was bent low, her long, matted dark hair concealing her face.

“Hey” Lena said gently waiting for the girl to respond.

From what Lena could see she was in a right state, her oversized coat was frayed at the seams with the padding falling out of it while the tattered pink sweater she was wearing was caked in dirt. Her denim jeans were torn at the knees, threadbare in places exposing pale bruised skin. She really was tiny, like a porcelain doll nobody wanted anymore that had been discarded and left outside with the rubbish.

The girl looked up, her eyes peeping at her through the matted curtain of hair. Her eyes were beautiful. Big, blue but so empty. Lena was stunned at the girl’s numbed expression. She looked beyond pain, completely defeated.

“What do you want?” the girl enquired.

“I just heard that guy from the pizza place have a go at you just then…”

“What? So you’re here to have a go as well I suppose. Well, don’t bother, I know I’m a waste of space, so just save your breath OK!” The girl said exasperated. Why wouldn’t people just leave her alone?

“Well, err actually I just thought you might like some pizza”

“Oh I..” Lena could see that the girl obviously didn’t know what to say.

“There’s nothing wrong with it, here” Lena said handing the pizza boxes and a bottle of coke out in front of the girl.

The girl slowly grabbed the items from Lena, still looking uncertain of if it was some kind of cruel joke, she watched intently for a change in Lena’s kind expression to one of hate and disgust, which had become all too familiar. “Thank you Miss, I don’t really know what to say.” she responded

“Don’t say anything just eat it before it goes cold.” Lena said smiling kindly.

“Thank you Miss”

“Call me Lena”

“Thanks Lena” Yulia said between gulps of pizza. She was so hungry that the tasty goodness of the food in her mouth was making her feel slightly light headed. Despite being tiny she loved food and could eat loads but recently she had been living on scraps so now she was in sheer bliss with all this pizza.

“You are very welcome erh…” Lena hesitated realising that she didn’t know the girl’s name.

“Yulia.” The girl filled in for her.

“Are you sleeping out here tonight Yulia?” Lena asked concerned

“No” Yulia lied “I’m going to the hostel in a bit I just thought I’d try and get some free pizza! The food at the hostel ain’t that hot, pea soup and more pea soup, its bloody awful.” she mused, feeling comfortable in Lena’s presence.

“I bet its about as good as my cooking.” Lena joked, “I nearly burned my apartment down before!”

“Really? Is your apartment all right? Yulia asked concerned, she liked this Lena girl, she seemed very sweet and she had the most incredible green eyes.

“Yeah, I just ended up with a bruised ego more than anything. I was cooking dinner for my family of all the luck, I’ll never hear the end of it from Mum believe me!”
God, her Mum would go ballistic if she could see her talking to this homeless girl but she was nice so why did it matter.

Yulia nodded her head knowingly “Mums are like that aren’t they? Every little thing you do put under the microscope.” She felt sad as she thought about her own mother and the way she had turned her back on her only child. Yulia would never have thought it was possible just a year ago; they used to be so close.

“I take it your Mum’s a pain as well” Lena empathised.

“God, she’s the worst!” Yulia exclaimed animating her elfin features into a grimace.

“Sounds like our Mums would be the best of friends”

“They’d probably have a ball!” Yulia joked, her eye twinkling. They both laughed it was comforting to know they weren’t the only people on earth who didn’t get along with their mothers.

At that point for some reason Lena felt it was time to go. She had done her good deed for the day and she was expecting a call from Roman. He had said he was going to call to see how dinner had gone; she had plenty to tell him that was for sure.

“Well, I’d better be going now Yulia. I’m expecting my boyfriend to call shortly.” She felt it was a lame excuse but she could hardly stand here all night.

“Hey, no problem, its getting cold out here I’ve gotta head off to the hostel in a few minutes anyway.” She could tell the redhead felt guilty for leaving so she decided to help her out. Yulia could tell by the relieved expression on Lena’s face that she had succeeded in putting her at ease.

“Ok then, goodnight Yulia”

“Yeah, goodnight Lena and thanks again.”

“Your welcome” Lena smiled to Yulia and was rewarded with the most beautiful smile in return. Lena’s heart melted. Why did she feel so bad walking away from this girl and leaving her in the gutter? Despite what the pizza parlour pig had said Yulia didn’t belong out there. But no one in their right mind would just take some random person in off the streets would they? That would be crazy. Too late, another part of her said. She’d been crazy for all of her twenty-two years so why stop now? She remembered this morning’s horoscope “If you follow your heart and not your head you will unlock the door to a new era of your life, don’t be afraid.”

At that she stopped at the door of her building and did an about turn to the bewilderment of the doorman and went back to the shop doorway. It was empty, the girl was gone. Lena didn’t know why but she felt disappointed, she really wanted to see the gorgeous little street urchin because although she’d had her reservations she had enjoyed talking to Yulia. Oh well, at least she’s going to have a bed for the night at the hostel she thought as she sighed and turned around to head home.

In a doorway two blocks away Yulia curled herself up, her belly full, her head full of happy thoughts of the pretty, kind redhead. For the first time in ages someone had actually been interested in talking to her she hadn’t realised how much she’d missed that. Thank god nice people still exist.

Yulia’s mind was distracted away from Lena as she heard the church bells sound in the distance. It was midnight and technically her twenty-second birthday. Happy Birthday Yulia she wished herself sadly. Gloom had washed over her as she set aside the evening’s events. Yes, Lena had bought her pizza but she had soon left hadn’t she? She had spent enough time with Yulia to know that she wasn’t worth anything not even her pity. How pathetic was she it was her birthday and she had no one to celebrate with. Inwardly as she gazed into the darkness and the cold of night gripped mercilessly at her body she doubted whether she would see her twenty-third birthday. Did she really want to continue as she was or would she be better off dead?

[vicky7]

Chapter 5 – The White Knightess
Yulia awoke to the sound of birds singing, opening her eyes and squinting against the early morning sun. Despite the fact she had been living on the streets for over nine months now it always surprised her waking up on the streets rather than in her own bed. Things couldn’t have been more different just a year ago when she had woken up smiling, her face covered with tender sweet butterfly kisses, body entwined with her girlfriend Anouska the only person she had ever fallen in love with.

They had spent a wonderful day together with Anouska spoiling Yulia by bring her breakfast in bed with birthday presents and a single red rose. The best thing for Yulia was when Anouska had made love to her in the shower pushing her beyond the realms of ecstasy into pure unadulterated bliss. She had never trusted anyone as much allowing Anouska to see a part of Yulia no one ever saw. The Yulia that was a gentle, sensitive romantic as opposed to the spiky, sarcastic sex bomb who loved to have sex and lots of it… with men. If they had all only known where her heart’s desire belonged.

Yulia had felt better for knowing Anouska her life seemingly getting better in all areas including in her fashion design degree were she was doing outstanding work and being tipped for huge success within the fashion industry. At the time her creative talents were purely energised by the happiness Anouska gave her. However, Anouska who had given her all she had ever wanted had ultimately taken it all away, stripping her of her love and her spirit that she had yet to recover.

As Yulia pondered what she had lost in the last year she wandered aimlessly around in circles watching all the happy people smiling and laughing jealously consuming her whole. Why did she have to fall in love with someone who thought nothing of betraying and discarding her?

Yulia had grown sick and tired of living a lie pretending she and Anouska were no more than friends when in fact no one meant more to her in the world not even her parents. Yulia had decided on impulse to tell her parents about her relationship with Anouska because as far as she was concerned she had done nothing for which she should feel ashamed. She prepared herself, not really knowing what kind of reaction to expect. It was explosive, harsh words, a sharp slap and utter condemnation for being what she was-in love. She had managed to throw only a few worldly possessions in a bag before she left the house slamming the door shut on her parents and childhood home. She was a woman now it was the right time for her to start the next phase of her life with her soul mate. That was all she wanted- to be with Anouska forever.

The first thought Yulia had upon leaving her house was to go to Anouska. Yulia couldn’t quite believe what had happened. Had her father really branded her a dyke and a whore? Her mother had just sat there sobbing unable to comprehend what Yulia was saying. She was such a weak person and Yulia refused to be like her, she was strong willed and independent she always had been so she wouldn’t change now no matter how much they tried to bully her and break her into submission. She refused to give up that ‘nonsense’ as her father had called it, he didn’t know anything about her and Anouska.

When she walked round to Anouska’s house and rang the doorbell she noticed that Anouska’s parents’ cars were not on the driveway. Good she smiled to herself she could spend some alone time with her girl discussing their future plans. It was going to be difficult for them at first but as long as they had each other they would be fine, Yulia was as certain of that as she was her own name.

When Anouska came to the door she was wearing only a dressing gown, her long dark chestnut locks tousled and her eyes misted over with sleep. As it was 4.30pm this was strange as Anouska never napped in the afternoon and Anouska seemed shocked to see Yulia wide-eyed with an expression she found hard to read.

“Hey baby” Yulia kissed Anouska’s rosy cheek feeling bewildered at her lack of response. Was Anouska mad at her and if so what had she done?

“Are you ok Anouska?” Yulia asked concerned, her brow furrowed.

“Yeah, fine, erm, I was just..feeling tired and decided to have a nap you know.”

“Sleeping without me, what have I told you about that” Yulia gently smoothed a lock of stray hair away from Anouska’s face cupping her chin in her hand. “You know come to think of it I feel kinda sleepy too, can I join you?” Anouska flinched away from Yulia’s touch leaving her question unanswered.

“It’s not a trick question” Yulia probed.

“Look Yul, Mum and Dad will be back in a few minutes do you mind coming back in about an hour or better still I’ll come to your house”

“You can’t!” Yulia knew she had to tell Anouska what had happened with her parents but she had at least hoped for a kiss to soothe her before she told her the whole sordid tale.

“Why not” Anouska was visibly confused.

“I told my Mum and Dad about us” Yulia blurted out. “They’ve chucked me out Anouska, I’ve got nowhere else to go.”

“But why tell them, things were fine as they were.” Anouska protested.

“No they weren’t, lying and pretending we’re not together, sneaking around! I can’t do it anymore! I want the whole world to know just how much I love you because I do you know, really, really love you.” Yulia voice broke, all her emotions rising to the surface.

“Yul…”

“Anouska what you doing?” A male voice called down from upstairs.

Yulia hesitated for a second before pushing past Anouska going into the lounge and climbing the stairs rapidly with Anouska running behind her. “Yulia, where you going you can’t go up there” Anouska put a hand on Yulia’s shoulder but Yulia didn’t answer and simply shrugged her off until she was on the landing directly in front of Anouska’s door. It was slightly ajar so she tapped it gently open the scene before her confirming her worst fears.

It was Sasha, Yulia’s best male friend in Anouska’s bed on the left hand side she usually occupied his naked body barely covered by the white duvet. “What the f**k!” Yulia shouted clenching her tiny fists, she wanted to beat the shit out of him so badly how dare he!

“Yulia look I can explain” Anouska was now stood in front of Yulia shielding her from the sight of Sasha with both hands holding her firmly by the shoulders.

“Don’t touch me, don’t ever touch me again!” Yulia felt sick to her stomach, she had openly declared her love for Anouska to her parents, been almost proud to announce it and what for, someone who ultimately had made a fool out of her. She felt as disgusted with herself as she was with Anouska and Sasha, she had let them do this to her. She had softened, given away too much of herself so what had she expected.

“Yulia, please listen to me” Anouska pleaded with Yulia but she was unable to look her in the face she was afraid she would want to smash it up. She had always trusted the look in Anouska’s eyes when she kissed her and made love to her it told her she loved her and that she was the only one that mattered. It was all fake-she had given up her life for a love that didn’t exist.

“Why?” Yulia whispered staring intently at the floor.

“I thought I loved you but I just realised that we should just be friends… it made me happier being your friend…I need more Yul.. Sasha can give me that.”

“Oh, I get it!” Yulia felt a wave of red mist descend upon her and she had to let the anger out. “Sex, huh, you need a bit of dick inside you to get off right? God, you’re a f**ing joke, I thought we had more than that but then again I thought I knew who you were but now I see you both as you are, you’re a complete and utter bastard” she said pointing at Sasha. “And, you” Yulia looked at Anouska now, she realised it was the last time she would ever see her. “You are a slut, you ab-solute-ly f**king disgust me and I never want to see you again!” Yulia’s voice shock with emotion and she swung her hand back and slapped Anouska’s face as hard as she could. The girl cried out in pain but she spun on her heel not looking back to see the damage she had inflicted running down the stairs out of the house needing to get as far away as possible from Anouska, Sasha and her parents.

[vicky7]

Thinking about Anouska always hurt her deeply but her dreams the previous night had tormented her more than usual. Bizarrely pizza was flying around her head and no matter how hard she tried and how high she jumped it was forever out of her reach. Laughter began to echo all around her and at first as she spun around to see where it was coming from bewilderingly there wasn’t anyone in sight.

“Is anybody there?” she yelled her voice bouncing off the walls in reply. Complete confusion..

Then they appeared. Her parents were standing with Anouska and Sasha laughing and pointing at Yulia. “Stop, please, stop!” she pleaded. In the end she gave up sitting down and burying her head in her lap as she tried to drown the laughter out, the noise twirled round her head. Why wouldn’t they stop laughing? All of a sudden the laughter cut out someone scooping her up in their arms and holding her close. They felt so warm and soft and smelt so sweet. When she looked up she saw the face of an angel, an angel with sparkling green eyes and red hair. Lena…

With her head caught up in the past Yulia hadn’t noticed hunger set in and feeling decidedly weak and dizzy she needed to rest so she sat down in a vacant alleyway as far out of sight as possible. She had set aside her usual numbness that day as the feeling she should be spending her birthday with people who loved her really hurt because there wasn’t anyone who even cared. The thought overcame her not for the first time that day Yulia’s body racked with sobs wrapping her arms around herself trying to regain some form of control but she couldn’t stop the tears coming long and hard until the day had turned into night and the tears translated into a tiredness that sent her into a deep sleep.

Yulia awoke with a start she could hear men’s drunken voices shouting and slurring their words and then she saw them. Three large men in their thirties dwarfing her grinning menacingly. Yulia gulped nervously she knew she was in trouble. “Hey little girl do you want some money?” Yulia didn’t answer and a hail of coins rained down upon her.

“STOP!” Yulia yelled trying to protect herself, she was struck several times in the face and it was stinging painfully from the impact of the coins blood flowing freely from the wounds.

“Is that enough for you? So can we f**k you now little girl?” one of the yobbos sneered.

This tipped Yulia over the edge, she refused to be their victim. She stood up and kneed the guy in the groin barging her way between the other men her elbows pointed out in self-defence. She ran as fast as her small body could carry her weaving her way through the streets until she was safe from the chasing pack relieved they were drunk and leaden footed.

Now she was back at her doorway the one where she had met Lena. She leant against the shop door inhaling and exhaling frantically trying to catch her breathe, her heart pounding in her chest and her ears, her legs starting to give way until she had slid down the door and onto the floor. What she would give to see Lena now, just twenty four hours ago she had given her hope now it had completely evaporated into thin air.

Yulia could feel that she had several cuts on her face, which were bleeding profusely. She raised a hand to touch her face stroking her fingers slowly over the broken skin, drawing them back in front of her face to see they were stained red with blood. She needed to clean up so she decided to head to the public toilet a few blocks away. On the way she looked around nervously and hopefully at the same time part of her scared she would see the gang and the other eager to catch a glimpse of Lena but she saw neither.

When she entered the toilets she looked around to find that no one was there and felt relieved as she knew she looked like shit and wanted to be left alone. When she looked into the mirror the extent of her injuries caught her off guard. She had several diminutive cuts on her face but there was a large gash under her right eye that oozed blood and was swelling up rapidly.

Yulia examined herself more intensely in the mirror the image of the girl in front of her causing tears to stream down her bloodied dirty face. The girl’s eyes lacked life, her skin grey, her features bony and hollow and her hair a greasy mass of split ends and knots. This was not Yulia Volkova. She was dead. Yulia took one last look at herself in the mirror and everything became clear all at once. She knew exactly what she had to do…

Yulia was determined. It all had to end. All of it. The shit. She couldn’t take it. No more. She refused. It had gone on long enough. Nobody understood her. They didn’t even try. She wished she had never been born. Why did it matter anymore? The world didn’t want her. But she didn’t want the world. Well f**k the world. F**k her parents. F**k Anouska and Sasha. F**k life. She was about to.

The corner shop was still open and Yulia could see through the window that the shop assistant was busy serving a long queue of customers. It was time to put her plan into action. She casually walked into the shop trying not to draw attention to herself walking down the shop aisle until she found what she wanted. She looked around carefully to find that there were no security cameras in the store and that she was the only one in the aisle so she quickly grabbed a large bottle of headache tablets from the shelf sliding them into her pocket. She looked around her again there was still no one there to notice.

The second part of her plan was more difficult and sure to draw attention to her but she needed to do it to ensure the plan would succeed. If she was going to die it had to be painless because deep down under all her bravado she was a coward, why else did she run away from it all? The alcohol was kept in a glass chiller adjacent to the till so she would have to be pretty crafty in order to escape from the shop unnoticed. The queue at the till point was still long and she could see that the old man serving looked tired and stressed obviously wishing it was closing time. She could do this she knew it.

She saw a large bottle of vodka on the shelf and picked it up pretending to be looking at the label, she made the mistake of looking round and saw several people eyeing her suspiciously. She panicked, scared. What if they took the bottle off her and she was unable to execute her plan. She ran out of the shop to shouts from some customers and continued to run for several minutes until she felt entirely sure that nobody was chasing her.

When she slowed down she saw she was alone and calmed down for the first time in ages she had managed to do something right she smiled to herself bitterly. The signs were all telling her to do it. She took the cap off the bottle and took a deep slug of vodka. It burned her insides as she swallowed but it was a pleasurable pain. She pulled the bottle of pills out of her pocket and emptied some of the contents of the bottle onto the palm of her hand studying the small white round tablets that would end her misery. She popped one into her mouth taking another slug of vodka to wash it down before continuing to swallow more and more pills and vodka until everything went hazy and her worries slipped away. Goodbye…



“I’m gonna call the police” the shopkeeper yelled angrily, he was always targeted by the homeless bums and he was sick of it. “I know who that girl is, she sleeps in the doorway down the street, and I’m gonna get her ass busted!”

“Don’t!” a voice from the queue shouted a pretty red head stepping forward. “Don’t call the police, I’ve talked to her before she’s a nice girl…she was just probably desperate…”

“What-for vodka? Food I can understand because the kid’s so scrawny but vodka?”

Lena couldn’t defend her, she didn’t understand what Yulia had just done but she wasn’t going to let the old man phone the police. “Look, here this will cover the vodka please take it but don’t phone the police” Lena handed him a large note the anger on his face diminishing when he saw that he had made a profit.

“Well ok Miss but if you see that little runt assure her that if I catch her in my store again she’s going to jail!” Lena nodded she didn’t want to listen to him go on much longer she needed to find Yulia, she had let Lena down and she was going to hear about it that was for sure, no more Miss nice Lena. Did they all take her for some kind of wimp?



Lena power walked down the street, stopping at Yulia’s doorway and seeing no sign of her. Where the hell was the little vagabond? Lena could feel her anger slowly ebbing away she was beginning to worry now. Was Yulia alright? She continued to walk down the long road until she was met with a dead end-she would have to turn back and look for the little girl elsewhere but she didn’t know where to start. Then out of the corner of her eye she noticed a diminutive figure sat on the floor a few metres away. It was Yulia she was staring wide eyed up to the sky cradling the stolen bottle of vodka, which appeared to be half empty at the very least.

Lena ran over to her eager to vent her frustrations on Yulia the concern she was feeling suddenly reverting to anger through the sheer relief of finding her. “Yulia, Yulia what the fuck are you playing at?”

Yulia smiled goofily at Lena, her blue eyes glazed over. “An angel?” she asked out loud confused but would an angel really swear at her but she was so lovely she simply had to be on Yulia reasoned with herself.

“I don’t know what the f**k you’re talking about but come on you’re coming home with me but god you’ll wish you’ve never been born when I’ve finished with you” Lena could feel she was red in the face with fury but she was deeply concerned she wanted to sober her up and then kill her- that was the plan anyway.

Yulia giggled “You’re such a funny angry angel, come on chill out and have some vodka?” Yulia held out the bottle to Lena but it slipped through her fingers smashing into several fragments of glass.

“Awww noo, I like vodka I want more!”

“Well tough sh*t! We’re going home!” Lena pulled Yulia up off the floor but despite her being a tiny girl her drunkenness made it very awkward for Lena to help her walk as Yulia had no control over her limbs whatsoever. As Lena put one of Yulia’s arms around her neck and pulled her close to her in order to take her weight she noticed that her face was covered in cuts and redoubled her efforts to get her home as quickly as possible. Someone had hurt her Lena was sure of that but she was going to make it better but she needed to get her back to the apartment first.

After a few minutes of difficulty with Yulia seemingly about to doze off they reached Lena’s apartment block. The doorman eyed Yulia snobbishly obviously wondering what the hell Lena was doing bringing such a cretin into the luxurious apartment building but Lena was too occupied with Yulia to care. She knew she would have to take her up in the lift because no way on earth would she be able to carry her up four flights of stairs, she would have to face her fear.

In Lena’s struggle to press the lift button part and carry Yulia at the same time Lena lost grip of Yulia and she tumbled to the floor a bottle of pills falling out of her coat pocket. Lena picked it up examining the label, the bottle was missing quite a number of pills and alarm bells started to go off in her head …

“Yulia what have you done?” Lena yelled looking down at Yulia on the floor.

“I can’t take it anymore it has to end…” she mumbled, her eyes rolling unable to focus any longer, she wanted to go to sleep forever..



The lift doors burst open Lena and Yulia nearly falling through them as Lena struggled to carry Yulia’s weight as well as her own. She felt suddenly light headed the implications of what Yulia had done hitting her hard. She had to think clearly though and she had to do it now.

She struggled to get the key into the lock on her front door as her hand was shaking so badly but eventually she managed to get the key in the door and turned the lock dragging Yulia inside the apartment. Then she lay her down quickly on the sofa and ran outside into the corridor and pounded her fists on a nearby door.

“Dominik, Dominik, open up it’s Lena! I need you to help me!” she yelled desperately. Dominik appeared at the door in just his underpants, his hair rumpled, looking half asleep it was after all half past eleven at night and he was due in work early the following morning. Dominik was a doctor so Lena was relying on him to be able to help Yulia.

“Lena what’s the matter?” he asked concerned in a stupor.

“This girl who I know on the streets she’s taken a lot of pills and drank a lot of vodka, I don’t know what to do, please, please help me!”

Dominik sprang into action now wide awake as the adrenalin kicked in. He was used to dealing with emergencies and he did grabbed his doctors briefcase and hurried out into the hallway and into Lena’s apartment leaving Lena trailing behind, she was in a trance shocked at what was happening.

When they arrived in the apartment Yulia was lying flat out on the sofa her mouth wide open and her eyes shut. Lena held her breathe tears beginning to stream down her face and neck. Yulia was dead and it was all her fault she was sure of it.

Dominik went over to Yulia’s limp body and checked her pulse it was weak but she was still alive , just.. There was no time to get her to the hospital, if Yulia was to survive now was the time he would have to bring her round by vigorously pumping her stomach. The harmful substances had to be removed from her body and he didn’t have time to waste.

Lena watched on silently crying all the time Dominik was saving Yulia. She really liked this girl. Although, she had only met her once she had enjoyed talking to her, Yulia had seemed happy in spite of her circumstances and then she had met Lena and decided to end it all, what did that say about her? Had she been the one to push her over the edge she had left her rather abruptly the previous night had she upset her?

Life was so cruel. Lena and Yulia had more in common than Yulia would probably realise and Lena was determined that once, if, Dominik revived Yulia she would make sure she would never feel so bad again in her life.

Lena heard retching noises as Dominik started to successfully revive Yulia. Dominik talked kindly and patiently to Yulia trying his best to comfort her. Thank god for him or else Yulia would have been dead. As it was she was deadly pale fluttering her eyes very slowly, her brow awash with sweat and vomit all down her face and front and all over Dominik’s naked torso but she was alive and that was all that mattered . Lena visibly let out a sign of relief.

[guesshoo]

very nice, i can't wait to read the rest!

[rivierakid]

Wow, this one's good. Me likes! ^_^

Glad you could add to our lovely array of fics! :done:

[Devilish Yulia]

wow this is another cool story! I LOVE IT! i cant hardly wait for more!

[prostrel]

New writers are always welcome vicky7! Well, I`m not a fanfic writer but here is some feedback:
Chapters 1, 2 and 3. It was awful to read. I steamed up about Lena. She is such a foolish lamb who is trying to lead a happy dollhouse life and be a trophy girlfriend. I felt angry and frustreated. Arghh! And of course I felt sorry for Lena bc of her perfect boyfriend and lovely family. "Love-making" scene was pitiful, enough daring and funny. So, summary of those chapters: I liked them very much!
Chapters 4 and 5. Julia came into picture with all her troubles and the fic got more interesting, so I would like to read more, please! And thank you for these five chapters, vicky7! :)

[parrish122]

Wow! I like this fic!

I'm glad you've decided to join our cadre of writers. :)

You get a *lot* of information across in just five chapters! I can't wait to see what develops.

Parrish

[xena225]

vicky7, that's a great story, wow, an unusual situation, depth to the characters and lots of conflict in both their lives. Very interesting, can't wait to read the next chapters.

Thank you! You're very talented. :rose:

xena225

[amikana]

i absolutely *adore* these first chapters!!! i can't wait to see what develops next!! :)

[vicky7]

Thank you very much for the feedback, you are all really kind it means a lot! Here is chapter 6 I hope you all enjoy it.

Chapter 6 – Safe & Sound

Lena was shattered. It was now 7:30am the morning after the terrible night before and she had just switched on the kettle to make herself a cup of coffee, she was really a tea drinker but she desperately needed a caffeine fix to keep her awake. Dominik had finally been satisfied that the drugs were out of Yulia’s system and had helped Lena undress Yulia and put her into bed in the guest room. Her gaunt face had been pale, her swollen eye dried with blood and her body lifeless. Lena had since stayed by Yulia’s side watching her closely determined to stay awake just in case Yulia needed her.

Once she had made her coffee she went back to the guest room noting that Yulia still looked relatively peaceful and yes, she was still breathing. It was Monday morning but Lena knew she couldn’t leave Yulia alone while she went to work so she phoned in sick. She hated to let her patients down but she had to put Yulia first because she needed her more than anyone.

Lena still couldn’t believe what had happened last night. She had only gone to the shop to buy some comfort food because Roman had not called her since Saturday night when he had cancelled on her. She had waited patiently by the phone for him to call in vain but had received no calls. She picked up the phone and dialled his number several times only to put the phone down every time before it even started to ring – she knew there was nothing worse than a nagging girlfriend.

With Roman’s homecoming, the disastrous dinner party and all the drama with Yulia it had been an exhausting roller coaster of a weekend and despite her good intentions she fell asleep and woke up to find herself alone in the bedroom with the sheets pushed back where Yulia had got out of bed. Lena looked at the clock on the bedside table to see it was 2:15pm jumping up off the bed and running out into the living room pleading to god that Yulia hadn’t just upped and left.

Yulia wasn’t in the living room but Lena could now hear the sound of running water in the bathroom. The bathroom door was shut so she decided to knock. “Yulia can I come in?”

“Yeah, sure.” Yulia called out to her in a weary voice. Lena pushed the bathroom door back to see Yulia surveying the cuts on her face and splashing her face with water. In the white nightgown that Lena had found for her to wear last night she was reminiscent of a ghost.

“There’s a flannel in the cabinet and a spare toothbrush for you if you want them” Lena said pointing at the cupboard directly in front of Yulia with Yulia smiled shyly at her looking almost embarrassed in response.

“Did you just wake up? I didn’t want to disturb you, you know, I think I’ve caused you enough grief…”Yulia’s voice trailed off as she hung her head a sad expression adorning her features.

“Hey” Lena put a hand on Yulia’s shoulder gently squeezing it “It’s ok, I just so glad that you’re alright. How you feeling this morning or should I say afternoon?” she said correcting herself.

“A bit shitty, my head kinda hurts which is strange considering I took all those headache pills!” Yulia paused seeing Lena’s concerned face.

“God, I don’t know why I’m joking about it, it’s not funny is it?” Another pause followed as they both thought of the seriousness of last night’s drama before Yulia broke the silence.

“Would you mind if I had a bath Lena, I think I’ll feel a whole lot better once I’m clean” Yulia stank of stale sweat, sick and dirt, she felt so horrible and ashamed. Whatever must Lena think of her? A dirty, smelly loser with no home and a thief and a coward to boot – she had even managed to f**k up her own suicide attempt. What a waste of space.

“Course you can, do you want me to run it for you” Lena offered kindly.

“No, I can manage thanks” Yulia managed a smile it was the least Lena deserved from her.

“Alright then, the shampoo’s on the side, I’ll just go and get something clean for you to put on, ok? Oh and how about some food I don’t know about you but I’m absolutely starving?”

“Yeah, I am, so food would be great” Yulia said feeling very enthusiastic about the thought of sitting down and eating some nice food.

“Any requests” Lena said smiling warmly.

“No, I’ll eat anything honestly”

“Pea soup alright then?” Lena offered cheekily remembering Yulia hated pea soup.

“Err, yeah fine” Yulia looked bewildered obviously forgetting what she had told Lena not wanting to be impolite.

“I’m just kidding! I know you hate that, how about a big fry-up with all the works? I can actually cook that!”

“Fantastic, thanks” Yulia said rediscovering her enthusiasm.

“Cool, I’ll leave some clothes for you outside the door and give you a shout when grubs up” With that Lena left the bathroom shutting the door firmly behind her.


After Yulia had ran the bath she slowly lowered herself into the water. The feel of the warm water around her was so comforting, like being hugged all around and she closed her eyes and relaxed. This was surely a dream or was she in heaven? She was with a nice girl, in a nice apartment all warm and safe.

Yulia got to work on washing her hair and scrubbing her body feeling a bit more like herself. However, her long hair was so straggly and knotted it was a nightmare. She wished she could get it all cut off, she hated it, it wasn’t her at all but at least it was clean now.

There was a knock on the bathroom door just as Yulia clambered out of the bathtub. “Yulia, there’s some clean pyjamas out here for you I figured we’ll both be back in bed before too long. I don’t know about you but I’m completely knackered.” Lena shouted through the door.

“God yeah! Thanks for that I’ll be out in a few minutes ”Yulia shouted back. She dried off and wrapped her hair in a towel and reached outside the door for the pale blue pyjamas Lena had found for her. They were too big on her – she was skin and bones at the moment. She rubbed the towel through her hair until she was satisfied it was fairly dry and ran a hairbrush through her long mane until she had got most of the knots out and left the bathroom. Lena was in the kitchen, preparing some food that to Yulia smelt absolutely wonderful.

Lena was surprised how cute Yulia looked in the oversized pyjamas and it suddenly hit her that if she had decided to follow Yulia out of the shop she more than likely would have been dead by now – thankfully she had followed her intuition.

Yulia gulped down the dinner Lena had made for her greedily scraping every last morsel of food off her plate like a woman possessed. Lena watched her amused deciding to pull some ice cream out of the freezer for dessert before Yulia had worn the pattern off the dinner plate. The ice cream was gratefully received, Yulia looking childlike with chocolate ice cream around the corners of her mouth that Lena couldn’t help but laugh.

“What you laughing at?” Yulia said looking wide eyed and completely baffled by Lena’s laughing fit, the expression on Yulia’s face only succeeding in making Lena laugh all the harder.

“You’ve got ice cream all round your face.” She said pointing at Yulia her side beginning to ache now she was laughing so much. Yulia wiped the back of her hand across her face in an attempt to remove off the ice cream but managed instead to smear it all over her cheeks to Lena’s amusement.

“I’ve seen babies with better table manners than you, come here.” Lena picked up a dishcloth wetting it under the tap and wiping Yulia’s face clean. “There you go, all clean!” Lena said smiling fondly down into Yulia’s face.

“Thanks Lena, do you want a hand with the dishes” Yulia offered keen to prove how grateful she was to Lena.

“Yeah that would be great thanks.”
By the time they had cleaned up the kitchen darkness was setting in outside and as they were both tired they settled down on the sofa to watch a bit of television, comfortable in their silence each occupied in their own thoughts. After a while Lena decided to probe Yulia realising that despite feeling so comfortable in the girl’s presence she knew virtually nothing about her.

“Yulia” Lena said in almost a whisper feeling a little nervous about questioning Yulia not wanting to push her too much.

“Yeah, that’s my name” Yulia shifted her position on the sofa until she was directly sat facing Lena. “What’s up you look kinda… I don’t know..nervous I guess”

“Well, it was just I was thinking I don’t really know anything about you not even your surname, I’d just like to know something about you” Lena nervously twirling her curls around her fingers concerned that Yulia may think she was being nosy.

“Ok my surname’s Volkova, some people call me Volk. What else do you want to know?” Yulia answered.

“Well seeing as I asking you questions, you can ask me things if you want as well. My surname’s Katina.” The questioning continued for a while with Lena finding out that Yulia did a design course at university, had a dog called Rada when she was younger, her favourite colour was pale blue and her idol just like Lena was Madonna. They were having such a good night the more they found out about each other the more they liked and felt more comfortable with each other. However, Lena decided not to probe Yulia about how she had ended up on the streets because she was worried she was not ready to talk about it, she would let her tell her when she was ready.

“Ok, I’m running out of questions now…ermm what’s your star sign? I’m a Libra” Lena was finally tiring of the Q and A session for the night.

“Pisces” Yulia replied.

“Pisces, so your birthday is any time now then, when is it?” Lena thought it was a harmless enough question to ask, she wasn’t prepared for Yulia’s response.

“It was yesterday, I was twenty-two and I nearly killed myself, that’s really f**ked up isn’t it?” she said blue eyes shining with tears.

“Oh god, Yulia” Lena kneeled down in front of Yulia taking her hands and squeezing them in her own. “I don’t know why you ended up out there or why you felt so bad that you wanted to…you know” Lena couldn’t bring herself to say ‘die’ it would make what had happened seem all too real again when she had spent the last few hours enjoying Yulia’s company like she would with any of her close friends. “But, it’s over now you can move on, be happy it won’t be easy but you can do it, I know you can.” Lena held Yulia close for several minutes until the doorbell rang and Lena went to answer it.

It was Dominik looking very tired, dressed in his suit obviously having just returned home from work. “Hi Lena, I just thought I’d come and see how you two girls are”

“Come in, would you like a coffee or something” she said ushering him into the lounge area.

“No, I can’t stay long but thanks” Dominik sat down on the sofa next to Yulia.

“Hello Dominik” Yulia wanted to make sure he knew just how much she owed him for saving her life but she didn’t feel she could ever express her gratitude as much as she should “I’m so sorry about all the trouble I caused you last night I don’t know how I can ever thank you” she said looking into his kind brown eyes.

“No problem” Dominik responded with a wink. He was relieved to see she looked far removed from the frightened, desperate homeless child he had saved the previous night. “I just want to do a quick check up if you don’t mind”

Half an hour later Dominik had left after he had reassured them both that Yulia was fine and there were no long-term consequences from her suicide attempt. They were both so tired at this point that after they had had a bit of supper and a glass of milk Lena went to change into her plaid pyjamas and led the way to the guest room.

Once there Yulia smiled to herself, noting that Lena had changed the bedding on the double bed and the green bedside lamps were switched on casting the room in a green soothing glow, it looked so cosy; she couldn’t wait to get into bed. Lena pulled back the covers prompting Yulia to get into the bed. Once Yulia had climbed in Lena pulled the covers up around her neck, gently tucking her in. “Well, goodnight Yulia” Yulia looked deeply into her eyes pleadingly “Lena, could you stay with me please, I don’t want to be alone.”

“Yeah, sure” she pulled the covers back and climbed into bed next to Yulia. She looked at Yulia noticing her face was pensive something obviously on her mind. “Hey what’s up Yulia is something worrying you?”

“I was just thinking how relieved I felt when Dominik said I was going to be alright. I nearly took it all away…” Yulia once more gave into her tears, she was mad at herself never in her life had she been weak but she had given in and the only reason she was still alive was because of Lena and Dominik.

“Yulia, you’ve been through a lot but you’re safe now” Lena grabbed Yulia’s hand squeezing it gently and with her other hand gently wiped the tears from Yulia’s eyes. “Everything will be fine now I promise” Lena’s optimism was heartfelt. Feeling her tears being brushed away and her shaking hand being caressed made her feel secure for the first time in nine months. She closed her eyes; she had missed this feeling so much. After a minute she felt Lena’s breathe against her ear “You know I can’t tell you how much I’m glad you’re here, I really like you Yulia, I really do”

The final thing she remembered was the circular motion Lena was making on her hand and the last of her tears stroked off her face, she was content and now in a deep sleep.

Lena watched Yulia as she drifted off she looked so peaceful, she kissed her now rosy cheek and continued to stroke her face and hold her hand until she also gave into sleep, fingers still entwined with Yulia’s, also contented for the first time in a long while…

[amikana]

awwww! so cute - i can't wait til lena dumps the asshole roman though!! :)

[parrish122]

I'm with Amikana--that chapter just brings on a big ol' awwwww! :)

Great work!

Parrish

[rivierakid]

Alright, everyone. All together now!

EVERYONE: Awwwwwwwwwww!

:D

[guesshoo]

*in unison with rivierakid and parrish* awwwwwwwwww!

nice work vicky
once again looking forward to the next chapter!

[Devilish Yulia]

*in unison with rivierakid and parrish* awwwwwwwwww!

OMG ITS JUST SOO CUTE! i love this this story!!!
simply adorable! cant wait for the next chappys!

[iluvjulia84]

Yep! I'm gonna have to agree with all of u....awwwww!!! I love it!

[vicky7]

Thanks for all the kind comments again you all make me blush you're so nice! Hope you enjoy this next chapter. Here it is..

Chapter 7 – Getting To Know Yul

Lena called in sick again on Tuesday because although Yulia had seemed to be in a better frame of mind when they had got up that morning she still wanted to be around just in case she reverted back to feeling low. Lena didn’t know why but Yulia brought out a protective streak in her that she never knew existed.

After watching Yulia carefully throughout the day Lena felt confident she could leave her alone in the apartment the following day and decided to broach the subject with her. “Yulia do you think you’d be alright being on your own here tomorrow I really can’t be off work for another day my boss didn’t sound too happy with me phoning in again today”

“No, you go, I’ll be fine. Do you want me to do anything, clean up or something?”

“No, you just rest and continue to eat loads – I want you to have doubled in weight by the end of the week!” Lena joked

“I’ll do my best!” Yulia’s shallow cheeks were already beginning to fill out, the greyness of her complexion disappearing and her blue eyes starting to sparkle with life. Lena couldn’t believe the difference just a few days had made it was just a pity she wouldn’t really be around to spend time with her until the weekend.

***

As far as Lena was concerned Wednesday morning came way too soon. She had returned to her own bedroom last night and had missed the comfort that sharing a bed with Yulia had brought her. Having Yulia stay with her made her realise that she didn’t really like living alone and having no one to talk to and spend her time with, she had without realising it been very lonely for a long time.

Getting up for work was always difficult for Lena as she hated early morning starts. Once she arrived at the office she was fine but those first few minutes climbing out of bed into the cool quietness of the morning was always hard for her to deal with and this morning she hadn’t even left her apartment and was already looking forward to coming home to discover even more about her new friend.


When Yulia got up she staggered sleepily into the kitchen noticing a note propped up against the microwave. It read:

Hey sleepyhead, I guess you finally decided to get up! There’s plenty of food in the fridge for you and I will bring home something for dinner - a night off for you from my cooking, you lucky thing! Have a good day, see you later Love Lena x

Yulia smiled to herself as she read the note, Lena was so sweet and kind she really wanted to show her how much she appreciated everything she had done for her. As Yulia set about putting some breakfast together she thought hard about what she could do for Lena and looked around the apartment and saw that although it wasn’t particularly untidy or dirty it hadn’t been cleaned for a few days. So once she finished her breakfast she put on some of the clothes Lena had pulled out for her and set about her task of cleaning.

When Lena got home she was astonished by the sight that greeted her, the apartment was absolutely spotless, it had never looked as good. “Hello is anybody home?” There was no answer. Lena took her opportunity to sneak into her bedroom to hide the large bags she had brought home with her. She literally threw them inside her room before returning to the lounge area to look for Yulia.

Yulia appeared from the guest room obviously having just woken up, her long hair rumpled and her eyelids droopy. “Hi were you asleep?” Lena said stating the obvious.

“Yeah, I dunno what happened I just lay down for a minute and then I heard you shouting, weird huh?” Yulia mumbled.

“Well, you’ve been a busy girl haven’t you? This place has never looked this good you’re a little star Yulia, you really are” Lena bent down and kissed the smaller girl on the cheek in thanks.

“Well I just wanted to do something to say thanks.” Yulia could feel herself blushing she just hoped it wasn’t so obvious to Lena.

“You didn’t have to you know but thanks again, you’re really cheered me up”

“Why, have you had a bad day?” Yulia asked concerned.

“Well its not been the best, let’s just say I’m glad to be home” Lena rolled her eyes as she thought of her disastrous day. “So, what do you want for dinner – Indian, Chinese, pizza, McDonalds?”

“I thought you were bringing something home, if I’d have known I would have cooked something.”

“You’ve done enough Yul… so come on what do you want to eat?”

“Chinese?”

“Cool, Chinese it is.” Lena opened the kitchen drawer pulling out a large selection of take away menus.

“Do you have takeaway every night?” Yulia asked cheekily.

“Ok, I admit it, yes, you see I’m not really a fan of meals for one.” Lena confessed holding her hand up.

“Excuses, excuses.” Yulia tutted exaggeratedly.

“Well, you know…” It was Lena’s turn to blush.

“Seriously Lena, I’m not the greatest cook in the world but I don’t mind cooking, at least let me do some cooking for you while I’m here”

“What do you mean while you’re here? Where you planning on going?” Lena could feel herself slightly panicking, the last thing she wanted was for Yulia to go, she was only just getting to know her but she already liked her so much.

“I just figured when I’m better I should get out of your face before I out stay my welcome.” Yulia studied the floor intently, she didn’t want to see Lena agree with her, she was really dreading the thought of having to leave and go back out there…

“Hey, I want you here, you can stay as long as you want – you’re great to have around so we’ll have less of that talk of leaving.” Lena said grabbing Yulia’s arm and forcing her to look her in the eyes. Yulia let out a sigh of relief that had been exactly what she had wanted to hear from the pretty redhead.

***

After Lena had collected the food from the Chinese restaurant and they had wolfed down the banquet they had ordered Lena disappeared into her bedroom to change out of her work clothes. She reappeared ten minutes later carrying a huge bag full of goodies. Yulia who had been washing the dishes they had used for dinner wondered why on earth Lena was looking so pleased with herself.

“What you got there” Yulia asked her curiosity getting the better of her as she put the last of the dishes away.

“Ahh, come and sit down and I’ll show you” Lena said mysteriously. When Yulia sat down on the sofa. “Wait here and shut your eyes.”

Lena got up and carried one of the bags into the kitchen to Yulia’s confusion. “Why?”

“Just close them” Yulia closed her eyes, a wide smile playing on her lips. “Right you can open them now.” Lena had turned the lights off and was now walking towards her carrying a large cake full of candles and launched into a rendition Happy Birthday. Yulia found it extremely hard not to brim over with emotion. Lena was by far the sweetest person she had ever met and she was incredibly touched that she cared enough to make such an effort it meant the world to her.

“Happy Birthday Yulia” Lena said placing the cake in front of her

“Thanks but isn’t a bit late” Yulia felt a little embarrassed she wasn’t used to this sort of fuss.

“It’s never too late for birthday cake, come on make a wish” Yulia smiled at Lena warmly before focusing hard on the candles blowing as hard as she could making her secret wish – she wanted to stay here with Lena forever.

“And now” Lena said excitedly “now it’s time for presents!” She pulled the huge bag in front of her and pulled out the first beautifully wrapped present. It had been a long time since anyone had bought her presents so Yulia savoured the moment shaking the soft parcel trying to guess its contents. “Mmm, what can this be?”

“Open it up and you’ll find out” Lena was so excited; she hoped Yulia would like what she had bought her. Yulia needed no further invitation and happily ripped the wrapping paper off to find two pairs of designer jeans and a pair of black combats.

“Aww Lena! Thanks! These are really cool!” Yulia gave Lena a huge bear hug and a kiss on the cheek.

“There’s more” Lena said fully revelling in Yulia’s happiness

“Hey, you didn’t have to spend all your money on me Lena, I’m not worth it”

“Of course you are. Don’t be silly.” Lena dismissed Yulia’s comment instantly, seeing Yulia looking so happy was worth every penny she had spent, that beautiful smile was priceless. “They’re birthday presents anyway, now come on open this one up”

Yulia was handed another soft package expecting to receive more clothes. She was right it contained an array of trendy tops Yulia was delighted to find that Lena had fantastic taste. “Oh thanks ever so much, these are sooo cool, I love them!”

“No problem, only the best for you my dear.” Lena said sincerely. “Now for the next one”

“There’s more?” Yulia felt she was being spoilt rotten by Lena and was concerned that she had spent too much money on her but she had to admit to herself she was loving every minute.

“Course there is” This time Lena held out two envelopes, one blue and one yellow. “Choose one” Yulia picked the blue envelope and opened it quickly. It was a gift voucher for the huge designer department store in town. “I just thought you could pick up some make up or something else to wear, it’s entirely up to you” Lena said before Yulia had chance to react to the gift

“Thanks Lena” Lena was again rewarded with the widest smile, Yulia’s blue eyes crinkling in the corners, her cheeks dimpling in the cutest way Lena losing her train of thought for a few seconds as she gazed at Yulia.

Lena came back down to earth as she realised she still had one more present for Yulia. “And the last one, I think you’ll like this one” Lena said holding out the envelope to Yulia.

Yulia ripped the envelope to shreds in her hurry to read the contents – it was the best one by far in her opinion – a hair makeover at the best salon in town. “Oh Lena, thank you, thank you, thank you!” Yulia brimmed over with enthusiasm.

“You’re welcome, welcome, welcome!” Lena laughed. “The only thing is I could only get you an appointment a week on Friday”

“Never mind, it’s still fantastic!” Yulia’s features were so animated; she looked like she was positively going to burst with excitement Lena thought to herself in amusement.

“So what you gonna have done then?”

“Well, I’m not sure, definitely short but not sure how short yet.” Yulia said looking deep in thought.

“Really? I can’t imagine you with short hair.” Lena said in surprise.

“Before I ended up on the streets I always pretty much had short hair – it’s all part of being the real Yulia Volkova” It seemed such a long time ago to Yulia and putting a hand through the full length of her hair only confirmed to her that it had been too long.

“Mmm, I’ll look forward to meeting her, what’s she like?” Lena teased.

“Head strong, a bit mental, creative, fun to be around.” Yulia said reeling off her qualities.

“So the same you but with short hair”

“Yah!” They both laughed at this and spent the remainder of the night eating cake, Yulia tried on some of her new clothes and they went to the supermarket to get some food in for Yulia to cook dinner the next day. They laughed and joked until bedtime came too soon.

[parrish122]

Wow! I *really* like this fic!

More please. :)

Parrish

[amikana]

woohoo! awesome awesome story! can't wait for more! :)

[guesshoo]

Originally posted by parrish122
Wow! I *really* like this fic!

More please. :)



amen to that!

[rivierakid]

I'm with everyone else on this one. This fic rocks my fic loving socks! ^_^

As I say about all awesome people, you rock! :done:

[Devilish Yulia]

this story is awesome!:done:!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

cant wait for the next chap!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:coctail:

[dare2dream28]

This fic is awesome!!!! I love it! Can't wait for more! :D

[iluvjulia84]

Omg i love it soooo much! Its so so so good!

[vicky7]

Chapter 8 – Hostel Hell

“Is Elena in?” Yulia answered the door to a very confused looking man in his late twenties.

“Yeah, she’s just in the shower” Yulia wondered who the hell this guy was, Lena’s boyfriend?

“YUL, WHO IS IT?” Lena having heard the doorbell yelled out from the bathroom.

Before Yulia had chance to ask the stranger who he was he had pushed past her into the apartment and was yelling back to Lena. “It’s Roman Elena”

Elena? Yulia thought, why the f**k was he calling her that? Lena didn’t like being called Elena. Yulia already disliked Roman, he was good looking sure but there was something about him, which made her feel very uneasy. She couldn’t put her finger on why she had taken an instant dislike to him but surely he couldn’t be so bad if Lena liked him. Could he?

While Yulia had been staying with Lena she had heard very little about Roman apart from he was good looking, rich and worked long hours and was away frequently. Lena had received a few fleeting phone calls in the week apologising for not seeing her or calling her, making what to Yulia seemed lame excuses. From what she had overheard Lena had lapped up his excuses just happy to hear from him. He was obviously an idiot as far as Yulia was concerned if he didn’t want to spend all his time with the most beautiful, sweet, kind hearted girl in the world – she was Yulia’s idea of a perfect woman anyway.

As an awkward silence descended in the apartment Lena came out of the bathroom wearing only a towel to hide her modesty, her red hair dangling around her shoulders in damp ringlets. “Hi Roman honey. What a nice surprise!” she exclaimed smiled warmly at him.

“If I’d known you’d be in the shower I would have come a few minutes earlier and joined you” Lena blushed obviously embarrassed by Roman’s innuendo in front of Yulia. Ignoring his lust filled expression Lena turned to introduce her two favourite people to one another. She could feel butterflies fluttering in her stomach she really wanted them to like each other. However, looking at the way they were weighing each other up it seemed Lena was going to be disappointed.

***

“Roman Popov, this is Yulia Volkova, now if you guys wanna get acquainted while I go and dry my hair and get dressed I’ll be back in ten” Lena introduced them only briefly feeling rather embarrassed stood there wrapped in no more than a flimsy towel.

“Don’t get dressed I like you all naked!”

“Oh Roman, behave yourself, I’m sure Yulia doesn’t wanna hear all this kinda talk.” Lena could feel her face was flushing bright red but she couldn’t help but feel all giggly and girly. She wasn’t used to receiving this kind of attention and she liked it, it was nice to be desired by someone but she didn’t want Yulia to feel uncomfortable.

“You don’t mind do you doll?” Roman turned to Yulia involving her in the conversation for the first time.

Doll? Was he for real? Yulia stood there mute, the last thing she wanted to do was listen to him talking dirty to Lena. He should save that for the bedroom.

“Anyway” Lena said breaking the silence yet again “Go and pour yourself a drink and I’ll be right back”

“Ok gorgeous” Roman winked arrogantly at Lena before sweeping past Yulia and into the kitchen. Yulia wanting to keep her distance from Roman returned to the lounge to watching the TV drama she had started to watch before she had gone to answer the door. She wished she had ignored the doorbell now, she had been looking forward to spending another cosy night in with Lena but Roman’s arrival had put paid to that. However, Yulia hadn’t managed to escape Roman as she had thought. He entered the room, a tumbler of whiskey in hand plonking himself down on the sofa in front of her, purposely, in her opinion anyway, obscuring the television set as he walked by.

“So, ermm..” he started.

“Yulia, my name’s is Yulia” She could feel herself beginning to lose her cool but she tried hard to bite down on her notoriously short temper.

“Yeah, whatever babes, so how’d you know Elena, I’ve never heard her mention you before” he probed.

“We’re old friends, I haven’t seen her for ages until recently” Yulia said off hand trying to dismiss the subject quickly.

“So what you doing in town?”

Yulia began to tap her foot impatiently. God was this twenty questions or something? All he had to do was shine a flashlight in her eyes and she would totally feel like she was being interrogated by the FBI. Couldn’t he see she couldn’t be bothered to talk to him? “I’m looking for somewhere to live so Lena offered to put me up while I look for a place.”

“Yes Elena” he emphasised “she’s very accommodating…”

Yulia interrupted him sarcastically. “Well yes she is providing me accommodation so I guess that does make her accommodating”.

“Yes, like I was saying she’s very accommodating, people sometimes take advantage of sweet natured souls like Elena don’t they?” Roman’s meaning was not hidden to Yulia, she knew exactly what he was getting at and it didn’t wash with her coming from him.

“Yes, especially those who know they can get away with murder and take the piss out of people like Lena who deserve so much better” Yulia said through clenched teeth, her penetrating blue eyes locked with Roman’s brown ones in an icy glare.

Roman didn’t respond, he simply drained his whiskey, slammed the empty tumbler down on the coffee table and left the lounge. Yulia heard Lena’s bedroom door slam shut and the sound of Lena giggling as Roman moved in for the kill– he was clearly bored of small talk…

***

Yulia having been shunned by Lena in favour of Roman soon gave up on trying to focus on the TV as no matter how hard she tried to concentrate on the show she was watching she just couldn’t bear the thought of having another run in with Roman tonight. He had gotten under her skin to the point where she felt she could happily stab him repeatedly with a large kitchen knife. She eventually decided that the best thing to do was to retreat to the guest room to seek solitude. No sooner had she washed and changed for bed and climbed under the bed covers she could hear loud groaning noises emitting from Lena’s room.

Yulia hadn’t realised before but Lena’s bed was pushed up against the same wall as her bed. The walls were apparently very thin as the headboard on Lena’s bed was banging against it with Roman obviously pounding hard into Lena. It made Yulia feel physically sick. Roman having sex with Lena just seemed an alien concept to her. How could they possibly fit together, have anything in common, let alone enough for Lena to want to have sex with him?

The moans she could hear intensified until she heard Lena scream out what sounded more in pain than joy. Then it went quiet, too quiet. Lena was alright, wasn’t she? If that bastard had hurt her well…

“Elena how was it for you baby” Roman finally spoke up after what seemed hours to Yulia.

“Mmm, great” Yulia felt uncomfortable listening to their conversation but she was compelled to listen.

“Yeah, it was, wasn’t it? Just call me Mr Good F**k!” Yulia heard Lena laugh and she shook her head and rolled her eyes to herself. More like Mr Right Pr**k!

“Wonder what your friend made of our little sex show, do you reckon she liked what she heard?” No! Yulia answered him silently, she did not!

“Oh, she won’t have heard anything these walls are pretty sound proof.” Yeah right Yulia thought, so sound proof she could hear every word they were saying.

“But I really made you scream!” Roman bragged.

“Yeah you did!”

“So how long is she gonna be here? I hope not too long. I know I’m greedy but I want you all to myself.” Yulia could hear him kiss Lena and she listened attentively waiting for Lena’s response. Roman wanted her out so what was Lena going to say and do? She had told Yulia she could stay as long as she wanted the other day was she going to change her mind now that Roman was paying her a bit of attention?

“She’s only staying a few more days so don’t worry about it you’ll have me all to yourself before too long” Lena finally answered.

It was just as Yulia had feared. The novelty of rescuing her had obviously worn off for Lena, she was like everybody else – she didn’t give a s**t about Yulia. Surprisingly, she felt more sad than angry as the tears meandered silently down her cheeks. She didn’t feel that she had the right to be angry at Lena, she had saved her life, given her the chance to clean up and sort her head out, for which she would always be grateful.

Yulia almost felt that she had disappointed Lena for her to want to discard her instead of Roman. Maybe he had been right when he had said she had taken advantage of Lena’s good nature, she had probably had enough, which was understandable.

More than anything Yulia couldn’t bear to face up to the prospect of Lena throwing her out. She knew that however nice Lena had been to her if she wanted her to leave it would probably involve her behaving nastily towards her. Yulia wanted the happy memories she had accumulated in the short time she had stayed with Lena to remain intact. That was why she was going to do the noble thing and leave of her own accord. If Lena didn’t want to help her anymore she would have to help herself.

***

The next morning Yulia awoke to the sound of birds chirping cheerfully, the early morning sunlight beginning to filter in through the curtains. Instead of getting up she lay contemplating what she was going to say to Lena about her leaving the apartment. However, she wanted to wait for Roman to go because she knew she would be unable to talk to Lena properly without him interrupting so she waited, lying perfectly still staring up at the ceiling listening for any signs of movement from the adjacent bedroom.

Finally after what seemed like an eternity she heard a familiar sleepy yawn and the dull thud of footsteps heading out of Lena’s room. Yulia smiled despite herself, Lena was obviously up for work and it sounded like she was at her usual ‘best’ for this time in a morning. Yulia had thought that she was bad in the mornings but Lena was the worst. Her hair was always wild and frizzy reminiscent of a red curly afro, a zombified expression on her features with only the merest grunts passing as conversation. She was still cute though, to Yulia anyway.

Any other morning she would have expected Lena to knock for her to wake up and join her for breakfast. However, as Lena already had a breakfast companion this morning Yulia didn’t dare get her hopes up. Then to her surprise she heard Lena’s customary tap on the door, she hadn’t forgotten her after all.

“Yulia? Are you awake?” Lena said in almost a whisper through the door.

Yulia considered not replying but in the end she answered. “Yeah, I’m awake”

“Good, can I come in please?”

“Yeah sure”

Lena pushed the door back and looked over at Yulia and noticed that something wasn’t quite right with her as she looked incredibly tired and pale. Feeling concern for the small girl she moved from the doorway and sat at the side of Yulia where she lay in bed. “Are you alright?” She pressed the palm of her hand against Yulia’s forehead.

“I’m fine” Yulia answered on autopilot. Why did she have to pretend to be concerned when she didn’t care less and wanted her out?

“Mmm, you don’t have a temperature but you look really pale, are you sure you’re alright?” Again Lena sounded very concerned only succeeding in irritating Yulia further.

“Look, I said I’m fine ok!” Yulia snapped. Lena was so fake.

“Whoa, there’s no need to bite my head off especially at this time in a morning I was only asking!” Lena retorted

“Sorry, I’m just a bit tired, I didn’t mean to snap at you”

“Did I wake you up just then?” Lena could see that Yulia was unhappy about something as she had never been moody like this with Lena before.

“No, I’ve been awake for ages” She felt like yelling at Lena, telling her that she had never gotten to sleep in the first place, that it was all because of her, all because she didn’t want her and it hurt so badly.

“Do you want some breakfast? I’m doing the works – bacon, egg, sausages, tomatoes, mushrooms, everything basically” Lena was desperate to reverse Yulia’s mood but it even the prospect of a hearty breakfast didn’t light up Yulia’s lovely face.

“No it’s ok I’ll make something in a bit” At that moment her stomach decided to betray her hunger letting out a huge thunderous rumble.

“Sounds like your little tummy can’t wait” Lena affectionately patted her stomach and Yulia could feel her mood melting towards Lena, her guard falling once again. Then Lena decided to have some fun and turned the playful pat into a tickle, pinning Yulia down and making her laugh hysterically. Neither one of them heard Roman enter the room. “What are you two doing? I thought we were having breakfast Elena” He sounded extremely exasperated.

“Just coming honey, I was just trying to persuade Yulia to get up and join us for breakfast,” she said sweetly looking mischievously at Yulia.

Roman didn’t look impressed, his brown eyes black with annoyance. “Well, if you can finish up your girl on girl action, I need breakfast like now as some of us have to be at work in about an hour” he sniped

“Ok Roman, I’m sorry, I’m coming now” Lena said apologetically climbing off Yulia and going to follow Roman out of the bedroom before stopping and turning around to Yulia. “Are you coming Yul, I’d really appreciate a hand serving Mr Grumpy B*****d his breakfast”

“Yeah but only if I can give him a sneezer!” Yulia said it in a light-hearted tone forgetting the anger she had felt some minutes ago towards Lena. She would love to slip him some poison, who was he to speak to them like that as if they were just s**t on his shoe.

“Ha, yeah, you’re so funny Yul! Come on sweetie let go cook breakfast so we can send him off to work and out of our way” It sounded a good idea to Yulia, then she could talk to Lena alone, she wasn’t looking forward to it but unfortunately it had to be done.

***

Roman quickly had his breakfast before finally leaving Lena and Yulia alone in the apartment. They washed up the breakfast dishes in virtual silence before Yulia cleared her throat in preparation to talk to Lena. It wasn’t going to be easy.

“Lena can I talk to you about something” Yulia asked in a small voice.

“Will it take long Yul ‘cause I need to have a shower before I go to work and I think I’m gonna be a bit pushed for time, is that alright?” she enquired

“Yeah, it can wait if you’re busy. If you wanna go and shower I can finish up here if you like.” Part of Yulia was relieved to put this talk off because although she had been upset by what Lena had said to Roman the previous night Lena had been her usual kind and caring self this morning. This only succeeded in making it even harder for her to broach the subject of leaving.

“Aww thanks, I’ll try and hurry up so we can talk before I go, just bear with me, ok?”

“Yeah, no problem” God she was such a wimp why the hell couldn’t she just blurt it all out into the open?

Lena rushed off to get ready for work while Yulia got on with cleaning up in the kitchen. Life was so unfair. Yulia had hit rock bottom, been rescued by an ‘angel’ and was at long last emerging from the shadows and now she was going to be dragged back into the underworld, with the cheats, liars, thieves and prostitutes. It was no place for the sad and the lonely, she knew from experience these people often paid the ultimate price.

She couldn’t go back to that because she was sure it would kill her once and for all. She needed a plan, that way she could live a full life again – she craved it so badly.

“Yulia, I’m sorry, I gotta dash I’ll see you later ok” Lena was running towards the front door her overcoat hanging half on half off, her handbag trailing the floor as she struggled to put it on properly.

“Mmm, I’ll see you later Lena” Yulia responded weakly.

“Yeah, Byee!”

“Goodbye” The door had already slammed shut and Yulia stared at the space Lena had just vacated and then she realised she had just seen Lena for the last time.

***

[vicky7]

Chapter 8 cont.

Lena obviously didn’t have time for Yulia so the best thing for her to do was simply pack up and leave; Lena and Roman deserved each other as far as she was concerned.

Yulia made herself a cup of tea and sat down to ponder her next move. She didn’t want to sleep out on the streets and so she was going to need help. She knew that there was a hostel in town that if you arrived before a certain time you could get a bed for the night. They also apparently had councillors who could help you get long-term housing and jobs – she hoped that the rumours were true.

When she had made her decision to try her luck at the hostel Yulia jumped into the shower for what would probably be the last time for a while. She knew how notoriously difficult it was to remain clean when you were homeless, you could barely even manage to feed yourself. She looked around the guest room before making up the bed and deciphering what she could take with her.

She looked at all the gifts Lena had bought for her just a few days ago as belated birthday presents. Knowing that Lena’s feelings towards her weren’t as she had thought the meaning she had attached to them was voided. She didn’t want to take any of them but seeing as she no longer had the clothes she had worn out on the streets she had no choice so she packed a small bag with a few items of clothing in, a toothbrush and some toothpaste. She looked around the room again once more before shutting the door for the last time on what had been her safe haven for the past few weeks.

Going out into the living room she memorised the surroundings and the happy times she had spent in the apartment with Lena. Yulia decided that despite the disappointment she felt about her time at Lena’s coming to such an acrimonious end she wanted at least to show Lena that she had appreciated everything she had done for her. It wasn’t much but Yulia decided to cook one last meal for Lena as a token gesture. She made her a batch of spaghetti bolognaise as she knew how much she liked spaghetti and she had loved the batch that Yulia had made just the previous week.

Once she had finished cooking for Lena she made herself a small lunch. Although she knew it would be the last decent meal she would have for the foreseeable future she found it difficult to eat as her stomach was in knots at having to leave the comfort and safety of Lena’s apartment to wander once again into the unknown. She thought she had left all that uncertainty behind once and for all, how wrong she had been; she was about to find out. But first she had to write a letter to Lena explaining why she had left and she didn’t know where to start.

As she was writing tears coursed down her cheeks and her neck forming small pools on the letter, slightly blotching the ink. By the time she had finished she felt completely drained of all emotion having poured her heart out on the paper before her. She had told Lena all she had wanted her to know, how she felt, exactly why she had left, no pretending. Even though she hadn’t had the guts to tell Lena herself it was better than lying to her face that she wanted to leave when in fact she would have killed to be able to stay. It didn’t matter though because Lena was now just another face from her past, one that she was unlikely to revisit.

***

When Lena arrived home she had the feeling that something was drastically wrong. The apartment was too quiet, Yulia no matter what she was doing was never quiet you could always feel her presence because she had so much vigour. So where was she? Lena checked every room in the apartment and there was no sight or sound of her. It was really strange.

Upon closer inspection she saw that there was a batch of spaghetti in the kitchen ready for dinner, alongside it was a letter. Lena started to read it a huge lump forming in her throat as she read and her eyes glistening with tears. Yulia had tried to talk to her that morning and she hadn’t realised how serious the situation was at the time. Without realising it she had inadvertantly pushed Yulia out the door. It sickened her to her stomach.

The letter read:

Dear Lena,

By now you will know that I am no longer at the apartment. I have decided it is best for everyone that I leave and go to a hostel. I really appreciate everything you have done for me and although you told me lots of times that you are happy for me to stay as long as I want I know that it is not what you really wanted. I heard you telling Roman last night that you wanted me to go and that’s why I have left. I don’t blame you for wanting me to go after all I am a virtual stranger to you, I only wished you have been honest about the way you felt. Again thank you ever so much for what you have done for me, it has been wonderful staying here.

Lots of love

Yulia x

P.S – Enjoy the spaghetti, I know it’s your favourite.

The last line made Lena break down and sob, Yulia unlike the majority of the people around her actually cared about her and now she was gone and it was all her own fault. It struck her that Yulia heard her telling Roman that Yulia would be gone in a few days, she must have thought that Lena had stabbed her in the back. Poor Yul. If only she had known why Lena had said that, that she had decided to reply that way so that she didn’t alert Roman to the fact that she had brought Yulia in off the streets. He would probably have made Yulia’s life a living hell and she hadn’t been prepared to do that, to let another person judge Yulia because circumstances had dictated that she ended up homeless.

Although she had only known Yulia for a few weeks they had a strong bond, she was probably the best friend Lena had ever had. Lena struggled to believe that Yulia had heard what she had said because she had been so certain that no one could hear anything outside those bedroom walls. Yulia must have heard everything, including them having sex. Knowing that made Lena feel worse because if she had been in Yulia’s position she would have felt isolated and incredibly uncomfortable and that was the last thing she would ever want to do to her little friend. No wonder Yulia had looked so tired and pale that morning she was obviously really upset because she thought Lena didn’t care were in this case the exact opposite was true. God she had messed up again, why did she always manage to drive everyone she cared about away?

As Lena re-read the letter she saw that it said that Yulia was going to a hostel. The only one Lena knew of in town was only a ten-minute drive away. She would find her and bring her back and explain because the only time this apartment had felt like home since she had been there was when Yulia was with her, she needed to bring her friend back home.

***

It took Yulia an hour to walk to the hostel and even longer for her to get a bed as they asked her several awkward and humiliating questions about where she had been living and about her sexual history and activities. This had shocked her. However, once she was within the confines of the hostel and was allocated a bed she had realised why they had probed so much. Yulia was surrounded by all the lowest of the lowlifes you could ever imagine, all in one large dormitory. She put her bag down by the side of the old, saggy and soiled bed that belongs to her for the night then took a moment to look around. Most of the ‘people’ looked deranged and totally out of it, all wild-eyed and dead inside. Why did she have to live this nightmare again?

On her left hand side in the next bed was a balding middle-aged man. He kept staring at Yulia in a sinister way, flicking his tongue back and forth across his lips seemingly revelling in the discomfort he saw in Yulia’s face. He smiled wickedly his nicotine stained teeth like tombstones in his mouth causing Yulia to visibly reel back in shock. She had never in her life seen such a gruesome sight his freak show features sending a chill down her spine. Yulia’s reaction only provoked him to further his acts of vulgarity as he began to touch his groin area provocatively.

Yulia looked away but she could still hear him laughing uncontrollably enjoying the thrill he got out of harassing the diminutive girl. She could only cringe and pray that he would tire of pestering her and fall asleep. She knew having him lying next to her would mean she would have another sleepless night. She couldn’t envisage sleeping too well knowing that he could be hovering over her preparing to take of advantage.

One more look around at everyone else in the dormitory and Yulia could feel herself sinking into a depression staring down at her old worn quilt having seen enough of these people already. How was she going to get through the night?

Then her heart skipped a beat, someone had their hand on her shoulder. It was the revolting tramp, the alcohol toxins he was emitting stinging her nostrils, his superior strength getting the better of her. He grasped her hand. What the hell was he doing? At that moment she thought she saw a familiar face but it couldn’t be…could it?

***

Lena managed to get to the hostel in record-breaking time. She just hoped she hadn’t picked up any speeding tickets on the way but saying that she didn’t really care. The most important thing was finding Yulia and taking her home. As she pulled up outside of the hostel she noted that it was a stone structure, all grey and gloomy and very prison like. Lena collected herself together to try and gain enough momentum to project herself through the door. She knew she had to be on her guard as this was potentially a very difficult situation and if Yulia wasn’t there...She had to stop thinking like that she told herself, Yulia had to be there it was as simple as that. With that she entered the hostel.

There was a bored looking woman on reception. She looked surprised to see Lena she was clearly expecting some down and out. “Hello, can I help you?” she said putting on a pleasant voice.

“Erhm I was wondering if you could tell me if Yulia Volkova is staying here tonight?” Lena smiled sweetly at the woman trying to endear herself to her.

“I’m sorry but I can’t divulge that type of information” Her tone had altered dramatically wavering somewhere between uncooperative and hostile.

“Why not?” Lena questioned in a firm voice.

“That information is strictly private and confidential. If that girl wanted you to know if she was here or not I think she would have told you herself.” The woman seemed to grow in authority acting as a human barrier between Lena and Yulia.

“But” Lena retorted feebly.

“I’m sorry, there is nothing I can do.” She sounded anything but sorry.

“This is ridiculous” Lena could feel herself about to positively burst with anger.

“Like I’ve already said I’m sorry.”

Lena turned to walk out the door. She was determined she was not going to give up, she could sense that Yulia was in that building somewhere she just had to find a way to get in and search for her. But how was she supposed to get in without being noticed? This place was like Fort Knox. She hung around outside the building for a while, weighing up her next move.

After a few minutes Lena noticed that her luck was in and that the receptionist had left her desk unattended. She ran inside quickly making her way through some double doors and into the main dining hall. All she could see were people preparing food in the kitchen hatch totally oblivious to her presence. However, she crept through the room trying to keep the lowest possible profile knowing if she got caught she may never find Yulia.

There was another large room. Through the glass doors she could see that it contained rows of beds. Yulia! The small dark haired girl was sat on a bed looking utterly miserable and dejected staring down at the bed covers as some tramp leered at her from the next bed. Yulia wasn’t paying attention to him and at that moment he stood up placing a hand on her shoulder grabbing her hand and lowering it to his nether region. Lena saw red. She ran in and up to the pervert shoving him hard away from Yulia.

“Leave her alone you f**king old perv. Who do the f**k do you think you are to do that to her?” Lena spat venomously at the tramp waving her fist in his face. He was no longer smiling, the redhead was giving him some serious grief and he didn’t like it one little bit.

Lena feeling she had adequately dealt with the tramp turned her attention to Yulia. “Yulia, you’re not staying here no way, you’re coming home with me now.”

Yulia not quite being able to comprehend what was happening jumped to her feet. Lena seeing her bag on the floor picked it up and threw it over her shoulder putting a protective arm around Yulia before marching her outside past the bewildered receptionist, out of the hostel and into the car park.

Yulia eventually regained her ability to speak as Lena unlocked the car and threw Yulia’s bag onto the back seat. “Lena what you doing here? Why the hell did you just do that?”

“Because you don’t need to be here, I don’t want you to be here, I want you at home with me” Lena declared placing her hands on Yulia’s shoulders and looking deeply into her eyes.

“But. But I don’t understand, you said to Roman…”

Lena cut her off. “It was bulls**t, I just said it to get him off my back for a while. If you knew what he was like you’d know that it’s the best way to deal with him because what he doesn’t know won’t hurt him. I was going to tell him in a few days that you are staying permanently. Believe me Yulia, I want you to be there with me”

Yulia looked imploringly into Lena crystal clear green eyes wanting to believe what she was hearing but it still made more sense to her that Lena would want her to go more than she would ever want her to stay. What had she got to offer Lena? “But I don’t want to put on you Lena it’s not fair.”

“You’re not going to put on me just let me help you sort things out and then you’ll be fine-just don’t leave me!” Lena said a touch of desperation creeping into her voice.

“Leave you?” Yulia could not suppress her surprise or her delight; Lena didn’t want her to leave her!

“Yes, I’m sick of being alone” Lena was on the verge of tears biting her bottom lip to stop it from quivering.

“Hey Lena, don’t cry” Yulia engulfed her in a bear hug enjoying the warmth of Lena’s body pressed against hers shutting her eyes and inhaling the scent of her hair. She held Lena for a time rubbing a hand soothingly up and down her back until Lena’s sniffles died away. She withdrew from the hug regaining eye contact with Lena.

“Lena if you really want me to come back I’d love to, if you’ll have me?” Yulia still wanted to be sure it was what Lena really wanted, she knew she was being overly paranoid but she couldn’t help it.

“Of course I want you to come back silly! It wouldn’t feel like home if you weren’t there Yul. I’d miss you so much you know. So do we have a deal?”

“Deal” Yulia smiled relieved she was going home.

“Good, now let’s get out of this god damn awful place!” With that they got into the car and drove back to their apartment, this was a new start for them both.

[amikana]

argh damn Roman! he just keeps f**cking things up...

i'm so glad lena went after yulia though - this fic just gets better and better!! great work vicky!! :D

[parrish122]

Great chapter!!

I love this fic, and can't wait to see what happens next!

Parrish

[guesshoo]

awwww, that was so sweet how yuli held lena!
new beginnings, yay!


awesome work vicky!


ps. ummm, is it me or does that friggin Roman need to be shot?
just a question.

[amikana]

Originally posted by guesshoo
ps. ummm, is it me or does that friggin Roman need to be shot?
just a question.

oh no - it's not just you! i completely agree!! :D

[parrish122]

I can't believe I forgot to say this before, but I liked how at the end it says that Yulia smiles because she's relieved she's going home.

A lot of emotion is put into that simple sentence. Yulia already sees Lena's place as her home...because, of course, *Lena* is there.

Nicely done. Elegent in it's simplicity.

Parrish

[vicky7]

Glad you are all enjoying the story still. Thanks for that last comment Parrish as you are one of my fave fanfic writers it means a lot to get such nice feedback. Cheers! Here's Chapter 9 for you all

Chapter 9 –Shorn

After a few days Lena and Yulia were back to normal laughing and joking with one another like the hostel ‘incident’ had never happened. The only difference was that because Lena had tracked Yulia down at the hostel and brought her back to the apartment she now felt wanted, she belonged somewhere; she had a home. She was growing happier and healthier by the day and it was all because of Lena.

On Saturday as planned Lena took Yulia into town for her appointment at the Salvation hair salon that had been one of the many belated birthday presents Lena had bought for her. As Lena drove her into town, Yulia felt very nervous. She desperately wanted to have her hair cut because it was a mess but at the same time she knew what expensive salons were like.

In Yulia’s experience the staff were often very snotty judging people as soon as they passed over the threshold. The thing was that her hair was in such a bad condition they were bound to look down on her and wonder how on earth a little tramp like Yulia would be able to afford to have her hair cut in such an exclusive salon. She needed to rediscover her former brazenness - no one was a match for The Volk.

Once they got into town they stood outside the salon and paused. “Right Yul are you going to be alright now? I figured I’d go and do a bit of shopping and meet you in about an hour under the church clock. Is that ok?” Lena decided she should encourage Yulia to be independent even though she would happily hold her hand if she wanted she felt Yulia needed to be pushed to come out of herself.

“Yeah cool that’d be great” Part of Yulia wanted Lena to stay with her but she knew she was being pathetic, it wasn’t like she was a baby anymore. She didn’t want Lena to feel that she was any more dependent on her than she had to be.

“I’ll see you then. Hey don’t look so nervous you’ll be fine honestly, anyone would think you were having your head chopped off not your hair!” Lena joked trying to raise a smile out of Yulia.

“Ha! Yeah, I know.” Yulia smiled briefly shrugging her shoulders. “ I’m being silly just ignore me”

“As if I could” Lena winked at her and Yulia could feel herself blush. It was only Lena, why was she acting so weird?

“Hmm, well I’ll see you in an hour then” She turned on her heel quickly not wanting Lena to notice her red face.

“Yul wait!”

Yulia stopped and turned around. “Yes”

“Here’s some money just in case,” Lena held out some money in her hand to Yulia, which she very reluctantly accepted. The sooner she could pay her own way the better she really wanted to be Lena’s equal.
“Thanks Lena”

“No probs, I’ll see you later hun” Lena winked again at Yulia. She wished she would stop flirting with her, she just felt so embarrassed.

“See ya later Lena!”

Once Len had departed Yulia looked into the salon observing several people having their hair cut by the immaculately styled hairdressers. Yulia felt so out of place as she entered the salon and walked up to the reception desk. Butterflies were now fluttering in her stomach and her throat felt dry.

“Hello, I have an appointment” Yulia tried to force a confident tone of voice but she was sure it hadn’t worked as the receptionist looked her up and down.

“What name is it please?”

“Yulia Volkova.”

“If you’d like to take a seat over there” The receptionist said beckoning towards a row of designer chairs. “Can I take your coat for you?”

“Yes please” Yulia said answered politely.

She waited several minutes until a very attractive but unquestionably gay looking man approached her where she was sat reading one of the fashion magazines she had picked up off the coffee table.

“Hi I’m Sasha, you’re with me today if you’d like to come and take a seat.” She relaxed and sat down in front of a large mirror taking a closer look at Sasha. Yup, he was definitely gay, the outlandish dress sense and the feminine intonation of his voice betraying his sexuality. Yulia was relieved, at least a gay boy wouldn’t give her too much s**t. She hoped.

“So Yulia what are we doing today?” Sasha said smiling affably at her in the mirror his blue eyes twinkling.

“Well, as you can see my hair is in quite a state erm I’d like it short but I guess it depends on how bad the condition of my hair as to how short you cut it. I dunno, what do you think?” She grimaced not really sure if she wanted to hear his opinion or not.

“Well” Sasha pulled his comb out and began examining Yulia’s hair with his brow furrowed. He hesitated before redirecting his attention to Yulia. “To be honest with you I would say the best thing to do is to cut it quite short to get the condition back in your hair. So I would say you’ll probably only have about two inches of hair left.”

“I thought as much” God, two inches wasn’t very much she thought to herself.

“But you’re a gorgeous girl you can pull it off. Trust me! Is that alright?” Sasha waved his arms around theatrically making Yulia grin to herself, he was a queen if ever there was one, a nice queen though.

“Fine, do your worst” she nodded.

“Ok! First of all I’ll take you over and wash your hair” Once Yulia had sat back and was having her hair washed she relaxed in the massage chair enjoying being pampered. After a few minutes she was led back to her chair. The cutting commenced.

***

Yulia watched closely as Sasha began quickly snipping off her hair. It was amazing to see the transformation occurring until she could see that most of the hair was now gone. She was a different girl. As Sasha stopped cutting he looked at Yulia in the mirror.

“Well this is about the length. How would you like me to style it?” Sasha asked gently noticing the stunned expression on her face.

“However you think” she replied numbly.

“I’m going to spike it then, that will look absolutely fabulous on you my darling” Sasha’s voice was loaded with the enthusiasm that Yulia couldn’t quite muster.

Although, she felt slightly naked without all the hair she had become accustomed to once Sasha had finishing styling her new look she actually liked what she saw in the mirror, she just hoped Lena would like it too.

***

Yulia was early so she stood under the church clock waiting impatiently for Lena to arrive. Would Lena recognise her? She looked so drastically different that Lena was in for a shock at the very least. Then she saw her, her red hair blowing wildly as she fought against the wind. She looked around several times for Yulia but she hadn’t noticed her at all. She had her back to Yulia so she crept up behind her and grabbed her by the waist to catch her attention. This had the result that Lena was so startled that she practically jumped out of her skin as she span round defensively to face Yulia “Hey! What the hell do you think you’re… Yulia?” Oh my god! Look at you! Oh my god!” Lena was dumbstruck her jaw virtually touching the floor.

“So you keep saying, but the question is do you like it?” Yulia raised her hands self-consciously to her hair waiting intently for Lena’s approval.

“Well..” There was a long pause as Lena stared at Yulia inspecting her thoroughly.

“I’ll take that as a no then!” Yulia hung her head in disappointment she had really wanted Lena to like the way she looked - she clearly didn’t.

“It’s not that Yul, it’s just you look..so..different…it’s so short” Lena said struggling to articulate her thoughts on the new Yulia.

“I know” Yulia whispered quietly finding it hard to look Lena in the eye.

After a minute Lena was the first to speak up “You know, I think you look really cute actually”

“Cute?” Yulia was so surprised to hear Lena say something positive that she didn’t know what to say.

“I mean, aww look at your little neck” Lena reached out and touched the back of Yulia’s neck prompting a broad grin from Yulia.

“Well I am little, so I’d look pretty damn stupid with a big ol’ fat neck.” Yulia replied facetiously.

“You’re so cheeky!” Yulia poked her tongue out playfully at Lena in response. “Just ‘cause you look cute don’t think you can get away with murder.” Lena warned her in mock exasperation.

“Would I?” Yulia said with angelic look on her face.

“Yes, you would” Lena gently shoved Yulia “Seriously though Yulia, your hair really suits you short like that”

“Thanks, I like it but I suppose it will take me a while to get used to it.”

“It’ll grow on you” Lena smirked laughing at her own joke.

“Oh, very funny” Yulia rolled her eyes, trying not to giggle but in the end she couldn’t suppress a snort of laughter

“C’mon Spikey let’s go” Lena said teasingly ruffling Yulia’s hair before dragging her by the hand back to the car.

[guesshoo]

yay, volk got a haircut.
excellent!

nice chapters vicky. keep up the good work!

[parrish122]

Another great chapter!

I flat-out giggled at Yulia saying she'd look stupid with a big ol' fat neck. :)

Keep up the good work. :done:

Parrish

[PoisonousTruth]

I've posted on the other forum about this story and I also wanted to post on here...:) You're doing a great job vicky7.

[dare2dream28]

I've also posted at the other forum, but I'll post here too. I really enjoy this story Vicky! It's just too cute and I can't wait to see the beating Roman will get...okay, maybe not beating, but I hope Yulia gets to kick some butt.....okay, okay, I just hope Roman leaves and *I'll* kick his butt! *gets out bat* *evil grin*

[vicky7]

Hello! Normally post full chapters here but here's so more for you, enjoy!

Chapter 10 – Family Fortunes

Yulia plucked up the courage to dial the phone number she knew by heart. The phone rang once, twice, three times before someone answered the phone.

“Hello!” Larissa Volkova greeted the yet unknown caller.

“Mum? It’s me.” Yulia said in virtually a whisper wanting to hang up.

“What?” Larissa was abrupt obviously completely underwhelmed to hear from her daughter.

“It’s me Yulia” she repeated numbly. Apart from the sound of Larissa breathing heavily down the phone there was nothing in way of reply and Yulia needed a response. “Mum?”

“Yes, I’m here, why on earth are you phoning after all this time?” Larissa said accusingly obviously irritated.

“I need my things” Yulia decided she should be as straight to the point as Larissa and just as abrupt.

“What? You want to come here and get them?” she barked down the phone. Yulia pulled the handset slightly back from her ear. Bloody hell was she trying to deafen her?

“Yes I do” Yulia paused momentarily. “I need them Mum, I wouldn’t call you unless I did, I understand you don’t want to see me but at least let me have my things” she said hurriedly before Larissa could cut her off.

“Ok, you can come but…when your father’s at work, he really doesn’t want to see you as far as he, we are concerned we don’t have a daughter so I would prefer it if you came at a time when he wasn’t here” her voice lacked emotion she could have been talking to a stranger.

“Fine! When can I come and remove all evidence of my existence” Yulia couldn’t resist being sarcastic, she felt bitterness flowing through her veins, how dare she treat her like that.

“Your Dad’s going out for the day tomorrow, come around in the morning, I am going out in the afternoon so don’t make it too late” Larissa warned.

“Ok I’ll be round at ten then if that’s alright? ”

“Yes, Goodbye” Larissa slammed the receiver down before she had chance to reply. Yulia breathed a sign of relief and hung up at her end, at least it was over for now. Her mother had sounded so cold and hard, it didn’t sound like her but she knew from the call that her parents were as hostile towards her as they had been that fateful day when they had cast her out. But she could live with that, she just wanted to reclaim all the things she had at home that had really meant something to her. That she thought was a reasonable request.


There was a knock on the door. “Yul, can I come in.” Lena asked through the door.

“Yeah, come in.”

Lena could see by Yulia’s expression that the phone call with her mother hadn’t gone well. Her heart went out to her and she felt guilty that she had pushed Yulia into doing it. Lena could empathize as she had still not patched things up with her own mother after the dinner party the other week. Perhaps she should try to make things up herself.

“I take it it didn’t go well then” Yulia had taken the call in her bedroom so Lena sat down beside her on the bed.

“Not great” she grinned wryly. “I can go round tomorrow and get my stuff she said about ten”

“So what time will we have to leave here?”

“Oh no Lena, I don’t expect you to take me” Yulia said not wanting to drag Lena into it.

“Well how you gonna get there?”

Yulia shrugged her shoulders. “I hadn’t really thought about it”

“I’m taking you and I won’t take no for an answer”

Yulia looked distant in somewhat of a trance. “She was horrible Lena, so cold, she said as far as they were concerned they didn’t have a daughter.” Yulia’s voice broke and her bottom lip quivered. “Oh god, I don’t wanna cry over them”

“Hey” Lena threw her arms around Yulia pressing the side of her face against hers and whispering in her ear “Well its their loss and my gain, I think you’re wonderful Yulia, I really do, I’ve never met anyone like you”

Lena pulled back to look into Yulia’s eyes to see despite her eyes shining with tears she had managed a special smile for Lena. How could she ever feel unhappy for long when she had Lena on her side Yulia couldn’t help but think. As long as she had her guardian angel she would always be fine she could feel it in her gut.

“Now come on, no more tears” Lena put her hands either side of Yulia’s face wiping her tears away with her thumbs.

“Thanks” Yulia said smiling the broadest smile.

Lena winked “You’re welcome sweetie! Think that show’s on that you wanted to watch, come on” Lena grabbed Yulia by the hand and took her out into the living room where tomorrow wasn’t discussed, that was left until the morning…

[parrish122]

Yay! Another chapter!

I like how this fic is going, how Lena is helping Yulia...but even if neither knows it, Yulia is helping Lena as well. Finally Lena has someone she can care about who cares back and isn't just using her.

Parrish

[haku]

Great story vicky7, very moving. :)

Originally posted by dare2dream28
*I'll* kick his butt! *gets out bat* *evil grin*
I'm with you on that! I hate that guy! I just read several chapters in a row and i had the same reaction as Yulia when i read about him having sex with Lena, i felt sick... :hmmm: Bastard... :bebebe: The rest of the time he's there, i just wanna kill him!

[vicky7]

Originally posted by parrish122
Yay! Another chapter!

I like how this fic is going, how Lena is helping Yulia...but even if neither knows it, Yulia is helping Lena as well. Finally Lena has someone she can care about who cares back and isn't just using her.

Parrish

Thank you for that comment, it's really nice to have someone understand my vision for this story as they are each giving the other what they need most which is a major theme of the story

[vicky7]

Here's the end of Chapter 10

Chapter 10 cont...

Lena pulled up outside a tall block of apartments, this was where Yulia had grown up and as Lena now looked at Yulia she could clearly see the apprehension on her face, she looked petrified.

“Yul, do you want me to come with you?” Lena asked gently.

“No, erm I think I’d better go on my own. She’s going to be a bitch to me and I really don’t want you to be there to hear it, I’m scared you might believe what she says” Yulia hung her head not wanting to meet Lena’s gaze.

“As if! Anyway, are you sure you don’t want me to come?” Lena asked again wanting to be there for Yulia as much as she possibly could.

“Positive”

“But what about your stuff, carrying it down” Lena persisted.

“I can manage there’s a lift” The last thing Yulia wanted was for Lena to meet her mother, she would no doubt inform Lena why she had been chucked out and she wasn’t ready for Lena to know about her sexuality just yet.

“Alright then, see you in a bit” Lena smiled sweetly at Yulia, which gave her slightly more confidence.

“Won’t be long, she’ll have probably thrown me out before too long anyway, ha!” Yulia tried to joke but it was a poor attempt she knew.

It was strange for Yulia walking into the block of apartments, every corridor had a memory, the majority were happy but knowing that the people who had brought her up didn’t want to acknowledge her existence anymore soiled those memories for her. She stood outside the family home and braced herself; she rang the doorbell and waited hesitantly.

Within seconds the door opened revealing her mother, Yulia was shocked she had aged dramatically, her face ashen and her features pinched and old looking.

“Yulia” Larissa addressed her.

“Hello Mum” Yulia greeted her robotically still trying to get used to the old woman’s appearance in front of her.

“Come in then” Larissa beckoned her through.

“Thanks” They stood staring at each other for a moment mutely. “Erm, is it alright if I go into my room then and get my things?”

“Yes, ok”

“Right, cool” Yulia watched Mrs Volkova sit herself down and continue to watch the banal daytime television she had been watching prior to her arrival. Some things never changed, her mother sat on her backside making an art form out of doing nothing, why her Dad put up with her Yulia never could quite understand.

Yulia’s room was just as she had left it, the same curtains, the same bedding even the same posters but her desk had a huge stack of letters on it. Evidently every letter she had been sent since she had left. She was surprised that they had been kept and not thrown out with the rubbish. She got a bag out of her cupboard and started to pile her mail inside and noticed a very official looking letter propped up against her computer. She opened it, it contained a cheque for a very large sum of money courtesy of her father’s estate. Then she realised it was a will settlement; her father was dead.

Yulia sank to her knees sobs racking her small body. Why hadn’t her mother told her, why had she lied and told her he was out when in fact he was dead. The bedroom door swung back and Larissa eyed her coldly. “It was because of you..he couldn’t take it..his heart… He couldn’t believe it, not his Yulia! You meant so much to him, so much more than I ever did and you killed him! Took him away from me! He’s left you so much and you don’t deserve it, you really don’t!” Larissa raged.

Yulia was unable to respond immediately, she felt dizzy and extremely sick to her stomach “Mum. I’m so sorry. I didn’t want Dad to get upset, it was my choice, my life, nothing to do with you or him” Yulia croaked “Oh god…Dad” She ran her hands through her hair and shut her eyes tightly, the tears still managing to squeeze their way out.

“He tried to find you.” Larissa continued in a soft tone her anger subsiding momentary to unadulterated pure pain and sorrow. “I need you to go now.” she said almost sadly.

“I just need to get my clothes and my pieces” Yulia needed to leave herself, her head was spinning.

“Well fine, get them! I’m going next door. Don’t ever come round again, ever. I don’t need you rolling up with your girlfriend showing me up” Larissa did a brutal about turn, once more attacking Yulia

“I haven’t got a girlfriend!” Yulia yelled back.

“Well, who’s the red head in the Mini?” Larissa demanded.

“Just a friend” Yulia had known this would happen and she didn’t want Lena involved in this mess.

“Whatever you say Yulia” Larissa said with utter contempt. “You think I’m so stupid you always did. I was your mother. I never should have had you, never! If I’d known what you’d turn out like I would have had an abortion”

Yulia felt like she had been struck “Please don’t say that”

“It’s true! You ruined everything, I loved your Dad so much and you killed him!” She shouted.

“Mum please don’t say that” Yulia could barely speak now, she was always Daddy’s girl and to have her mother blame her for his death felt like she was being stabbed in the heart.

“If you had loved him you would have never done what you did” Larissa eyes were now full of tears of rage, her whole body shaking with emotion.

“It wasn’t about Dad, it was about me and the fact that I loved Anouska” Yulia defended herself ardently.

“What the hell do you know about love?”

“A damn sight more than you do!” Yulia had enough, she always loved with her whole heart and soul. She knew what it meant to love and had suffered for it; Larissa didn’t know a thing.

“Look, I’m going, just give me five minutes and I’ll be gone” Yulia took the first load of things down to the car and Lena looked at her as if to ask if everything was ok but Yulia could only hold up her hand to stop her asking. Lena nodded, she knew Yulia would tell her in her own good time but she could see by the pain etched on her features that something really bad had happened.

After two more trips Yulia had got all the stuff she wanted out of her bedroom and was taking the last load down to the car. Yulia paused in the living room studying the picture of her father Oleg on the mantelpiece one last time. She picked up the frame memorising every line of the happy, kind face of the man she had always idolised. She traced his features with her index finger before kissing the picture tears streaming down her face. “Goodbye Daddy” she whispered. “I love you.”

[amikana]

[sobs] :( poor yulia!!

great work though vicky! i love this story! :)

[parrish122]

Grrr...Yulia's mom needs to be slapped!

Well written Vicky! You know you are doing well when your readers want to smack around some of the characters. :D

Parrish

[guesshoo]

argh! larissa is sooo mean!
damn her!

vicky, to be honest, my mouth hit the floor when i read the first line about her father. that is sooo sad!
geez, i wonder how it happened......


ps. nice work vicky, keep it up!

[vicky7]

Hey guys! I've been very busy today, here's another update for ya!

Chapter 11 – Grieving

Yulia cried for days after she found out about her father’s death. When Lena had drove her back to the apartment after the run in with her mother she had been completely inconsolable. She had found it hard to say out loud that he was gone even to Lena and in the end she had shown her the letter, as she wasn’t making any sense. Nothing made sense from the moment she had found out, it was all she could think about.

Since then she had spent her days staring into space lost in her memories, which were all she had left of her Dad apart from the huge cheque. She had stashed it in her bedside cabinet and would occasionally pull it out to look at and think how poor a substitute it was for her Dad. How could money ever compensate for her loss?

Yulia couldn’t eat at all because her stomach was so tied up in knots. She pondered whether she had really been the cause of her Dad’s death on an almost hourly basis. From what her mother had told her or rather screamed at her, it was his heart. She didn’t even know when he had died or where he was buried, having no details made it worse, she should know he was her Dad after all.

Also, the way she had been tricked and had read about his death in the will settlement left her cold every time she thought about it. Larissa Volkova hated her own daughter she had made that clear and Yulia hated her in return for laying the blame on her, she felt like she had been orphaned.

Lena was extremely worried about Yulia because as the days went by she seemed to be descending deeper into depression. From the first night they had brought her belongings back from her parents apartment Lena had found it agonizing to lay in bed and to try to sleep when she could hear Yulia’s strangled sobs through the bedroom wall. In the end although she had wanted to give Yulia space to grieve she couldn’t bear to listen to her friend’s anguish any longer.

The last few nights Lena had resorted to sleeping with Yulia in her room cradling her in her arms until the tears subsided and she eventually fell asleep finally reassured by Lena’s loving embraces. Lena would watch her sleep desperately wanting to take all the pain away. It tugged at her heartstrings to see the sorrow in Yulia’s eyes, the grief consuming her whole being. Lena wanted to protect her from the world and especially that mother of hers.

As Lena looked down at Yulia who was at last sleeping soundly for the night, she kissed her gently on her rosy cheek admiring the beautiful profile of her best friend. How could any mother treat their child like Larissa Volkova had treated her only daughter? Lena felt extremely angry and bitter towards Yulia’s mother to the extent that she would have loved to go to the apartment and had it out with her but she wouldn’t for Yulia’s sake, she knew deep down that would only make matters worse.

To Lena it was the cruellest thing Yulia’s mother could have done to Yulia to blame her for her father’s death. She had clearly hero-worshipped him and the double burden of guilt and grief was proving too much for Yulia to live with. Did Larissa not think Yulia had been through enough?

Even when they had sorted through Yulia’s mail together and she had received the good news that due to her tutor submitting her final examination piece she had been awarded an exceptional degree, it was a hollow victory for her. For Yulia there was no joy to be had from it, what was a degree certificate if she had no parents to be proud of her? Lena had been very enthusiastic about it but for all Yulia felt for her it wasn’t the same as having her Dad beaming at her his face full of pride, if it hadn’t been for him she would not have even gone to university.

Lena looked down at Yulia again wanting more than anything to see Yulia smile again. How she was going to achieve it she wasn’t quite sure but she would help her to grieve and to move on with her life, she was determined not to let her down.

[parrish122]

Oh yay! That was a quick update. I love it when the writers I'm reading update fast. :)

Poor Yulia. I can relate to this chapter a bit. I got my 2 year degree not long after I'd come out to my parents, and it hurt that I couldn't share that with them. I wouldn't have bothered to go through the ceremony if not for my partner Barb. She made a big deal out of it, which made me feel much better. :)

Parrish

[guesshoo]

Originally posted by parrish122
Oh yay! That was a quick update. I love it when the writers I'm reading update fast. :)

Poor Yulia. I can relate to this chapter a bit. I got my 2 year degree not long after I'd come out to my parents, and it hurt that I couldn't share that with them. I wouldn't have bothered to go through the ceremony if not for my partner Barb. She made a big deal out of it, which made me feel much better. :)

Parrish

that sounds pretty deep parrish. i'm sorry to hear that. :(
but i'm glad that you're doing better. for you: :rose:


nice work vicky, and like parrish said, "i love it when the writer's i'm reading update fast."
thanx :)

[dare2dream28]

Originally posted by parrish122
Oh yay! That was a quick update. I love it when the writers I'm reading update fast. :)

Poor Yulia. I can relate to this chapter a bit. I got my 2 year degree not long after I'd come out to my parents, and it hurt that I couldn't share that with them. I wouldn't have bothered to go through the ceremony if not for my partner Barb. She made a big deal out of it, which made me feel much better. :)

Parrish

Sorry to hear your parents treated you like that Parrish, but glad to hear Barb was there for you. :)

Vicky, this story is awesome! Argh I feel like bringing out my bat and using it on Yulia's mom. :mad: How could someone be so mean and heartless?! Can't wait for the next update!

[amikana]

[breaks out her baseball bat too] i'll totally join you dare2dream28! larissa is a bitch, plain and simple.

vicky - can i just state *again* how into this story i am? i freaking LOVE it. :D great work :D:D:D

[vicky7]

Originally posted by parrish122
Oh yay! That was a quick update. I love it when the writers I'm reading update fast. :)

Poor Yulia. I can relate to this chapter a bit. I got my 2 year degree not long after I'd come out to my parents, and it hurt that I couldn't share that with them. I wouldn't have bothered to go through the ceremony if not for my partner Barb. She made a big deal out of it, which made me feel much better. :)

Parrish

Sounds tough Parrish, graduation is such a weird thing you go more for others especially parents just glad you had your special someone there to make it a happy day for you! And another update with follow on the next post, enjoy!

[vicky7]

Chapter 11 cont.

“Lena its here” Yulia said standing in front of a large marble headstone. It was her Dad’s grave. She read the headstone, he had died last November, nearly five months ago. Oleg Volkov, loving husband of Larissa, 1950 – 2006. No mention of him being her loving father. Had he really despised her in the end and if so why had he left her all that money? She felt herself shiver as reality finally hit home that her Dad lay underneath the ground where she was standing, she felt physically sick.

Yulia racked her brain trying to recall what she had been doing the day he had died but she drew a blank as her days on the streets mostly blurred into one. All she knew was that she should have been there with him. To know he had died before they had managed to patch up their differences broke her heart and she was once again filling up with tears. Then she heard a soothing voice in her ear and felt two warm arms wrap around her waist from behind.

“Hey, I know this is hard but you just take your time.” Lena was greeted by a wall of silence maybe she shouldn’t have come here with Yulia after all this was a very personal issue which she should let Yulia deal with in her own way.

“Do you want me to leave you alone for a while?” Lena eventually asked.

“No” Yulia placed her hands on top of Lena’s which were still around her waist and pulled Lena’s arms even more tightly around her “I need you here Lena” she said turning her head to look Lena in the eyes.

Lena didn’t move. “That’s ok,” She nodded and whispered before simply resting her head on Yulia’s shoulder enjoying their closeness.

After a while Yulia opened the large bag she had brought with her and pulled out a bouquet of white lilies. She placed them on the grave and knelt down. When Lena had suggested that she should come here she had thought it was a bad idea but now she was there she felt better now that she could say a proper goodbye, it was the least she owed her Dad.

Yulia started to talk out loud as if he were still around to hear her while Lena just watched her closely listening to her heartfelt plea for forgiveness. “Dad, I’m so sorry I let you down,” Yulia paused struggling to catch her breathe, “please don’t think I ever stopped loving you I never did and I never will. I just had to do it Dad because I was…”

Yulia hesitated remembering she had never told Lena the reason she had fallen out with her parents, she wasn’t prepared to tell her yet. “If it wasn’t for you,” she continued her voice hoarse, “I would never have had the guts to do anything or be anything, I got my degree in the end you know, all because you gave me so much love and support. It meant so much to me to make you proud, and even now you are gone I promise I won’t let you down again, I’ll make something of myself.” she finished on a determined and optimistic note.

Yulia stopped and stared at the grave once more before getting to her feet all her memories flooding back. Oleg Volkov had been a fighter, a man who was proud and strong who had worked hard for his family and had given Yulia as much as he had to give. The adoring expression he always used when he had looked at her would be forever engraved in her head; that would never die. He had loved her no matter what her mother had told her she felt it now she was at his resting place, it was like he was watching her there at his graveside, she felt he finally understood.

When Yulia looked behind her she could see that Lena’s cheeks were tear stained much like her own and they both shared a knowing look before respectfully standing side by side in front of the grave until Yulia moved to leave. Her eyes lingered momentarily on the gravestone, which bore her father’s name as she recalled what he had said to her on her first day at University, it reverberated around her head. “This is just the start for you Yulia, you have a gift, please do not waste what is a god given talent.”

[guesshoo]

awwww, so sad!
poor yuli! :(

i'm lovin how careful lena is being w/ yuli, she really needs it.


good work vicky! :done:

[samegirl]

Wow!
this fic is so sweet....I really love the girsl in this fic.
It absolutely awesome keep writing Vicky. You're doing great!

[vicky7]

Here is the first part of chapter 12,hope you all enjoy it! Any feedback would be really apreciated! Thanks

Chapter 12 – Like I love You

A month had passed since Yulia visited her father’s grave. Since that day she had barely paused for breath as she was on a mission to start her career as a fashion designer. She was almost a year late in starting out because of her stint out on the streets so she knew she had no time to waste if she wanted to get back on track.

Ever since she had been a little girl Yulia had dreamt of designing clothes for a living. As she had grown up she had taken great delight in making her own clothes, coming up with weirdest and most wonderful outfits. Yulia didn’t want to dress like anyone else; she was an innovator with her own vision that she had honed to perfection in her three years at University. Now she was rekindling her obsession with designing having finally cashed her father’s cheque and putting it to good use by buying the materials and other equipment she needed to make up her designs.

Recently, Yulia had been literally working through the night racking her brain in an attempt to come up with concepts for her designs, often screwing them up into balls and launching them into the rubbish bin like paper missiles, cursing in her impatience to create something she liked, something that could have only been designed by Yulia Volkova.

In the meantime, Lena was bemused at the new facets of Yulia’s personality that were emerging each day, as she became more and more engrossed in her work. The biggest difference as far as Lena could see was that Yulia was now carrying herself with an air of confidence as she knew she was good at designing, with her confidence at times being almost confusable with arrogance.

Lena revelled in this shift in personality loving the way Yulia looked so intense and passionate when she was absorbed in her work, usually covered from head to toe in ink as she scribbled her designs down rapidly like a woman possessed. Lena had to keep carrying Yulia to bed as it was becoming routine for her to fall asleep at the kitchen table pen still in hand, face down in her work.

In addition to creating a new collection of clothes that she was putting together as a part of her portfolio of work, Yulia was ringing around all the fashion houses in Moscow in an attempt to get herself a job. She was rejected off hand what seemed like hundreds of times until she managed to secure two interviews, which coincidentally were scheduled for the same day.

The day of the interviews soon arrived and when Lena dropped Yulia off for the first interview she felt like she was sending a small child off to school on her first day. “You look very smart Yulia and your designs are fantastic, so you go knock ‘em dead” Lena leant over to give Yulia a peck on the cheek.

Yulia smiled weakly and climbed out of the car “Thanks Lena, I’ll see you later.”

“Good luck Yul, you can do it, I know you can” Lena said offering her further encouragement.

Yulia shut the car door and watched as Lena drove off. Yulia was ready and she was determined she was going to succeed. She had a burning desire to live up to the reputation as the next big thing that she had cultivated at University. As she walked up to the large glass building in front of her she gripped her portfolio tightly under her arm before confidently sauntering inside.

[parrish122]

Ooohhh! Interesting!

I really enjoyed the image of Yulia falling asleep face-down in her work. For some reason, I could picture that so well. :)

Keep up the good work!

Parrish

[amikana]

heh, she sauntered!!! lol that's *so* yulia :D

great work vicky!!!!

[vicky7]

Chapter 12 part 2

Ten days later the post arrived and included two very official looking letters for Yulia, Lena could tell just by looking at them that they were from the fashion houses where Yulia had been interviewed. She was almost too scared to shout Yulia to tell her they were here, she was praying that it would be good news because it would be such a huge setback for Yulia if she was rejected.

“YULIA, YOU’VE GOT SOME MAIL!” Lena hollered.

Yulia dashed into the kitchen within seconds, and realised like Lena what the letters contained. “Oh god Lena! They’re about my interviews aren’t they?” This was it; in a few minutes she was either going to be feeling completely elated or utterly dejected, she could feel herself begin to panic.

As Lena held out the envelopes to Yulia she noticed that her hands were trembling violently. “Yulia, hey its alright,” Lena grabbed her hands in hers squeezing them gently, trying to calm Yulia down a little.

“I’m so scared Lena, I really want one of these jobs, it would be the start of everything for me” Yulia’s voice shook, she felt more nervous than when she had actually been interviewed.

“I know it would be a big disappointment for you if you don’t get a job offer but there will be more jobs, you’ve not been looking long and your designs are fantastic so don’t worry” Lena reassured her.

“Mmm, you’re right, I know you are but…” Yulia stopped, she didn’t want to think about other jobs but if she had to she would but first of all she needed to open the letters to find out her fate. “Right here we go” she couldn’t wait any longer.

As Yulia ripped open the first envelope and pulled out the letter Lena read it with her. Just as Lena comprehended that it was good news Yulia shouted out and started to jump up and down “Yes, yes, yes!”

“Oh Yul, well done, I’m so proud of you” Lena getting caught up in all the excitement raised Yulia up in her arms and span her around in a circle. They were slightly off balance and nearly fell onto the floor and as Lena released Yulia from the hug they stood laughing and talking all at once, both of them feeling absolutely ecstatic.

Once they had calmed down Lena remembered that Yulia had only opened one of the letters. “What about the other letter Yul, you’ve not opened that yet.”

“Oh yeah, I forgot about that one” Yulia said casually, her nerves had disappeared and she felt like she was floating on air; she had at least one job offer.

The letter contained another job offer. “Two interviews, two job offers, you’re spoiled for choice now!”

“I know” Yulia looked dazed, at best she had hoped for one offer but two that was unbelievable.

“You’re gonna be a huge success I know you are, in fact hang on a minute” Lena ran out of the kitchen leaving Yulia to read over the letters again, it wouldn’t sink in. Lena reappeared with a large bottle of champagne and a ‘congratulations on your new job’ card. “I was fairly confident that you would get at least one job offer so I thought I’d get ready to celebrate, do you want some now?”

“It’s only 10:30 in the morning!” Yulia exclaimed.

“So, it’s a Saturday and this is just the best news ever” Lena was so thrilled for Yulia that she was grinning broadly from ear to ear.

“Go on then” Yulia conceded not seeing the mischievous look on Lena’s face until she had popped the cork on the bottle and had sprayed her with champagne. “That’s it Katina, you’re dead!”

[guesshoo]

yay for yuli!
this is going to be exciting.

thanx vicky.

[vicky7]

Chapter 12 part 3


“Yul, can you come here and tell me what you think?” Lena shouted out to Yulia from the fitting rooms.

“Coming” Yulia stood near the entrance waiting for Lena to appear. They were on evening gown shopping duty for some function Lena had to attend for work. They had been in and out of shops for three hours now and Yulia was bored stiff, Lena hadn’t liked anything she had tried on so far and in the end Yulia had picked out a long flowing fitted dress in white in which she was convinced Lena would look stunning.

“Here I am, so what do you think?” Lena said presenting herself to Yulia who was stood staring opened mouthed. “You’re catching flies!”

Yulia smiled, her eyes wide as she tried to take in the sight before her, Lena looked absolutely beautiful in that dress, she had to be the most beautiful girl she had ever seen, she was an angel. Yulia’s pulse was racing, she hadn’t realised it before but she was in love with Lena, she meant so much to her, the world in fact. She had originally thought she loved her like a friend but she couldn’t deny it any longer, Lena was adorable and right now Yulia wanted to take her back into the fitting room and kiss her passionately.

“You alright Yulia? Is it horrible?” Lena asked looking worried.

“Yes, I mean no, it’s perfect, you look…absolutely amazing in it. You need to get it.” Yulia struggled to articulate; she knew she was in danger of blurting out her feelings in her current state of mind.
“Really? Do you think?” Lena still wasn’t convinced.

“Hell, yeah!”

When Lena went back into the fitting room Yulia stood outside feeling utterly perplexed. She had been denying to herself for a long time that her feelings for Lena were not strictly platonic because Lena was the worst possible person for Yulia to fall for in this way. She knew she would never be able to have her and unrequited love was so painful. Why couldn’t she ever like someone who liked her back just as much?

But Lena was just so sweet, caring, funny and intelligent, the list was never ending, not to mention the fact that she was lovely looking with the most amazing green eyes, Yulia loved green eyes. Add the killer smile and the question was how could Yulia have not fallen in love with her, she was wonderful. The only thing was that now Yulia couldn’t ignore her feelings it was going to be extremely difficult for her to be around Lena without confessing her love.

Lena emerged from the fitting rooms “So you definitely think I should get it then?”

“Yes definitely”

“Ok then but you’d better start making me some clothes at work, it costs me a bomb coming out shopping with you, you always manage to pick out the most expensive thing in the whole shop.” Lena joked not noticing Yulia’s pensive facial expression.

“Haha well only the best for you” Yulia said trying to sound natural despite the revelation that had hit home in the last few minutes.

“I suppose, come on” Lena tapped her on the shoulder sending a volt of electricity through her body; it was pure torturous pleasure.

[amikana]

ooh! yay!! they're so cute! this story is just too good!! :)
awesome job vicky!

one question though? whatever happened to Roman?

amikana

[vicky7]

Roman's back amikana! Here's the end of Chapter 12 for you!

Chapter 12 part 4

To make the events of the day seem so much worse Roman came around that evening to spend the night with Lena. He managed to do what he always did so well, destroying the cosy atmosphere that existed in the apartment when Lena and Yulia were alone. His presence created huge tension because Yulia hated him and the feeling was pretty mutual.

Yulia hadn’t seen Roman since the night she had heard Lena tell him that she was leaving as Lena had very subtly only mentioned him briefly and when she saw him she had been going around to his apartment because she had known that it would take time for them to get used to one another. However, here he was again in front of Yulia, larger than life and grinning at her arrogantly.

“What happened to you? Head transplant?” he sneered at Yulia.

“No, haircut” She informed him curtly not wanting to get involved in an argument.

“You don’t look such a mess now” Roman continued looking for a reaction on her part but Yulia couldn’t be bothered, he wasn’t worth it.
“Cheers” she said monotonously, barely moving her attention away from the television.

“Roman!” Lena warned seeing that he was trying to wind Yulia up.

“Ok, ok, it was a joke!” he protested, “You know I don’t mean it don’t you?” he said to Yulia.

“ Yeah, gotcha!”

“See, she can take a joke” Roman insisted to Lena as if Yulia wasn’t in the room.

Lena rolled her eyes tired of his childish behaviour towards Yulia. “Come on, let’s leave Yulia in peace.”

“Goodie, we going to bed?” he asked cheekily.

“I said come on!” Lena was losing her patience now why was he so indiscreet all the time.

“Yes miss” Roman saluted her.

***

That night when Roman and Lena were having sex Lena shut her eyes preparing to do her customary fake orgasm. No matter how hard she tried she couldn’t enjoy sex with Roman. She just couldn’t get into it, but she knew it was part of any healthy relationship even though she didn’t particularly like it. However, that was her fault not Roman’s. The least she could do was make the right noises that she liked it.

Lena pressed her eyes shut concentrating as he penetrated harder and harder into her and then Yulia’s face popped into her head. Every kiss and every touch, all of a sudden it was Yulia she was with, sucking her nipples, kissing them softly, tasting her, tormenting her, making her come..

“Oh god, Yul..er you’re the best Roman, the absolute fucking best, mmm” Roman rolled off Lena satisfied now he had got the affirmation he wanted while Lena lay on her back as he turned away from her and stared at the ceiling. S**t, she had really orgasmed but she was thinking about Yulia. That was so wrong! What the f**k was wrong with her?

Yulia was her best friend, not anyone she could…she wasn’t gay, so why the hell would she feel that? Why did it make her come? It was because they spent so much time together wasn’t it? That’s why she had seen her face. She was probably wondering whether Yulia was ok listening to them. That was it, wasn’t it? It was, it had to be.

[haku]

Vow, vicky7, updates all day long! I'm glad to see that things are finally looking up for Yulia. I hope she's gonna be able to help Lena too, she really needs it! :)

Roman's back
LOL, when i read that, i immediately thought: shit, the jerk's back! But i have to admit that i like reading your depiction of the typical straight man! So funny, in a pathetic (and sad for Lena) way. Please continue to ridicule him/them. :D

[parrish122]

Wow Vicky! You've spoiled me today. All these updates!

The chapter is great. I love how you've described the growing attraction between the two girls.

Parrish

[vicky7]

Chapter 13 – A Heated Discussion (part 1)

It was Sunday morning and Lena felt deeply troubled. She still couldn’t work out why she had been fantasising about Yulia when she was having sex with Roman. She had orgasmed for the very first time and had nearly called out Yulia’s name, she felt tainted, like Roman and Yulia would both shun her if they found out.

Once Roman had gone home and Yulia had come out of her bedroom after waiting for Roman to leave she could sense that there was something wrong with Lena as she was so preoccupied that she did not even notice Yulia as she walked into the living room.

“Morning Lena” Yulia said cheerfully.

“Morning Yulia” Lena replied on autopilot, only briefly glancing up at Yulia. She felt too ashamed to look her friend in the face just in case she was able to tell what she had been thinking about.

“Fancy some breakfast?” With Yulia working now, she rarely cooked for Lena like you had used to so with it being Sunday she wanted to treat her.

“Erm, I was just gonna grab a shower and go out” Lena said awkwardly. Yulia then realised that Lena was probably slightly embarrassed about the fact that she knew Yulia would have heard her having sex with Roman.

Lena’s screams had rang out loudly throughout the apartment and Yulia had listened for a minute feeling more jealous than she had felt for a long time, if only she could be the one to make her howl with pleasure like that. Yulia had stopped herself listening feeling a sadness beginning to consume her at the thought that Lena would never be hers and she had put her walkman on to drown out the sound of Roman and Lena with the rock album she was listening to.

“Oh right, erm where you off to?” Lena’s awkwardness seemed to be contagious.

“Just thought I’d go to the shops or something,” she shrugged.

“Oh right” They had gone to the shops yesterday, so was that just an excuse to get away from Yulia?

“I was just gonna go for a few hours, grab a few bits and come back” she said excusing herself further.

“Oh, ok then, see you later then I guess” Yulia felt hurt, why was Lena being so off with her?

“What you gonna do?” Lena said as an after thought seeing the hurt expression on Yulia’s face at her exclusion, feeling bad for taking her own discomfort out on her.

“Just some stuff for work I think, I have a few designs in mind, could be good ” Yulia felt like she was talking to a stranger.

“Cool, I’ll see you later then” Lena said discontinuing the conversation and getting up to go into the bathroom.

“See you later” Yulia said with a wave of her hand.

Yulia was dumbfounded by the way Lena had just behaved, had Lena found out that she was in love with her? She was acting like she couldn’t bear to be around her. Had Roman said something about her to Lena?

Yulia’s mind was whirling with a whole host of scattered thoughts; she just hoped Lena was having a bad day. Oh well, she supposed she should get down to some work seeing as she wouldn’t be spending the day with Lena like she usually did. She would catch up with her later, Lena would be fine then she was sure, her imagination was simply working over time.

[iluvjulia84]

Omg this is so good! I canr wait for the next update :)

[guesshoo]

omg, the updates keep comin like an out of control tennis ball machine..............I LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!

awesome, just awesome vicky!

[amikana]

lol well vicky - i guess that answers my question about Roman - although at this point i'd rather he never ever came back! lol ;) :) great fic, though, really! it's awesome! :)

amikana

[vicky7]

Chapter 13 part 2


After dinner Lena sat down to relax in front of the television, flicking through the channels until she saw an advertisement announcing the start of a Buffy the Vampire Slayer episode. She loved Buffy so she decided to sit and watch it for a while, Yulia who had been busy with her design work at that moment came through to the lounge area with a bowl of snacks and sat next to Lena.

“What you watching?” Yulia enquired while munching away on her snacks.

“Nothing yet but Buffy the Vampire Slayer is on in a minute.” Lena informed her, still not quite able to act naturally around Yulia.

“I’ve never watched that before.” Yulia saw Lena shift towards her, her leg brushing against Yulia’s, it felt so right.

“You’ve never lived!” Lena exclaimed, warming to the conversation forgetting her previous awkwardness.

“So what’s it about?” Yulia pretended to be interested, relieved that Lena was speaking to her normally again.

“Vampires and Buffy who is the Vampire Slayer, the chosen one…” Lena said excitedly waving her hands around.

“Ok” Yulia wore a puzzled expression which made Lena laugh. She was so cute when she wore that expression that Lena just wanted to hug her.

Don’t worry, its easy to catch up with, so you gonna stay and watch?” she invited her.

“Yeah, why not?” Yulia smiled, happy that the frosty atmosphere had thawed between them and that Lena wanted to be around her once more.

The episode started and the title flashed up on the screen, it was called ‘New Moon Rising.’ After it had been on for a while Yulia started to ask questions, not quite sure what was happening. “What? So she went out with him?” Yulia pointed at the characters on the screen.

“Yeah, Willow went out with Oz” Lena said trying to explain quickly so that they didn’t miss any of the plot. She had seen this episode before but still loved to watch it uninterrupted but she could tell that Yulia was going to have difficulty in keeping quiet.

“So she went out with Oz and then he left and she was upset right?” she said continuing to probe Lena.

“Yeah”

“And then she became friends with that Tara girl?” She pointed at the blonde girl on the screen.

“Mmm” Lena responded.

“And now does she like Tara? Are they together or what?” Still more questions, Lena almost wished she were watching it alone.

“They kinda like each other but they have not done anything about it yet” Lena explained.

Oh so she is torn between them” Yulia finally got what was going on.

“Yeah”

“Ok understand now”

“It’s only took you like half an hour” Lena said sarcastically.

“I’m sorry but I’ve never seen it before sorry to be so much trouble to you” Yulia stuck out her bottom lip pretending to sulk.

Yulia was quiet until the episode had finished as she had seen that she had been irritating Lena with her questions. Lena decided to turn the tables there was something that she wanted to ask Yulia. “So do you think that could happen? That a girl could have a boyfriend, be utterly devastated when he leaves her and then fall in love with a girl?” She was curious to find out how Yulia felt about it.

“Lena, it is fiction not real life” Yulia said trying to take the heat off herself as this conversation could lead to her revealing too much about her sexuality and maybe even her feelings for Lena.

“But do you not think it could happen?” Lena wanted to know what Yulia thought having fantasised about her last night, would she be disgusted?

“No” Yulia replied monosyllabically.

“Why’s that?” Lena had opened a can of worms but she wanted to know what Yulia honestly thought.

“Well, you’re not straight and then whoa hello everybody I’ve decided to be gay!” she said flippantly, gesturing wildly.

“God I didn’t know you were homophobic” Lena accused her angrily. Why was she being so offhand about it, Lena was serious.

Yulia smiled to herself, if only Lena knew what she was hiding from her. “I’m just saying that things don’t work like that in real life”

“How do you know?” Lena pressed.

“’'Cos they don’t” Yulia replied stubbornly standing her ground. “Lena it’s not real they are just two straight actresses playing a part”

“Do you not think two people can fall in love regardless of their sex?” Lena refused to move from her moral high ground, she could understand it so why couldn’t Yulia? She should understand, she needed her to understand.

“People initially base who they choose to go out with on looks so you can’t say oh he has a good personality, she has a good personality, it doesn’t work like that because no one in all honestly bases their choice on personality alone” Yulia countered.

“I do!” Lena yelled, feeling she had to defend herself.

“Liar!” Yulia retorted. How could she say that when her boyfriend was a pr**k? “Are you telling me that you are going out with Roman because he’s Mr Personality?”

“Just leave Roman out of it!” Lena barked in her face.

“I just don’t get you, he treats you so badly, walks all over you and you go back for more every time!” Yulia was frustrated with Lena, was she blind? He was a complete and utter b**tard.

“Like I said leave it!” Lena knew she was on the verge of losing her self-control.

“I just want the best for you Lena, you deserve someone who will love you and be there for you when you need them” You need me Yulia told her silently wishing she could communicate this thought to the angry redhead in front of her.

“Look, I’m happy and it’s none of your business” Lena had stood up and had folded her arms defensively across her chest.

“All I can say is that he must be a good f**k because I can’t see what else he does for you” Yulia said cuttingly.

Lena was no longer able to restrain her fury, swinging her hand back and striking Yulia hard across the face causing her to reel back in pain. Yulia looked stunned raising a hand to her face trying to stroke away the searing heat on her left cheek. She had gone too far and she was regretful that she had seeming ruined her friendship with Lena. “I’ll…I’ll get out of your way” she stuttered retreating to the safety of her bedroom.

Lena hadn’t moved from the spot where she was standing, she couldn’t, she had just physically assaulted Yulia hitting her so hard that her hand was throbbed having marked Yulia’s face with the imprint of her fingers. Lena’s eyes filled with tears, what if she lost Yulia? Would she ever be able to forgive her?

[haku]

Very powerful chapter vicki7, great writing. :)

I knew this would happen, them fighting about Roman, and that's so sad. Roman wins, even when he's not there. Great description of the conflicting thoughts in both Yulia and Lena's minds, so many lies, to each other and themselves! And that's not a pretty side of Lena that is emerging right now, i thought she would be able to use words instead of violence (not to mention that she's 10kg heavier than Yulia).

[guesshoo]

oh man, they had a fight.
damn that sux!

even though he hasn't done anything, i still want roman to be shot! he just messess up everything!


nice work vicky.

[iluvjulia84]

All i can say is WOW! This is soooo damn good.


Hey guesshoo i love ur avatar, Aaliyah was, and still is, very beautiful.

[guesshoo]

Originally posted by iluvjulia84
All i can say is WOW! This is soooo damn good.


Hey guesshoo i love ur avatar, Aaliyah was, and still is, very beautiful.


thanx, i love it too.
but special thanx to homegirl in my siggy, w/o her it wouldn't be possible. :D

[dare2dream28]

Damn this is one heck of a story! I've been waiting for this to happen...them arguing over Roman, but I'm glad Yulia finally said it. I love how you describe the little things between the girls to show how they are moving along--whether it's forward or backwards (as in the case of the slap, but still, you give us a realistic indication of what they are feeling). Can't wait for the next update!

[vicky7]

here's the first part of chapter 14 for you all. Enjoy!

Chapter 14 – Making Amends

Yulia threw herself down on her bed burying her face under a pillow. Her cheek was stinging, she could feel it beginning to swell and her body shook as tears sprang from her eyes. Why had she got so angry with Lena? She wanted Lena but at the same time she had to accept that the only thing she could have from her was friendship. It hurt knowing that she would never get to lavish her affection on Lena, to show her what real love was. Maybe that was the problem. Her ego wouldn’t allow her to accept she didn’t have a chance with Lena.

Why Yulia didn’t know but sometimes when Lena looked at her or touched her, the gazes seemed to linger longer than they should have and the touches were often so tender. Now she was in no doubt she had imagined it all and that Lena just was ultra tactile with people in general, Yulia wasn’t a special case at all as much as it pained her.

When Yulia thought about it, she knew that she had been very wrong to say those things about Roman to Lena but she hadn’t been able to stop herself. She hated the guy. There was something about him that just gave her the creeps. She had only met him twice but the way he looked at Yulia and seemed to view her as a rival for Lena’s attention was strange especially the way he treated Lena. Yulia had seen the way Lena would often get ready to go out with Roman only to receive a phone call at the last minute which would enviably lead to her changing back into her casual clothes and spending the time with Yulia.

Not that Yulia was complaining about the fact that Roman standing Lena up meant she got to spend more time with Lena, not at all. She loved being with her even if they were just slumming around in front of the television, going shopping or cooking dinner together. Lena was so special to her, very different from herself but completely fascinating. Now she had seen another side of her, a violent Lena. The slap itself had hurt but Yulia was more worried what affect the argument might have on their friendship, was this the end?

Yulia had never seen Lena angry like that but she hadn’t just been livid about the Roman comments she had made, it went back to when they were watching that television show. Lena had really pushed her for her thoughts on whether a previously straight girl could fall for another girl. It was almost like Lena had wanted Yulia to start making a speech about gay rights or something, so while Lena had been pushing her to answer the question Yulia deflected it above all not wanted to expose herself.

Although, Yulia would have liked to answer that it could happen she didn’t believe it in her heart, it reminded her too much of what had happened with Anouska. Anouska had boyfriends before she had started to go out with Yulia including a long-term relationship with a boy who she admitted to Yulia she would have liked to marry as she had loved him that much. When Yulia thought of it that alone should have sent alarm bells off in her head as it was evident that her love hadn’t been enough for Anouska. Yulia still felt bitter about it after all this time and here she was again falling for a straight girl. Why would she never learn?

She wanted to go out into the lounge and talk to Lena but she didn’t want to have to face her again if she was still so angry, that would only make things worse. Yulia buried her head further under the pillow, she just wanted Lena to come and give her a hug and tell her it was all going to be ok, that their argument was just silly and that she still wanted to be friends. Yulia didn’t notice the bedroom door creak open…

[WhoCares]

Whoa!! Major cliffhanger! Now I'm being driven crazy waiting for what happens next! Awesome chapter!:)

[guesshoo]

no no no!!!!!
please don't leave us like this!
please vicky, i promise i'll be a good girl. :lady: .........:)

[iluvjulia84]

Nooooooooo! That was so wrong of u to leave it there lol.

[amikana]

ARGH!!!! damn the suspense!!!
you're killing me vicky!! :)

(and i'm loving it)

amikana :)

[prostrel]

VERY GOOD Vicky7, very good cliffhanger! Curiosity killed the cat :) I`m suffering here a big time hoping that you really soon update more!

[parrish122]

Good stuff Vicky!

Way to keep us on the edges of our seats! :D

Parrish

[vicky7]

Chapter 14 (part 2)

Lena didn’t know what to do. She had slapped Yulia hard and now wanted nothing more in the world than to be able to take it back but of course there was no way. She knew why she had lashed out at Yulia, it was not because she had been bad-mouthing Roman it was because she had mentioned Lena’s sex life. Yulia had hit a raw nerve, which had enviably led to her snapping like she had done. To think Yulia thought that Lena and Roman had good sex. Lena had climaxed once with that only occurring because she had fantasised about Yulia.

Lena was disgusted with herself, Yulia’s face had looked so sore and she had looked beyond shock. Lena knew she was totally out of order from the second her hand had connected with Yulia’s cheek and she desperately wanted to apologise. She couldn’t take back what she had done but she would do anything she could to make up for it.

After much deliberation Lena decided to be brave and go to see Yulia in her room. There was a good chance Yulia would be angry now, not want to see her and perhaps even want to hit back at Lena but she was prepared to take the risk, she had to let Yulia know how sorry she was.

Lena chose not to knock as it would have been too easy for Yulia to turn her away and as she stood there outside the bedroom door she could hear Yulia crying softly and she felt like a total bitch. Every other time she had heard Yulia crying she had gone to her to try to solve the problem for her but the big difference now was that Lena was the problem.

As Lena quietly pushed the door back she could see Yulia lying face down on her bed with her head under the pillows. As she stepped closer she could see that Yulia’s neck and ears were flushed pink like they always did when she was upset or embarrassed and her breathing was ragged through the non stop sobbing she had been doing.

Lena felt thoroughly ashamed of herself for about the hundredth time that minute for reducing her friend to a weeping wreck and she didn’t quite know what to do. Yulia hadn’t even noticed her enter the room so Lena eventually opted to sit at the side of Yulia and lightly patted her back.

“Hey” she whispered. Yulia moved slightly pushing the pillow off her head and turning on her side to face Lena, she didn’t say a word; she just looked surprised to see Lena. “Yul, before you say anything just let me tell you how sorry I am. I don’t know what happened, I just lost it, I’m so sorry.” Yulia studied Lena’s face, it was tear stained like her own, her eyes narrowed pleading anxiously with Yulia for forgiveness.

Yulia stared intensely at Lena watching her closely before finding her voice. “Lena, it’s ok. It’s my fault. I shouldn’t have said what I did, it was wrong of me. I was down right evil so I don’t blame you for hitting me, I just hope you can forgive me”

Lena looked into Yulia’s big hopeful eyes. Bless her she thought, she was blaming herself. Lena reached out and ruffled Yulia’s spiky hair. “Hey, there’s nothing to forgive as far as I am concerned, I just feel really sh**ty about hurting you. Is your face sore?” she asked tentatively.

“No not really” Yulia lied, she didn’t want Lena to feel bad even though her face was still really aching.

Lena reached out and delicately fingered her cheek at which point Yulia flinched away slightly. “Hey there’s no need to be scared of me” Lena frowned hating the fact that Yulia had pulled away from her touch.

“No, I’m not, it’s just a little tender that’s all” Yulia finally admitted honestly.

“So it is hurting?” Lena once again anxiously looked into Yulia’s eyes.

“Well..er” Yulia stumbled.

“Yulia” Lena said, demanding an honest answer through the intonation of her voice.

“A little” Yulia at last conceded.

“Wait here and I’ll just get some cream.”

“No it’s ok honestly.”

“I’ll only be a minute” True to her word Lena soon reappeared with a large pot of cream in hand. “This will soothe it” Lena said pointing to the cream. She meticulously put some of it onto the tips of her fingers started to rub it into Yulia’s cheek using slow circular motions that Yulia found so incredibly relaxing that she could have closed her eyes and fallen to sleep.

A few short minutes later and Lena finished. “Does that feel any better?” she enquired still looking concerned.

“Yeah, much” Yulia smiled sweetly happy in the knowledge that everything was going to go back to normal.

“Can I have a hug then?” Lena asked hopefully.

“Of course you can come here” Yulia was delighted now she had her Lena back, even if it was just as her friend.

Lena lay down next to Yulia on the bed and wrapped her arms around Yulia’s tiny waist. Yulia in contrast wrapped her own arms around Lena’s neck nestling her face in Lena’s soft curls utterly relieved they had made up. Lena eventually drew back a little looking deeply into Yulia’s eyes. “You know you’re my best friend don’t you Yul?”

“Am I?” Yulia questioned, once more wide eyed.

“Yes, of course you are, you mean so much to me, I love you” Lena said kissing Yulia on the forehead.

“You’re my best friend too Lena, I… I don’t know what I’d do without you” Yulia couldn’t bring herself to use the L word, she did love Lena but not in a way that Lena would care to know about she was sure.

[prostrel]

Oooo... They are quite close to each other now... :D

[warx]

hmmm...too close...is that a good thing...hehehe:D

[haku]

Awww, come on Yulia, do something, a little peck on the lips! She won't pull back, she's feeling sorry for beating you. :)


(I know i shouldn't talk directly to Y&L in my posts but i do that sometimes, i can't help it... :rolleyes: )

[vicky7]

Chapter 15 - Tanya

Lena looked at her watch and felt slightly nervous, her old friend Tanya from University was due to arrive in ten minutes. Lena hadn’t seen her for two years before they had bumped into each other a few days ago in the local supermarket of all places. Tanya had recently moved to Moscow from St Petersburg and had been transferred to a practice just a few blocks away from Lena’s.

In order to catch up with one another Lena had invited Tanya round to the apartment for a few drinks because she was sick of cooking dinner for her guests all the time. She figured they could always get a take away if they got hungry later. Also for as long as she had known Tanya she had always preferred to cut to the chase and hit the bottle at the first opportunity, food was a poor second for her.

Yulia wasn’t home for another hour or so as she was working late so Lena and Tanya would have plenty of time to gossip before she got home. Not that Lena didn’t want Yulia to meet Tanya because she did but she just didn’t want Yulia to feel left out as they would obviously be reminiscing about their time at Uni together and talking about their old classmates. She was pretty certain they would get along as they were both lively, outspoken individuals who could hold their drink unlike Lena.

The doorbell rang and Lena opened the door to see a smiling Tanya with a large bottle of vodka in hand. “Hiya! Thought I’d bring supplies!”

“Oh god, you trying to get me drunk?” Lena smiled back already glad to see Tanya, she hadn’t changed. Tanya was as pretty as ever, about three inches taller than Lena, curvy and attractive with sparkling green eyes and an infectious smile.

“Well, let’s face it, it doesn’t take much does it? Tanya retorted smirking at Lena

“You cheeky monkey!” Lena chided, it was a running joke about her inability to drink. It only took a couple of drinks and she would be wasted.

They chatted for ages about work and what they had been up to since University until Tanya noticed some of Yulia’s things hanging about the apartment. “So, Lena, who’s this girl you’re living with? I take it they’re not yours, not really your style” Tanya stated pointing to the small yellow trainers in the corner of the room.

“Oh they are Yulia’s, we met a while back, became friends, she needed a place to stay for a while and she’s never left because basically we get on so well. I thought I’d love living alone after being at home but it’s much nicer to have someone to come home to. Yulia’s such good company and a fabulous cook!” Lena gushed.

“I wish I had someone to come home to. I really miss Nina at times. She was so amazing in bed! Tanya looked wistful for a second before perking up. “ But then again she was an absolute bitch! Actually come to think about it I’m glad I’m alone!”

“So there’s no one on the scene then?”

“No, but you know me Lena, I’m open to offers” she said, raising an eyebrow flirtatiously.

“Hey, I’m taken remember!” Lena laughed; Tanya always had a smart comment.

“Damn, I forgot!” she scolded herself playfully. “So Mr Wonderful then, Roman right?”

“Yeah, Roman Popov, he’s great but he works away a lot”

“Still you get to shag him then send him off on his travels. It’s much better when you barely have to see them Lena” Tanya said glibly.

“Ahh, no, I miss him y’know” Lena said softly, smiling sadly.

Bang! The front door crashed shut - Yulia was home. The Volkova whirlwind had landed and it didn’t sound like she’d had a good day.

Yulia bobbed her head around the door. “Hi” she said with a forced smile on her face. Yes, she’s had a shit day Lena thought, she could read Yulia so well.

“Yulia, this is Tanya, Tanya this is Yulia” They both exchanged pleasantries and Yulia excused herself to go and change. When Yulia had left the room Tanya nudged Lena.

“Hey, why didn’t you tell me your roomie was gorgeous?” Tanya was obviously intrigued about Yulia.

“Yes, she is gorgeous but she’s not really your type is she?” Lena said trying to put off Tanya. When Tanya pursued a woman she was pretty good at getting what she wanted, not that Lena thought Yulia would be interested of course.

“Well, if she’s gay, I’m game! She’s a goer for sure!” Tanya said excitedly clapping her hands together.

“I don’t think so Tanya” Why did Tanya think Yulia was gay? She was going to be very disappointed when she found out she wasn’t.

“Why is she seeing someone? ”

“No, but…” Lena was going to tell her Yulia wasn’t gay but Tanya interrupted.

“Well, that’s settled then, Tanya and Yulia sitting in a tree k-i-s-s-i-n-g” Tanya sang loudly.

“Shut up! She might hear you” Lena interjected trying to hush her up. “Anyway, what makes you think she’s gay?”

“Honey, my gaydar is legendary, she’s soo gay, trust me” Tanya drawled, normally Lena would find it funny but not when is concerned Yulia, she felt very protective of her little friend.

As if on cue Yulia momentarily came back into the room, dressed in a white vest and black men’s boxers, her hair wet from the shower and slicked down. “So, where’s the vodka?” she grinned at Lena, evidently in an altogether better mood. Lena looked from Yulia to Tanya who had lust in her eyes.

“It’s in the kitchen Yul and there’s some dinner in the fridge if you want it” Lena thought it was a bad idea for Yulia to start drinking on an empty stomach especially when Tanya was around to pounce on her when she least expected it.

“Cool, thanks, be right back”

“Told ya, she’s g-a-y. She’s such a little boy! I love andro girls they’re the best lays, top of the range sushi!” Tanya said crudely.

“Euch, that’s disgusting. I’ll never look at sushi the same way again.” Lena said wrinkling her nose. “And what you saying about Yulia being an android girl? What’s that supposed to mean, is it some funny gay talk?”

“Oh nooo, Katina, not android, androgynous! Wanna go look it up in the dictionary?” Tanya teased. Lena shook her head Tanya was such a case. She just hoped she wouldn’t p**s Yulia off too much.

[samegirl]

This is so unexpected! teh last thing i imagined was some girl liking yulia! I mean...competition? What's going to happen now?
mmmm i don't like this tanya chick!

Haku you have to talk to lena!!! :spy: I mean, you are the only person i know by now who speaks to them in the forum...So..give her some advice!

[guesshoo]

competition?
nice!

[haku]

Haku you have to talk to lena!!!
Ha ha, unfortunately she never listens to me! :D

Looks like soon it's Lena who's going to hear moans coming from the next room. :p

[samegirl]

Originally posted by haku

Looks like soon it's Lena who's going to hear moans coming from the next room. :p

Don't like that...:dknow:
but who knows? this is going to be interesting! cheers to vicky7!

[prostrel]

A bottle of vodka and competition, sounds always good to me :D
But competition of what? Lena already has won the first prize: Julia`s heart. But Lena don`t know it yet,and she doesn`t know yet that she wants that heard... so yeah, maybe there will be a competition. Hoping, hoping.... And maybe this competition will open Lena`s eyes. :p

Awesome work vicky7!!!!

[samegirl]

this is going to be painful fun, But you know maybe because julia doesn't know about lena's feeling she'll like tanya...This whole move on thing, go on with your life bla bla bla...
O maybe this tanya girl becomes in something like a stalker and julia will be sick of her or something like that...It would be interesting...
I want to see what happens next!

[vicky7]

Chapter 15 part 2

Before long the girls had all drained their vodkas “Hey, are you guys ready for a top up?” Lena asked already slurring her words slightly. Tanya and Yulia nodded, downing the last of their drinks and holding out their glasses to Lena.

“I won’t be long, I’m gonna go to the bathroom first”

“Ok go nuts but no being sick though.” Tanya chided waving her finger at Lena with a mischievous glint in her eye.

“No I won’t be sick, I’m fine!” Lena got to her feet unsteadily, struggling to carry the three empty glasses.

As soon as Lena had left the room Tanya turned to Yulia. “Bet she’ll be sick later she can’t handle her drink.”

“I’ve noticed! Bless her, one more and she’ll be ready for bed!” Yulia chuckled remembering the last time Lena had got drunk.

“You known Lena long?” Tanya asked raking a hand through her long blonde hair.

“Er, about six or seven months now. Unbelievable really, it’s doesn’t seems that long since we met but at the same time I feel like I’ve known her forever” Yulia said looking deep in thought with a slight smile on her face.

“But would I be right in guessing you haven’t told Lena you’re gay yet?” Tanya asked candidly.
Yulia was stunned, if this crazy girl really thought that Yulia was going to say “Yes Tanya I’m gay I’ve had a girlfriend before and I love Lena”, then she was stupid. Yulia would deny it until the day she died before she would admit it to this girl or anyone else in fact, she couldn’t lose Lena.

Yulia tried to look surprised “What the hell are you talking about?”

“You being gay” Tanya reaffirmed.

“I admit I’ve been with a girl or two but I like guys too so I wouldn’t call myself gay.” The words tumbled out of Yulia’s mouth and she barely paused for breath. She had to get this girl off her back and convince her that she wasn’t gay. She knew Tanya could ruin everything.

“Well, you’re obviously in denial” Tanya blurted out.

“Just leave it ok!” Yulia warned.

“I could show you a good time Yulia” Tanya decided to change tact because the fact was she didn’t really care if Lena knew about Yulia’s sexuality or not it didn’t have anything to do with her that was Yulia’s choice. However, she would absolutely love to bed Yulia who with her hot little body, sexy blue eyes and that gorgeous smile was mesmerising Tanya to the point where she couldn’t taker her eyes off her.

“ I just wanna be alone Tanya, my life is good the way it is” Yulia replied. She found Tanya attractive and although her body told her she was well overdue for some fun in the bedroom, her heart wouldn’t settle for anyone but Lena.

“What? Just going to work and coming home and spending all your time with Lena…” Tanya paused mid sentence the penny had dropped; Yulia was in love with Lena. “Oh, you love Lena.” Tanya almost felt as shocked as Yulia looked.

Yulia was horrified, her eyes widened in disbelief as she tried to deny it “What the hell you talkin’ about?”

“You love Lena, its so obvious, this whole set up is so coupley and you’re both too stupid to see you’re already a couple” Tanya said analysing their situation.

They heard Lena’s footsteps approach the living room and firmly shut up.

“You guys are quiet, what’s up?” Lena looked at them, her eyes beginning to glaze over as the drink began to take effect.

“Nothing” they said in unison, raising Lena’s suspicions. Tanya had obviously just hit on Yulia and got knocked back. It came as a huge relief to Lena for some unknown reason.

[samegirl]

yeah...i was right! :p

[amikana]

yay! now we just need for lena to catch on....

lol great work vicky!

amikana :D

[dare2dream28]

Wow Vicky!!! This is so freakin good!! I am lovin' this story!!! :D Now only to see what happens next between the trio!!! Can't wait for the next update! :)

[prostrel]

This Tanya is a good thing. She can help Julia and Lena "to put their cups to the right places". :D

[vicky7]

Chapter 15 part 3

Lena clumsily placed the drinks down on the coffee table reseating herself next to Yulia and promptly started to hiccup. “Lena you ok?” Yulia asked concerned moving closer to her and beginning to pat her on the back.

“Mmm, yeah fine” Lena said between hiccups.

“She’s pissed!” Tanya announced rolling her eyes.

“Nooo I’m not!” Lena argued back.

“Ok, if you say so Lenie” Tanya giggled at Lena as she tried in vain to convince them of her soberness; she was failing miserably.

Lena realising that she wasn’t fooling Tanya turned her attention to Yulia. “Oh I can see your tattoo Yul, I’ve never seen it properly before.” She said pointing at the tattoo that was visible on her upper back.

“Oh this one?” Yulia pulled the back of her vest down to reveal one of her tattoos.

“To be fair Lena she’d have to be naked for you to see that one properly!” Tanya interjected trying to join in the conversation. “Care to strip Yulia?” Tanya asked teasingly, to which Yulia responded with a deadly glare.

Lena simply blushed ignoring Tanya, she could be so flirty sometimes, too flirty even. “Does it mean anything?” Lena continued to probe Yulia.

“No but the other one does” Yulia responded focusing her attention on Lena. Perhaps if she ignored Tanya she would leave her alone.

“Which one? I didn’t know there was another one!”

“Yeah on my lower back,” Yulia pulled her shorts down slightly to reveal a tattoo that appeared to be some kind of symbol. “See”

“Ahh that’s really cool” Lena put her hand on Yulia’s back and traced the tattoo with her index finger. “So what does it mean?” she said still staring at the symbol as though in a trance.

“It’s Arabic for love apparently” Yulia informed her distracted by Lena’s gentle caress.

“That’s really sweet, you’re branded with love hee hee.” Lena seemed to find it really amusing and Yulia received a look off Tanya that spoke volumes, basically telling her not to bother, to give up on Lena because she had no chance.

“I bet you’re really romantic aren’t you Yul when you are in love?” Lena questioned with love now her topic of conversation.

It was Yulia’s turn to blush. “Well, I have my moments”

Tanya just sat observing them, Yulia couldn’t have been any more blatant about her feelings for Lena it was obvious how she felt just by the way she looked at Lena so lovingly, the way she smiled the kind of smile that was only meant for a lover, someone you belong to heart, body and soul.

Tanya felt rather sad for Yulia just watching the pair interact, Lena was so blind to it all, she evidently couldn’t see the effect she had on Yulia just by touching her. Tanya didn’t doubt Lena’s motives it was clear that Yulia was very important to her and that she perhaps loved Yulia in a way but not as anything more than a friend.

However, watching Lena she could see how Yulia could get the wrong impression as Lena was never that affectionate with Tanya or any of her friends for that matter but then again Lena didn’t know Yulia was gay. Although, Lena wasn’t homophobic if she knew that Yulia was into girls Tanya was sure she would be less touchy feeling with her, she wouldn’t want to lead her on, not like she was doing now.

After a while Lena started to yawn after finishing her latest drink “I’m kinda tired” She then proceeded to rest her head on Yulia’s shoulder.

“I think I’m gonna go now guys” Tanya decided it was the right time to go before Lena fell asleep. “Maybe we could go out on Saturday night?”

“Yeah that would be cool I’d like that” Lena mumbled in her drunken stupor.

“Yeah it will be. You gonna come Yulia?” Tanya turned her attention to Yulia, she wanted to befriend her maybe she could help her get over Lena.

“Erm I don’t know I have a lot on at work at the moment” Yulia tried to excuse herself, she didn’t think it was a good idea to socialise with Tanya, being around another lesbian might increase the chances of her being outed to Lena.

“You not gonna work on a Saturday night! You’re coming!” Lena declared waking up from her stupor for a second.

“Ok, ok I’ll come” Yulia said defeated, if Lena wanted her to go so much who was she to argue.

“Anyway I’d better be going, nice meeting you Yulia” Tanya smiled warmly at her.

“Yeah likewise. I’ll show you out” Yulia was keen to talk to Tanya alone before she left.

Lena made to get up but Tanya stopped her “Lenie it’s alright you stay here, Yulia can show me out.”

“You sure?”

“Yeah I’ll call you”

“Ok speak to you soon bye” Lena said with a half wave slumping back down onto the sofa.

Yulia led the way to the door and was quiet until they were out of earshot. “Tanya, you won’t tell Lena about me will you?”

“No, don’t worry, I won’t. It’s none of my business what you tell Lena that’s up to you” Tanya said sincerely.

“Thanks it’s appreciated” Yulia smiled, warming to Tanya now she knew she could trust her.

“Here’s my number” Tanya said pulling out a business card “If you ever wanna talk or something just give me a call”

“Thanks” Yulia took the card off Tanya and their fingers brushed slightly. Tanya was definitely extremely attractive Yulia couldn’t help but think to herself.

“Well bye Yulia”

“Yeah bye Tanya, see you on Saturday” Yulia felt nothing but relieved, Tanya seemed to understand and it made her feel that much better.

Yulia returned to the lounge to find Lena practically asleep on the sofa “Lena”

“Mmmm” Lena moved slightly but her eyes remained closed.

“Time to go to bed”

“What?” Lena mumbled again.

“Come on bedtime!” Yulia ordered authoritatively.

“Ok” Lena didn’t protest but she couldn’t seem to get up.

Yulia helped Lena to get up and noted that she was kind of shaky on her legs “Want me to help you to your room” she offered.

“Please”

Yulia wrapped an arm around Lena and practically carried her to her bedroom, her eyes were only half open and Yulia opted to sit her on her bed.

“There you go” Yulia said releasing Lena from her grip “You gonna be alright now?”

“Yeah! You’re so good to me Yul. Thank you” Lena leaned over and sweetly pecked Yulia on the lips.

“Er no problem” Yulia said not quite comprehending what had just happened. Had Lena just kissed her on the mouth?

“Are you sure you’re going to be ok?” Yulia questioned Lena once more to which Lena merely responded with a nod.

“Good night Yulia”

“Night Lena” As Yulia got outside Lena’s bedroom door and shut it behind her she put her fingers to her lips where Lena’s lips had been just seconds ago and then licked them broodingly, tasting Lena’s strawberry lip balm. If only she could have kissed her back. Oh God! This was really killing her!

[guesshoo]

i like this tanya chick. :done:

[amikana]

ooh!!! a kiss! a drunken kiss, yes but.....yay!!!! lol

this is such a great story :D:D:D

amikana

[parrish122]

Wow! *Great* two chapters!

I'm loving this story. :)

Parrish

[haku]

you’re both too stupid to see
Ha ha, i really like this Tanya actually.

[prostrel]

Ooooh, so sweet, a little peck on the lips! Vicky, this is great, you don`t hurry things too much! You know how to keep us in suspense and you know how to get us to writhe with pain of waiting, of guessing and hoping. :D

[xena225]

Lovely update. Amazing story. Thanks, vicky7! :rose:

Hopefully Tanya will keep her hands to herself, or she will be the second most hated character in this fiction, right after Roman. :) On a more positive note: Maybe she'll help Yulia to forget about her fears of telling Lena she's gay, and she could also help Lena open her eyes to her true feelings... We wait with bated breath. :)

xena225

[vicky7]

Chapter 16 – Double Dating (part 1)

Lena woke up with a raging hangover, so much so that she could barely open her eyes. When she finally managed to prise them open the sun shining into her bedroom made her groan; she had forgotten to close her curtains the previous night. She shouldn’t have even bothered to attempt to keep up with Tanya and Yulia, they were both such good drinkers. It was after her fifth or sixth vodka that she had lost track of the events of the evening. She couldn’t remember Tanya leaving and how she got to bed she just didn’t know but no doubt Yulia would fill her in on all the details.

Lena could hear Yulia in the kitchen singing happily to herself, cooking what smelt like a fry up. Half of Lena fancied some breakfast but the other half thought she shouldn’t even try to eat because it would only make her sick.

At that moment Yulia shouted through to her “LENA, BREAKFAST!”

“Ohhh, do you have to shout?” Lena moaned putting her hands to her head.

“SORRY!” Yulia grinned impishly at Lena as she poked her head around the bedroom door.

“I said don’t shout ok?” Lena whined.

“Do you want some breakfast? I saved you some” Yulia asked in a virtual whisper.

“I don’t know if I can get up” Lena continued to whinge but Yulia couldn’t help but smile; considering how rough Lena was she still found her incredibly beautiful.

“I’ll bring it to you ok?” Yulia offered kindly.

“Thanks” Lena said attempting to smile, Yulia was so good to her.

***

Yulia burst in through the bedroom door with a tray full with a plate of bacon and eggs, two slices of toast, a glass of orange juice and a cup of tea. Lena was very grateful for it, she couldn’t have gotten up and sorted it out herself she would have been nauseous cooking all that for herself.

“So are you feeling bad this morning?” Yulia asked already knowing the answer.

“The worst ever!” Lena complained.

“You weren’t in the best state last night it has to be said” Yulia smiled wryly.

“I can’t even remember Tanya going home and…I can’t remember going to bed” Lena said looking thoughtful, no she couldn’t remember going to bed.

“You nearly fell asleep out on the sofa but I got you up and brought you in here” Yulia filled in the blanks for Lena though she completely omitted the part where Lena had kissed her. It had only been a peck, a quick kiss on the mouth but Yulia had savoured it and had lovely dreams about Lena last night.

“Was I embarrassing?” Lena asked looking unsure of herself.

“No you were just drunk. Do you remember that we are going out with Tanya on Saturday night?” Yulia skilfully changed the subject.

“No” Lena said confusion now evident on her features.

“Yeah she asked us if we wanted to go out next Saturday night and we said yes” Yulia once again filled in for her.

“That should be fun” Lena smiled but it faded promptly as she recalled another thing that had happened. “I’m remembering something else now.”

Yulia cringed inwardly, had Lena remembered the kiss? “What’s that?”

“Did Tanya hit on you?” Lena enquired.

“Errm, slightly” Yulia didn’t want to make a big deal out of it especially if it would bring her own sexuality into question.

“I’ll take that as yes then” Lena looked slightly distant and Yulia found it difficult to read her expression.

“Only a little. I just figured she was kinda flirty anyway”

“Oh yeah she is but she liked you” Lena said continuing to eat her breakfast.

“What can I say? I’m gorgeous!” Yulia light-heartedly struck a pose pouting at Lena.

“I know! I don’t know how she could control herself last night, I mean you’re just so damn cute!” Lena got into the spirit of things pinching Yulia cheeks playfully revived at last by her breakfast.

“Oh get off!” Yulia reprimanded Lena her cheeks now reddening with embarrassment. Thankfully Lena didn’t notice her awkwardness as she was saved by the sound of the phone ringing in the living room and she ran out to get it. “Hello!”

“Hello can I speak to Elena?” A male voice on the other end of the phone demanded.

“Who is it please?” Yulia knew who it was but she wasn’t going to acknowledge him.

“It’s Roman” he replied flatly.

“Ok I’ll just pass her the phone” Yulia went back to Lena’s bedroom and held out the phone to her. “Lena, it’s Roman”

“Oh right thanks” Lena didn’t really want to speak to Roman right now as he would no doubt go on at her when she told him she had a hangover. “Hellooo”

“Hello, you ok?” A concerned sounding Roman asked.

“Umm,” Lena started “A little hung over, I had a few drinks with the girls last night” she decided to answer truthfully.

“Elena what have I told you about drinking? I don’t know why you bother you should just quit while you’re ahead.” Roman bellowed.

“I get the picture! There’s no need to nag, we can’t all be perfect like you!” Lena responded somewhat irritated; like he never went out and got drunk.

“Well that true.” He laughed conceitedly. “Anyway I’m just calling because I have a business deal I have to close and I want to take him out for dinner and I need you to come along and bring a friend for him.”

“Why do I have to come?” Lena asked bluntly.

“It just makes it more social, I’d be very grateful” Roman put on his most charming tone of voice.

“I don’t know if I want to get involved with your work” Lena answered honestly.

“I’m surprised at you Elena I thought you would be more supportive!” Roman snapped.

“I am supportive but..”

“Please!” Roman pleaded.

“Ok, ok,” Lena conceded not wanting an argument “So when is this dinner thing?”

“Ciros, Wednesday night at eight”

“Italian, my favourite” Lena perked up, she loved going to Ciros.

“So you’ll get a friend to come along?”

“Yeah I’ll try to drag Yulia if that’s ok?” Lena knew Roman and Yulia didn’t get along very well but if she was going to have to go and sit in on Roman’s business dinner she wanted Yulia there to relieve her boredom.

“Yes that’s fine. Just tell her to be on her best behaviour, this is a very important deal.” Roman forewarned.

“Ok then I will go and talk to her now and speak to you soon to arrange plans” Lena wanted to ask Yulia to the dinner as soon as possible, she knew she would take some convincing before she would actually agree to come but Lena was prepared to beg.

***

Lena stumbled out of her bedroom and into the lounge where Yulia was drawing frantically on a large notepad. “You busy?”

“A bit, we have this big fashion show coming up at work in a few weeks, we’ve got loads of designs for it but a few extra wouldn’t hurt” Yulia said barely looking up from her sketch at Lena.

“Sorry to bug you but would you like to do me a big, big, big, big favour?” Lena made big eyes at Yulia and smiled extra sweetly.

“It depends! What it is?” Yulia asked suspiciously.

“Come out on a double date with me on Wednesday?” Lena invited her hopefully.

“What? You, me, Roman and…..?” Yulia waited for Lena to inform her.

“This guy he’s trying to do a deal with, Roman’s asked me to bring a friend along for him”

“Lena do I have to?” Yulia grimaced.

“Well I have to” Lena pouted childishly.

“But Roman’s your boyfriend!”

“Oh but, but… please Yul it will be soo boring! At least if you come I’ll have someone to talk to and you never know he might be a bit tasty” Lena said winking at her. “You could do with a man that way we could go out on double dates all the time.”

“ I dunno Lena.” It sounded like Yulia’s idea of hell but she would have to pretend to at least consider it “Mmm”

“Please Yuliaaa” Lena enunciated “I don’t want to go on my own” Lena stuck out her bottom lip, which always got Yulia, Lena was beginning to get her own way with her as usual.

“Can’t you get someone else to go with you?” Yulia attempted to excuse herself once more.

“But I can’t think of anyone else I’d rather be there with me. I know if you’re there I’ll have fun.” Lena answered persuasively. “And if the guy’s a dog we can just leave in disgust” she chuckled.

“Well if you put it that way, go on then you’re twisted my arm!” Yulia gave up she might have known she would.

“Oh you’re a star! I could just kiss you right now!” Lena shrieked happily, Yulia simply smiled.

[parrish122]

Oh wow....that's a twist I didn't see coming.

Should be interesting to see where this goes. :)

Parrish

[haku]

Ha ha, that Roman is not subtle. Knowing him, he'll probably tell the guy that Yulia will sleep with him. I'm sure Roman would even consider pimping his own girlfriend to close a deal. Sad thing is that Lena is so letting him walk all over her that she'd probably accept to do it if he begged enough for it.
And of course he probably has over a dozen female friends he could have asked to go to the date, but he can't let them meet his girlfriend because he slept with all of them! :none:

[guesshoo]

a double date huh?

i hope roman doesn't say any nasty comments to yuli at this dinner, cuz i would hate to see her kick his a$$.................oh no i won't. :bebebe: :D

nice chapters vicky.

[prostrel]

Aaah, can`t wait that dinner! I`m hungry to read more! Good work Vicky7! :done:

[vicky7]

Chapter 16 part 2

“Lena you ready?” Yulia asked impatiently.

“Just about” Lena said fixing her dress while eyeing herself critically in the full length mirror in her bedroom.

“I don’t wanna go!” Yulia moaned. She had been waiting around for Lena for about half an hour now and just wanted to get the dinner over with so they could come back.

Yulia had only taken about fifteen minutes to get ready opting to wear a pair of black trousers and a black strappy vest top with a white shirt worn open over it. Nothing too sexy as she didn’t want to give her date for the evening any ideas, if he even dared to hit on her she would have to put him in his place and she didn’t want it to have to come to that.

“I don’t want to go either. Why do you think I’m driving? At least this way we can make a quick getaway if it’s really bad” Lena tried to appease Yulia.

Yulia looked deep in thought for a moment. “We should have come up with a code shouldn’t we?”

Lena worn a confused expression, “Code?” she asked.

“You know like if I want to go I’ll just say I don’t feel well and then you’d be like oh really Yulia I’ll have to drive you home then and then we go, simple!” Yulia chirped, happy with her escape plan, she had a feeling they were going to need to use it.

“Yeah we could do that.” Lena agreed.

“Is the reservation for 8 O’clock?” Yulia asked looking at her watch.

“Yeah so we’d better get a move on” Lena said grabbing her coat and car keys.

“Well you’re the one keeping me waiting missy!” Yulia grinned, “Ohh I’m dreading this!” she groaned following Lena out of the apartment and down to the car.

“You never know it might be love at first sight!” Lena said optimistically while unlocking her car.

Yulia climbed into the car, “Doubt it, it’s definitely a good idea to drive! I’m actually thinking about getting a car.” Yulia said changing the subject.

Lena looked surprised. “Really? I didn’t know you could drive”

“Yeah I can drive alright, just wait until I get my car and I’ll drive you about in style”

“I dread to think” Lena rolled her eyes.

“I’m great at driving!” Yulia exclaimed “Honest!”

“I’m sure you are sweetie.” Lena laughed.
***

They arrived at the restaurant about twenty minutes later and as Roman and his dinner guest hadn’t arrived yet Lena and Yulia were shown to their table and ordered drinks while they waited. They both finished their first drinks and there was still no sign of them, time was getting on, it was 8.45pm already and they hadn’t even ordered their starters.

“Where are they?” Yulia exclaimed tapping her fingers on her second empty glass of wine with irritation written all over her beautiful face. “I mean we don’t even want to be here, they are seriously taking the p**s now!” she grumbled on.

“Ahh, there’s Roman” Lena said standing up to wave at Roman who waved back and headed to their table, he was accompanied by a podgy, greying man who was in his late thirties at the very least.

Lena and Yulia shared a look. “Is he serious? That’s my date?” Yulia questioned Lena.

“I know what you mean he’s not the best.” Lena said tactfully wanting to calm the increasingly irate Yulia.

“He looks like he’s been dug up!” Yulia said failing to hide her disgust.

“He’s not that bad” Lena lied.

“I’ve never seen anyone look that grey! I suppose he’d look alright on a black and white tv but jeeez” Yulia bellowed down her ear.

“Shhh, stop it, you’re making me laugh” Lena said trying to suppress her giggles as Roman and Yulia’s ‘date’ finally got to their table.

“Hello girls” Roman acknowledged.

“Hello” Lena and Yulia said flatly in unison, both feeling like it was going to be a long night.

“Elena, Yulia this is Milan Stepanov” Roman introduced them.

“Hello, pleased to meet you both” Milan smiled goofily at them both, first shaking Lena hand before moving on to Yulia. When he shook her hand Yulia couldn’t believe how weak his handshake was and now her own hand felt all wet and slimy due to the contact it had made with his cold and clammy hand. When he sat down opposite her she slyly wiped her hand on the napkin trying to make her hand feel clean again.

They all studied their menus and the waitress came over to take their orders. The starters arrived quickly and Yulia was temporarily relieved to be distracted by food, she was so hungry and the three glasses of wine were taking effect because she had eaten so little in the day.

However, her appetite diminished quickly as she witnessed Milan slurping his soup, and chomping loudly on a buttered bread roll. He managing to get crumbs all around his mouth and had already clumsily dipped his tie in his tomato and basil soup twice. When he had finished eating and wiped the soup around his mouth onto the back of his sleeve he noticed Yulia looking at him in disbelief and winked at her. Yulia promptly looked away but could see that he was still studying her with his beady black eyes, looking her up and down, attempting to peer down her top.

After a while he turned to talk to Roman and Lena and Yulia look at each other communicating silently, Lena looked as miserable as Yulia felt.

“Fashion designer huh?” Milan said smiling at Yulia.

“Yes” Yulia replied simply.

“Are all designers as sexy as you?” Milan flirted running his foot up her leg while eyeing her lustfully the whole time. His foot travelled higher and higher until it reached her groin area and then went even higher. Yulia was incensed, what the f**k did he think he was doing? She kicked out booting him hard in his genital area.

Roman and Lena who were chatting avidly at the time did not noticing the commotion to the side of them until Milan yelled out in pain. “Arggghhh s**t!”

“What’s the matter Milan?” Roman asked.

“Nothing, nothing” he said through gritted teeth his face red and his eyes watering.

Yulia just staring at him coolly showing no emotion, “Lena I’m going to the toilet” she said turning to Lena, hoping she would realise that she wanted her to come with her.

“I’ll come with you” Lena knew Yulia wanted to talk to her

“Off they go, why you women can’t ever go to the toilet alone I’ll never know! Women are so predictable aren’t them Milan?” Roman joked.

Milan nodded trying hard not to cry, that little bitch had kicked him so hard and his testicles were throbbing unrepentantly.

***

“Yul what happened out there?” Lena asked Yulia as she stood reapplying her lipstick in the ladies toilets.

“The b**tard ran his foot up my legs and to my…..you know” Yulia said looking down at the floor embarrassed.

“Oh s**t! What a prick! Lena said in disbelief. “I can’t believe he did that to you the f**king old pervert! I’m so sorry Yulia, I shouldn’t have made you come and let that b**tard…touch you!” Lena ranted enraged by Milan’s behaviour towards Yulia.

“Lena it’s ok I just want to go home now and forget about it” Yulia said dismissively.

I’ve got a good mind to go out there and kick his ass.” Lena continued to rage her face now almost as red as her hair.

“I already kicked him in the balls” Yulia smiled satisfied that she had punished Milan sufficiently. His face had been a picture when she had kicked him; he certainly knew he had messed with the wrong girl.

“Ha! Really? So that’s why he yelled out? What are you like!” Lena smiled back at Yulia slightly calmed by the fact Yulia had got revenge.

“Shall we go and make our excuses to leave?” Yulia desperately wanted to go home, away from Milan and Roman and back to their safe haven, just Yulia and Lena like it was meant to be.

When they headed to the dining area there was a stony silence as the two men stopped talking when they saw the two girls returning to the table. They had obviously been talking about Yulia, there was no doubt about it. Roman was glaring at her with an intense hatred while Milan still seemed consumed by the pain Yulia had inflicted on him, he didn’t appear to be sitting too comfortably.

Lena was the first to speak. “We’re going to go now Roman” She decided that she wasn’t even going to bother making an excuse as there was no point, they all knew Yulia and Lena were leaving because of what had happened with Milan.

“Right that’s fine, I think you should go and take that little bitch with you!” Roman spat scornfully.

“HE F**KING SEXUALLY HARASSED HER!” Lena screeched oblivious to the fact that all the other diners were looking over and listening in on their argument.

“SHE WAS ASKING FOR IT!” Milan defended himself shouting at Lena.

“OH SCREW YOU!” Lena angrily picked up the plate of Tagliatelle in front of Milan that the waitress had just brought to the table and dumped it in his lap. He yelped with pain as the steaming hot pasta landed on his already delicate nether regions.

“Come on let’s go!” Lena commanded Yulia who had been rendered speechless by the surreal scene, which had just taken place. They both threw down some money on the table to pay for dinner with Lena storming out of the restaurant ahead of Yulia who trailed behind her noticing the other diners observing their departure.

When they got into the car Lena was still extremely angry while Yulia was now completely bemused by what Lena had just done. “I can’t believe you just did that Lena!”

“He deserved it the b**tard!” Lena said furiously.

“I know but still it’s not like you.” Yulia reasoned.

“He shouldn’t have touched you then” Lena said, the very thought of Milan touching her Yulia fueling her rage once more.

“All I can say is I’m glad you’re on my side!” Yulia smirked; Lena was so sexy when she was mad. “But what about Roman?” she asked curiously, she had never seen Lena lose her temper with Roman.

Lena shrugged. “What about him?”

“He’s going to be so mad at you as well as me now”

“If he thinks it’s alright for that pervert to touch you up like that then he can f**k off too!” Lena raged yet again.

“Lena, Lena chill out!” Yulia said gently trying to soothe her friend, she was getting too worked up to drive.

“I’m sorry but I’m just so angry. How dare he?”

Yulia nodded. “I know but we’re going home now so it doesn’t matter”

“I just wished I hadn’t forced you to come tonight. This is all my fault” Lena said regretfully.

Yulia tried to comfort Lena who now looked more upset than angry. “I could have said no if I’d wanted to.”

Lena looked pained. “But you tried to and I wouldn’t take no for an answer.”

“Lena, don’t be so hard on yourself. It’s not your fault! How were you to know he was such a creep? Lena didn’t say anything still blaming herself. “Oh come here!” Yulia reached over and gave Lena an affectionate cuddle. “Now have you calmed down?”
Lena smiled in answer and Yulia gave her shoulder a quick squeeze “Good, now let’s get home”

[amikana]

awwww - hooray for beating up icky perverted men!!
great chapter vicky!! i love how lena is so protective of yulia :)

amikana

[prostrel]

"...he’d look alright on a black and white tv...". That was funny ! Well, this was a nice "action chapter". :) Thank you Vicky7!

[haku]

icky perverted men
Basically a pleonasm.
man who was in his late thirties
"F**king old pervert", go Lena... :lalala:

[parrish122]

Go Lena! Woo-hoo!

Great chapter!

Parrish

[rivierakid]

WOO GO YULI AND LENA! ROCK ON!

*ahem* Yeah...Anyway, that was awesome vicky! I love how the girls handled the dirty old man...You know, with the kicking of the balls and the throwing of food. That was cool. ^_^

Anyway, great chapter and I'll be waiting oh so patiently for the next one...yeah...patiently...^_^;; So, yeah. You rock! :rose:

[guesshoo]

WOW!!!!!!!
i really didn't expect lena to react to the situation in that manner!
awesome!

my only wish is that yuli had kicked him hard enough that he would have keeled over!
nasty old pervert!

great chapters vicky.

[vicky7]

Chapter 17 – Two’s Company Three’s A Crowd (part 1)

It was Saturday morning and while Lena lazed around at home Yulia had gone into town to have her hair cut in preparation for their big night out. It had seemed a long week and Lena was tired and in a way almost wished she could pull out of going out that evening.

Yulia and Tanya had decided that they would go clubbing and Lena wasn’t looking forward to it one bit. She loved music and dancing but ironically she hated clubs; they were too much like meat markets for her liking. The girls dancing while the guys looked on weighing up which prime filly was to be theirs for the night.

She was glad she was out of all that, well at least she hoped she was, she had yet to hear from Roman after Wednesday night’s dinner fiasco. Lena’s anger had embed away now and she was scared, what if Roman didn’t want to go out with her anymore? She didn’t want to be single and so she contemplated biting the bullet and calling him to apologise.

Lena wasn’t sorry for what she had done but she was willing to put aside her feelings in order to save her relationship so she picked up the phone and dialled Roman’s number. What was she going to say to him? Would he even listen to her?

“Hello” Roman answered on the second ring.

“Hi Roman, it’s me, Lena.” Lena could feel her nerves jangling.

“What do you want?” He barked rudely.

Lena sighed unhappily. “To talk, to sort things out.” She could tell she was going to have to practically beg for forgiveness.

“Do you have any idea how much trouble you’ve caused me?” Roman asked sharply. “Milan pulled the plug on the deal and I got landed with a huge bill for the dry cleaning.”

“Look I’m sorry I don’t know what came over me, I just got so angry about what he did to Yulia.” Lena tried to explain in vain.

“Don’t you think she may have overreacted?” There was a long pause. Lena thought that Yulia had been well within her rights to give Milan a good kicking after all he was a dirty old pervert for touching a young woman in such a inappropriate manner. Surely Roman knew Milan had been out of order deep down.

“Well? Roman asked insistently demanding a response from Lena.

“Maybe a little” Lena lied, she wanted everything to be all right even if she had to sacrifice the truth on this occasion.

“I’d say she went way over the top the evil little bitch! And you, well…the way you showed me up in that restaurant, I still can’t believe it, I’ve never ever been so embarrassed in my entire life, that girl is such a bad influence on you Elena” Roman said in an attempt to shame her; it was working.

“I know I lost it but I’m sorry! I’ll do whatever I have to do to make it up to you, please forgive me honey” Lena begged. Lena’s plea hung in the air while Roman deliberated her fate.

“What you doing right now?” he asked.

“Nothing” Lena responded feeling the tension easing from her body, it seemed she was to be forgiven.

“Can I come round? I know exactly what you can do to make it up to me” he uttered provocatively clearly requiring sex in return for the forgiveness he was prepared to afford her.

“Sure, if you like” Lena conceded weakly.

“Be ready for me, you have a lot to make up for Elena Katina!”

***

Yulia arrived home to be met by the sight of a bare-chested Roman helping himself to a snack in the kitchen. She was so stunned to see him in their apartment that she could only stand and stare while he munched away fervently seemingly just after having slept with Lena; after all why else would he have been half naked? Yulia really couldn’t believe it, she had only been gone for about three hours and he had managed to worm his way back into Lena’s life.

“Look who we have here, it’s the ball breaker!” Roman sneered at her, enjoying the discomfort he could see his presence caused her.

“Take it you made up with Lena then” Yulia said frowning at him.

“In every sense of the word!” He smiled smugly. “You disappointed?”

“Why would I be disappointed?” Yulia was bitterly disappointed but she wasn’t going to give him the satisfaction of knowing how gutted she was that she didn’t have Lena all to herself like she had hoped.

“Because you’re jealous!” Roman told her knowingly.

“Jealous?” Yulia played dumb, had Roman picked up on her feelings for Lena?

“Yes, bet you wish you had a boyfriend, only there’s no one crazy enough to take you on!” Roman said taking great delight in winding Yulia up.

“You couldn’t be wrong!” Yulia shook her head smiling, if only he knew she had eyes for his girl. “And if I had a boyfriend like you I’d shoot myself” With their eyes deadlocked in looks of mutual hate neither one of them noticed Lena come into the kitchen in her dressing gown.

“Hi Yulia” Lena said shyly seeing the stand off between Yulia and Roman, knowing that Yulia would be less than thrilled that she had patched up her relationship with Roman.

“Hi” Yulia turned her back on Roman to face Lena forcing a smile, attempting to hide her disillusionment with Lena for being so weak and needy that she had let Roman back into her life.

“Wow! Look at your hair” Lena exclaimed. Yulia’s black hair was now tipped with blonde highlights, her hair now collar length but still styled in her traditional spikes. Lena thought she looked amazing, and at that moment wanted nothing more than to run her fingers through Yulia’s perfect hair.

“Yeah, what the f**k have you done to your hair?” Roman sniped looking for a reaction from Yulia.

“Oh f**k off!” Yulia replied angrily rising to his bait, she was sick of him getting in the way and spoiling her otherwise perfect relationship with Lena.

“Oohh the liddle girl’s all p**sed off, what you gonna do now, kick me?” Roman taunted Yulia further.

Yulia looked to Lena for support and saw that she wasn’t going to get any as Lena had detached herself from their spat and was busying herself by cleaning the kitchen work surfaces. It was obvious whose side Lena on to Yulia’s mind so she stormed off to her bedroom.

“That girl has such an attitude problem” she heard Roman say as she slammed the bedroom door as hard as she possibly could, she still didn’t hear Lena defending her and it hurt.

[dare2dream28]

Ugh Lena needs to defend Yulia!! And I'm about to bring out my baseball bat and clobber Roman with it!!!! Grrrrrr. Anyways, still loved the update Vicky. Can't wait for the next one! :)

[haku]

Well, Yulia is not the only one to be disappointed. I can't believe how Lena just crawled back to Roman completely humiliating herself and betraying Yulia. There's a limit to how low you can go without losing your dignity and she has clearly passed that limit. She has completely lost all notion of self respect. Before when she was with Roman i was feeling sorry for her and was angry at Roman for using her but now... i don't know... she's so weak... i don't really feel anything for her at the moment... pity and disgust maybe. I'm starting to think she doesn't deserve Yulia.

Sorry, this post is harsh but i typed it as i was feeling it.

[parrish122]

ARRGHHH!

Well written, but ARRRGGHHHH!

Ok, I feel a *little* better now. *sigh*

I agree with Haku, Lena's lost her dignity. If this character were a real person, I'd be shaking her and asking, "Have you lost your mind?"

Of course, the fact that we are getting upset with a fictional character just shows how well you are writing this. :)

Keep up the good work!

Parrish

[guesshoo]

i think yuli needs to loose her temper on roman as she did w/ millian. he deserves it. truly.

when i was reading the part where lena called "the a$$hole" back i was like nooooooooo!
why lena, why????
but then again in real life there are lots of ppl that follow those same actions.
sad indeed!

[prostrel]

Originally posted by guesshoo

when i was reading the part where lena called "the a$$hole" back i was like nooooooooo!
why lena, why????
but then again in real life there are lots of ppl that follow those same actions.
sad indeed!

Maybe this Lena thing has something to do with her father? If I remember right, Lena`s father is quite like Roman, and in real life many girls/women look for men, which are like her daddy is/was. Not nesessarily consciously and even if they say that they never want to have a man like their father is, these girls often end up with a guy like that.

[xena225]

Originally posted by vicky7
“That girl has such an attitude problem” she heard Roman say as she slammed the bedroom door as hard as she possibly could, she still didn’t hear Lena defending her and it hurt.

Ack, that was painful to read. :hmmm: But it would probably be unrealistic to make Lena change too quickly. Old habits die hard. Though I suspect it won't be long now before she is forced to really make choice between Roman and Yulia. I hope she makes the right one. :none:

Thanks for the great story!! :rose:

xena225

[vicky7]

Chapter 17 part 2

“Yulia?” Lena called out tapping on her bedroom door.

“WHAT?” Yulia replied abruptly wanting Lena to leave her alone.

“Can I talk to you?” Lena asked hopefully.

“If it’s about Roman no!” She had been thinking about how much she hated Roman for the past hour and a half and now her head ached, she really didn’t want to compound matters by talking about him especially after the last time where Lena had lashed out at her, she didn’t want a repeat performance.

“Yulia please just let me explain” Lena pleaded frantically wanting Yulia to listen.

“What’s to explain?” Yulia answered back through the door, not moving from her bed, she was unwilling to give in to Lena this time. She had betrayed her so why should Yulia just sit back and let Lena walk all over her?

“Please Yulia, please don’t be mad with me” The despair in Lena’s voice struck a raw nerve in Yulia to the point that she knew she should talk to her and sort things out. She contemplated her next move until she heard Lena walking away from her bedroom and decided to run out to confront her, catching Lena off guard.

“So…you want to explain?” Yulia’s face was set in a frown and her arms were folded across her chest, she didn’t look particularly open to explanations.

“Look Yul it’s nothing personal, I mean I love Roman and I love you, I just wish you’d both get along” Lena gestured wildly in an attempt to get her point across.

However, Yulia’s frown remained. “It’s never gonna happen Lena” she said resolutely.

“I know” Lena nodded sadly, her face a picture of unhappiness.

“So what did you do? You begged him back right? Apologised for my behaviour?” Yulia reeled off the questions.

“I phoned yes, begged no” she lied. Lena knew she had lost some of her dignity especially after that last sex session. Lena had felt violated especially when Roman had put his penis up her…it hurt to think about it, her bottom was stinging and some bleeding was evident when she had examined herself in the bathroom. Why she had let him plunge into her like that she didn’t really know, she had wanted to please him, to show him how desperate she was to make amends and he had made her so sorry for what she had done and now her backside was burning and it hurt to walk.

“I apologised for my behaviour, not yours at least you were discreet and didn’t show him up in front of the whole restaurant” After hours of brainwashing Lena now felt completely ashamed.

“Maybe not” Yulia agreed.

“So can we please just forget about it and look forward to a good night out” Lena asked looking so deeply into Yulia’s eyes that she couldn’t fight with her any longer.

“Yeah I guess” Yulia shrugged half heartedly, she had been really looking forward to going out that evening but it had already been ruined by Roman’s reappearance, she hated him so much.

“Good” Lena smiled happily engulfing Yulia in a hug. Yulia didn’t feel anything, she was numb, no amount of hugs in the world would ever compensate for her losing Lena to Roman. In her heart she knew it was time to give up on Lena, that she should be with someone who wanted her, even if it was just physically she would settle for that right now.

[samegirl]

God! so heart aching this chapter! why lenas has to be that way? so...silly ( i don't know the word in english) I mean...she's been stupid letting roman abuses her...And yulia giving up? hard chapter, now i feel sad...i want them together like they belong
You are torturing us vicky, but what a good chap :(

[guesshoo]

her backside?
ummmmm, my mom always tells me that if a man preferrs the back route than the front road, then all is not well.
in other words, he's gay!

anyways, is it time for roman to die yet???

[parrish122]

Gut-wrenching to read, but well done.

Keep up the good work, Vicky. I love reading your story.


In edit--I had a few thoughts later.
I seriously doubt that what happened in the last chapter has anything to do with Roman's sexuality.

With him, it's all about control and humiliation. But control most of all. What he wants to know is how far Lena will go to keep him....what will she do *and* what will she let him do.

And yeah, it's easy for us to be frustrated with Lena's character....but she's been told she's nothing from the very start. Her relationship with her mother is proof of that. *We* know that Yulia really cares about her....but how can she? How can she believe that, when she's never been treated like she was worthy of love and respect? Even if Yulia convinces her of that with how she treats her, a big part of Lena is going to be convinced that Yulia just doesn't know the *real* Lena...that if she did, she'd treat her like everyone else does.

Ok, I had a *lot* of thoughts later. LOL. And Vicky? If I'm way off base, just let me know. :)

Parrish

[amikana]

oh no! all i have is this gut-wrenching instinct about what is going to happen when they go to the club.....when they go out with tonya. lena's gonna be sorry......

amikana

[vicky7]

Originally posted by parrish122
Gut-wrenching to read, but well done.

Keep up the good work, Vicky. I love reading your story.


In edit--I had a few thoughts later.
I seriously doubt that what happened in the last chapter has anything to do with Roman's sexuality.

With him, it's all about control and humiliation. But control most of all. What he wants to know is how far Lena will go to keep him....what will she do *and* what will she let him do.

And yeah, it's easy for us to be frustrated with Lena's character....but she's been told she's nothing from the very start. Her relationship with her mother is proof of that. *We* know that Yulia really cares about her....but how can she? How can she believe that, when she's never been treated like she was worthy of love and respect? Even if Yulia convinces her of that with how she treats her, a big part of Lena is going to be convinced that Yulia just doesn't know the *real* Lena...that if she did, she'd treat her like everyone else does.

Ok, I had a *lot* of thoughts later. LOL. And Vicky? If I'm way off base, just let me know. :)

Parrish

Thanks for your analysis Parrish, you are completely right about the Roman and Lena relationship. Lena doesn't really expect anything better from anyone and Roman wanted to humiliate Lena to reaffirm that he is the one who calls the shots in the relationship.

Thanks again for your analysis it's lovely to read as it's nice to know that people think in depth with regards to the characters and their emotional make ups which I have tried hard to portray from the start.

[haku]

if a man preferrs the back route than the front road [...] he's gay!
That's an interesting concept... What about a guy who likes to do that once in a while, is he bi? :rolleyes:


Edited to add: anal sex is not humiliating in itself, it's the way Lena let him impose it on her that was. She would have been as violated with any kind of sex, hell, he's been violating her from the very beginning, not just in the last chapter.


[Rest of the post deleted because compared to what Parrish said it was, well, pretty lame.]


EDIT (AGAIN): Well, since Parrish and Vicky7 think that what i deleted was not that lame, i'm putting it back. (To the best of my recollection) And yes Parrish, i typed it just after reading the chapter, i was pretty upset. From now on i'll wait a bit before posting.

Lena knew she had lost some of her dignity especially after that last sex session.
My poor Lena you had already lost all of it even before that, which partially explains why you don't have any respect left for your own body and let him treat you like a whore.

After hours of brainwashing Lena now felt completely ashamed.
I don't think Roman even *has* to brainwash her, she does a pretty good job all by herself.

I just feel sick... I don't know... Maybe it's time for Yulia to move on...

/EDIT

[parrish122]

Good point Haku....I should have made it clear that it was how Roman imposed it on Lena that made it humiliating. I *meant* that, but didn't express that. A bit embarassing, since I concider myself a writer. :)

And don't think that what you said before was lame (I did see it, you posted it as I was editing my post.). I imagine that you were writing during the heat of the moment, where I had been thinking about the story off and on since I'd read the last chapter. Suddenly it clicked and I knew what I wanted to say. It's hardly fair to compare what someone wrote after spending time thinking about what they wanted to write for quite a bit of time, to what someone wrote off the top of their head.

What you wrote was honestly felt, and showed that you care about this character....and wished that she cared enough about herself to demand that she be treated better.

There's certainly nothing wrong with that. :)

Parrish

[vicky7]

Hiya guys! Thanks a lot for all your comments would just like to say Haku I saw your original post before you edited it and liked it, I don't know why you changed it. I love the way you all take the time to give me such good analysis of the dtory as you see it it makes me feel really appreciated. Thank you very much. Now here's an update for ya.

Chapter 17 part 3


A wave of silence washed over the apartment while Lena and Yulia got ready to go out with Tanya. Lena having spent an hour in the bath still felt very uncomfortable, the pain if anything becoming more unbearable, her mobility slightly restricted. At least she didn’t need to spend time choosing what to wear as Roman had decided to pick out her outfit for the evening.

Once Lena was ready and looked at herself in the mirror she couldn’t help but think she couldn’t look anymore prim and proper in the plain black trousers and white blouse if she had tried. She felt awful looking at herself she was so unattractive. If this was to set the tone for the night out she knew she was going to have a horrendous time.

She continued to stare at herself in the mirror scowling at her reflection until she heard the sound of the doorbell and slowly made to leave her room to answer the door. However, Yulia had already beaten her to it and she could see her stood in the hallway with Tanya chattering and laughing. They both looked absolutely drop dead gorgeous in their tight fitting tops, short skirts and knee length leather boots. It was enough to make Lena want to go back to her room and hide but it was too late they had both already seen her.

“Hi Lena!” Tanya said warmly “You ready to go? I asked the guy in the taxi to wait”

“Sure I just need to get my bag and coat and then I’m be ready.” Lena faked a smile and hobbled back to her bedroom to grab her things, this was going to be a very very long night.

***

They arrived at the nightclub about fifteen minutes later and clambered quickly out of the taxi into the long queue to get inside, the club seemed very busy even for a Saturday night. Eventually they got to the front of the queue and managed to get in heading straight for the bar where it was vodkas all round.

At first Lena felt a slight trepidation about drinking the way both Tanya and Yulia were so adept. However, Lena felt she needed a few stiff drinks to improve her mood so that she could join in with Tanya and Yulia’s frivolity so she hastily knocked back three double vodkas in a row and ordered some shooters for them.

Her mood if anything deteriorated, she was the odd one out as Tanya and Yulia chortled loudly, sharing what seemed to be a series of private jokes. Lena could feel paranoia taking hold of her as she studied their faces, were they laughing at her? She knew now that she should have pulled out of coming here and that she should have just left them to it.

It was obvious Tanya was more Yulia’s type of person than Lena was. It depressed Lena but she knew she was a nerd and that Yulia would not normally be friends with someone like her. The only reason they were friends was because Yulia was grateful to her for helping her get her life back together. Now Tanya had come along she wouldn’t get a look in. Watching them she could see how they complimented each other so well, they both were so lively and outgoing that they didn’t need Lena now that they had each other. What did she have to offer them that they couldn’t get from each other?

The steady stream of vodka decelerated and they looked around for a booth fortunate enough to find one just a few yards away from the dance floor. They sat themselves down and watched everyone enjoying their selves. “This is such a cool place don’t you think Lena?” Tanya addressed Lena who just smiled and nodded, she really wanted to go home.

Lena felt so lonely, they didn’t need her to be there but when she looked at her watch it wasn’t even midnight so she couldn’t excuse herself to leave just yet so she decided to give it an hour. She could see Tanya leaning over and whispering something in Yulia’s ear to which Yulia just smiled and laughed another wave of paranoia hitting her hard as she took a large slug of vodka in an attempt to distract her attention away from the two girls.

“Lena you gonna come and dance?” Yulia invited her.

Lena shook her head. “No, I’ll stay here if you don’t mind, I really don’t feel like dancing.”

“Oh ok, do you mind if we go and dance for a bit?” Yulia said asking for permission, she really didn’t want to leave Lena on her own especially when she looked so miserable.

“Course she doesn’t mind, do you Lena?” Tanya interrupted.

Lena did mind actually, she minded Tanya taking Yulia away from her but she couldn’t say that. “No, why would I mind? You guys have a good dance and I’ll see you in a while” Lena said straining a smile.

“You sure?” Yulia asked concerned.

“Sure, I’m sure! Now go!” Lena waved them away.

“Cool!” Tanya enthused. “Will you mind our bags Lena? They’re a bit of a pain to take on the dance floor”

“Yeah, course I will” Lena responded, although Tanya hadn’t waited for her to reply before thrusting her bag into Lena’s lap.

“See you in a bit then” Tanya said cheerily pulling Yulia by the hand onto the dance floor until they were right in the very middle of it and Lena and their booth were out of sight.

“Do you think Lena’s alright?” Yulia asked Tanya still preoccupied by Lena’s unhappy state, she looked utterly depressed and it pained her.

“Probably just missing Roman, bet she wants to leave and go round to his place for a shag” Tanya knew she was manipulating Yulia’s feelings by saying that but she couldn’t help it. She wanted Yulia to forget about Lena and concentrate on her, she was the one that fancied Yulia not Lena, that was the difference and she wanted Yulia to know it.

“You’re right I know you are” Yulia said spacing out for a second.

Tanya whispered in Yulia’s ear placing a hand on her hip. “Come on Yulia, forget about Lena and dance with me.”

Yulia suddenly felt turned on by Tanya, she wanted her more and more as they got pushed closer together by the crowd of people, their bodies brushing as they swayed to the music, Tanya’s eyes never leaving hers.

'Do I know you from somewhere?*
Why do you leave me wanting more?
Why do all the things I say
Sound like the stupid things I've said before?'

The music seemed to be pumping louder and louder as their mutual longing grew as the minutes passed, Tanya grinding herself against Yulia harder grabbing her hand and placing it on her bare midriff.

'Put your hand on my skin
Put your hand on my skin
Put your hand on my skin'

Yulia could feel her pulse racing as Tanya moved a hand under her top caressing her lower back, looking down into Yulia’s face the desire in her eyes plain to see.

'Kiss me, I'm dying
Put your hand on my skin
I close my eyes
I need to make a connection
I'm walking on a thin line
I close my eyes
I close my eyes'

Yulia could feel her nipples harden as Tanya moved her left hand over her chest testing her boundaries and was pleasantly surprised that Yulia wanted her too returning the compliment by placing a hand on Tanya’s pert bottom and squeezing it gently.

'Touch me, I'm trying
To see inside of your soul
I've got this thing
I want to make a correction
I'm not like this all the time
You've got this thing
You've got this thing'

Yulia was beginning to lose control of her senses she needed Tanya to kiss her now so badly, to kiss her all over and to make her forget Lena, Roman, even her own name.

'Kiss, kiss, kiss me'

“Yulia, come with me, I need to have you...now” Tanya purred in her ear. Yulia gulped nervously, she wanted it so much she was prepared to do anything Tanya asked of her.

*Skin by Madonna

[prostrel]

Hot chapter vicky7! Thanks! I just hope that everything goes fine... :)

[amikana]

argh! [scowl]

ami

[dare2dream28]

Yikes. I have mixed feelings about the whole Tanya & Yulia idea. A part of me does *not* want that to happen because...well, I just don't want that. But another part of me thinks it's necessary that Lena see them in some sort of situation, whether it's just something little as kissing or what, just to realize what she feels about Yulia.

I agree with Parrish and Haku--Lena has already lost her dignity with how she lets Roman treat her. Parrish brought up a good issue--the power issue with Roman. He's all about dominance and ugh I just can't stand people like that!! Anyway, I have been hooked on this story since the beginning and I am *really* looking forward to seeing how this unfolds. Great job Vicky. :done:

[amikana]

Originally posted by dare2dream28
Yikes. I have mixed feelings about the whole Tanya & Yulia idea. A part of me does *not* want that to happen because...well, I just don't want that. But another part of me thinks it's necessary that Lena see them in some sort of situation, whether it's just something little as kissing or what, just to realize what she feels about Yulia.

I agree with Parrish and Haku--Lena has already lost her dignity with how she lets Roman treat her. Parrish brought up a good issue--the power issue with Roman. He's all about dominance and ugh I just can't stand people like that!! Anyway, I have been hooked on this story since the beginning and I am *really* looking forward to seeing how this unfolds. Great job Vicky. :done:

i *completely* agree. and while i do think it somewhat "necessary" that lena see yulia and tanya and realize JUST WHAT THE HELL SHE IS MISSING OUT ON ([lol]....that doesn't mean i have to like it. ;) hehe.

so yeah - this post just goes to show you how hooked i am on this story. :)

amikana :)

[samegirl]

I just don't want to know what's going to happen (i'm soooo lying... :p)
But if yulia sleeps with tanya i will feel so betrayed (in lena's name of course) because...she said two chapter ago that her heart wouldn’t settle for anyone but Lena and i know i know it's just sex...but at the end is the same heart wrenching thing.
Althought...this is a very different story right? and we need something to make lena understand what she feels about yulia but does it have to be this painful? :(

[parrish122]

Dare2dream put it perfectly.

Mixed feelings. I think we *all* have mixed feelings over that last chapter.

And why is that?

Because Vicky did one hell of a job writing it, that's why!

She gets her readers to see both points of view....our hearts ache for Lena, because she is so sure she isn't worthy of Yulia. She's been beaten down to the point that she assumes that Yulia and Tanya are laughing at her....she even thinks at one point that the only reason Yulia has anything to do with her is because of what Lena did for her. Which just highlights what I said in my last post.....Lena has a lot of her past to overcome, before she's going to be able to believe that Yulia loves her. Right now, she's with Roman because she doesn't believe she deserves better. Hell, she even thinks *Roman* is too good for her!

And Yulia? Well, she wants to feel loved too. Right now, she's feeling really betrayed by Lena...and who can blame her? She also wants to be with someone who wants *her*. Again, who can blame her?

Yet...she still cares about Lena, and hasn't given up on her yet. Even if she thinks she has. She keeps asking Lena if it's ok if she dances with Tanya, if she's ok...she asks Tanya if she thinks Lena is ok....even with Tanya right there in front of her, she's really still focused on Lena.

This is all my humble opinion, of course. :)

(Edited because of a dumb spelling mistake that made me shudder when I saw it.)

Parrish

[amikana]

Originally posted by parrish122
Dare2dream put it perfectly.

Mixed feelings. I think we *all* have mixed feelings over that last chapter.

And why is that?

Because Vicky did one hell of a job writing it, that's why!

She gets her readers to see both points of view....our hearts ache for Lena, because she is so sure she isn't worthy of Yulia. She's been beaten down to the point that she assumes that Yulia and Tanya are laughing at her....she even thinks at one point that the only reason Yulia has anything to do with her is because of what Lena did for her. Which just highlights what I said in my last post.....Lena has a lot of her past to overcome, before she's going to be able to believe that Yulia loves her. Right now, she's with Roman because she doesn't believe she deserves better. Hell, she even thinks *Roman* is too good for her!

And Yulia? Well, she wants to feel loved too. Right now, she's feeling really betrayed by Lena...and who can blame her? She also wants to be with someone who wants *her*. Again, who can blame her?

Yet...she still cares about Lena, and hasn't given up on her yet. Even if she thinks she has. She keeps asking Lena if it's ok if she dances with Tanya, if she's ok...she askes Tanya if she thinks Lena is ok....even with Tanya right there in front of her, she's really still focused on Lena.

This is all my humble opinion, of course. :)

Parrish

hehe well i agree with your humble opinion...

but the last few lines of the chapter make me sort of doubt what yulia's decision will be in the heat of the moment, with tanya right in front of her. i wonder if she'll go for the instant gratification? or if lena will somehow interject before it goes too far or..... lol too many what ifs! which is okay because that just shows how great it was written!!

thanks vicky, you *rock*! can't wait for the next chapter :)

amikana

[guesshoo]

as far as yulia and tanya are concerned, tanya knows exactly what shes doing and the cards are playing in her favour. she's geeting what she wants. yulia. and i doubt she will have regrets.
however my main concern is whats going to happen after they act in the heat of the moment? how will yulia really feel knowing that she really doesn't want tanya but lena instead. and how will tanya react to yulia after acheiving her goal. will she want a relationship or woulld it just be some fling.
and then lena comes into play. how will she feel if she finds out that yulia is in fact attracted to women? how will she digest the fact of being lied to? and how............
sorry, i guess i did run on a bit. i'll just leave the rest up to vicky.


once again a very, very, very interesting chapter!

[haku]

Well, i think Yulia deserves to have some fun. She knows that with Tanya it's not going to be anything but that, fun, but why would she hold back? She's been repeatedly betrayed by Lena, and even though she still loves her, she doesn't see any possibility of a relationship with her. Right now she's just trying to save their friendship and i think she's starting to doubt that even that is possible. She must have realized that sooner or later Roman will ask Lena to choose between the two of them, and she has no reason to think that Lena will not chose Roman. And she's probably right.

What Yulia has been experiencing must be extremely painful, she sees Roman with Lena constantly, she sometimes even *hears* them! *shudders* I'm just glad she wasn't there during what happened in the previous chapter. Roman might be dead now, i'm not sure Yulia could have stayed inactive hearing Lena's pain!

I've been impressed by the way Yulia's character has been acting from the beginning, except for the fact that she's been hiding for so long the truth about her sexuality to Lena. They've been friends for months now and she still hasn't told her. That's just not fair to Lena. But then again, is *anything* fair to Lena in that story? Each time i think she's reached bottom, it gets worse. Now her body is aching, she's getting paranoid, completely loathing herself, and even thinking she's unattractive! That's just painful to see, but somehow, i have the feeling that it's going to get worse.

[vicky7]

Hi guys. Am back with an update. Must warn you it's a bit sexy in places. hope you enjoy it though.

Chapter 17 part 4

Lena looked around earnestly for Tanya and Yulia, she couldn’t see them anywhere they were lost in the swarm of bodies on the dance floor. However, she was no longer alone as a young couple were sprawled on the edge of the booth where she was sitting kissing with abandon oblivious to the fact she was watching them uncomfortably.

Why was everyone else having so much fun while she was feeling so unwanted? She was merely the bag attendant, sat in the corner invisible to everyone especially Tanya and Yulia. Lena quickly tired of trying to avert her eyes from the couple’s sloppy kissing and their awkward groping around silently urging them to leave but to no avail, they weren’t moving.

Lena sighed loudly shaking her head in annoyance before grabbing the three handbags and going to the bar. If she was going to be on her own she thought she might as well be accompanied by a vodka or two instead. She stood at the bar waiting to be served for what seemed like forever but the barman blanked her every time preferring to tend to the more scantily clad girls with their cleavages hanging out. That was the last straw for Lena, she stormed away from the bar determined to find Yulia and Tanya on the dance floor, she was going home.
***

Tanya pulled Yulia by the hand into the toilets, dragging her inside the end cubicle. “What you doing?” Yulia asked timidly.

“This!” Tanya kissed Yulia passionately forcing her up against the wall taking her bottom lip between her own and gently toying with it. She placed one hand on the small of Yulia’s back and the other at the nape of her neck massaging it brusquely before raking her fingers up into her hair, finally entering Yulia’s mouth with her tongue, hardening the kiss wanting more and more.

Yulia surrendered completely feeling exhilarated by the lethal cocktail of drink and the sensual pleasure Tanya was providing her, the scent of her perfume serving only to intoxicate her further. Tanya had green eyes just like Lena she thought as she gazed up at her, if only she could pretend it was Lena touching her this way but Lena didn’t want her, Tanya did, a voice in her head reminded her.

Meanwhile Tanya had now pulled up Yulia’s tight top delighted to find her braless dipping her head to Yulia’s breast sucking joyfully on her nipples very gently at first before sucking harder until she was nibbling them much to Yulia’s pleasure. A low moan of contentment escaped her mouth, her eyes squeezed shut as she absorbed the waves of ecstasy washing over her body; she had ached for somebody to touch her like this.

“Please Tanya, please just kiss me!” Yulia exclaimed breathlessly. Tanya only grinned wickedly at her in response placing a finger to her lips. Yulia in turn inserted it into her mouth running her tongue over it before biting it hungrily staring at Tanya her eyes full with longing.

Tanya then pulled her finger away putting her hand up Yulia’s skirt and sliding it between her thighs expertly bypassing her knickers and inserting the finger Yulia had just licked deep inside of her. She brushed Yulia’s cheek with her lips before blazing a trail of kisses down her throat and neck.

“Do you like this?” Tanya whispered huskily thrusting an extra finger into Yulia’s wetness enjoying her misty-eyed expression noting in the dim light that her beautiful face was glistening with beads of sweat as Tanya pushed her towards an orgasm of epic proportions.


“Mmm” Yulia mumbled unable to articulate as the fire burned between her legs.
.
“What about this?” Tanya breathed into Yulia’s mouth inserting another finger, clearly enjoying teasing and tormenting Yulia but Yulia wouldn’t have wanted it any other way; this was pure bliss.

However, her pleasure was to be interrupted. “Yulia, Tanya are you in here?” They both froze in horror.

[amikana]

[gasp] omg!

ami

[parrish122]

Vicky, you may have just become the queen of the cliffhangers!

Great chapter, as always. You manage to, as I've said before, get across how the characters feel to the point that the reader empathizes with them both.

What a point to get interupted at! I feel for *everyone* in that chapter.

Which shows how well written this fic is. :)

Parrish

[guesshoo]

oooooh, they're in troub-ble. uhuh!

all i've to say about this chapter is:
DAYUM! :eek: :eek: :eek:

now thats what i call an excellent chapter vicky!

[haku]

Poor Yulia. Just when she was about to finally know some relief. Poor girl.

And yeah, this is one cliffhanger! :D Especially considering where Tanya's fingers are right now! Sorry, this line is a bit light for this thread. :none:

[Will]

oh my god O.o i have to read the next part!!! please! :D

[prostrel]

Originally posted by parrish122
[B]Vicky, you may have just become the queen of the cliffhangers!

I agree with Parrish!

Poor Yulia. Just when she was about to finally know some relief. Poor girl.

And Haku!

Good job, veeeery good job vicky7 . :done:

[vicky7]

Hello! Update for you guys. Will hopefully add the last one for this chapter tomorrow. Enjoy!

Chapter 17 cont.


***

Yulia looked at Tanya with a shocked expression on her face, wanting her to remove her fingers from inside her, her passion dead. She couldn’t let Lena catch her in such a compromising position; luckily they had locked the door behind them.

“Yulia? Tanya?” Lena screeched anxiously. “Yulia?”

Yulia couldn’t move, her heart in her mouth as she could see Lena’s feet under the door. She felt so guilty that they had forgotten Lena because they had been so caught up in each other and now because of them she sounded so forlorn and dejected.

“YUL - LIA!” Lena howled starting to sob, they had left her; Yulia had left her. She could feel her knees start to buckle and a wave of nausea hit her hard, she was going to be sick. In her hurry she unwittingly dashed into the toilet adjacent to the one where Tanya and Yulia were trapped waiting nervously for their opportunity to escape.

They could hear Lena beginning to be sick repeatedly in between sobs and Yulia having pushed Tanya off her made to unlock the toilet door to go to Lena. She needed to go and look after her and get her home to bed. However, as Yulia went to exit the toilet Tanya pulled her back momentarily. “Just one more thing” she whispered so that Lena couldn’t hear her.

Yulia mouthed ‘what’ and Tanya leaned in for a kiss, Yulia barely responding this time she was focused back on Lena now, like she should be. She led the way out of the cubicle and to the next toilet while Tanya washed her hands disappointed their fun had climaxed prematurely.

“Lena?” Yulia called out rapping her knuckles on the door but it was unlocked and swung back to reveal Lena on her knees collapsed over the toilet dry heaving.

“Oh god Lena!” Yulia barged in bending down over Lena holding her hair back from her face as she sobbed and choked slightly on her own vomit, gently rubbing her back until her tears and vomiting dissipated.

“You feeling any better?” Yulia whispered softly, distraught at seeing Lena in such a sorry state. Lena managed to look up at her, her eyes still shining with tears. “I want to go home Yulia” she slurred, her lip quivering slightly.

“We’ll go now, come on let me help you up” Yulia hoisted her up and Lena wrapped her arm around her waist relieved to be reunited with Yulia once more. Yulia then picked up the handbags Lena had still been carrying around and looked to Tanya to help her out. “Tanya will you hold these please?”

“Sure” Tanya smiled at Yulia still unable to comprehend she had got lucky with the sexy girl in front of her. If she got her way they would be together properly before too long and she always got what she wanted, always.

[parrish122]

Well done!

I liked how Lena was relieved to be reunited with Yulia. I think deep down, she's starting to see how much she needs her.

Parrish

[dare2dream28]

Originally posted by parrish122
Well done!

I liked how Lena was relieved to be reunited with Yulia. I think deep down, she's starting to see how much she needs her.

Parrish

Yep!! I agree! And when Lena freaked because she thought Yulia had left her--showed how much she cares for her, even though she may not realize it herself quite yet. Vicky, you have done a wonderful job at portraying the growing friendship between these two and I am *very* eager to read more!!

[haku]

I agree with you Parrish, they both need the other one, and know it. But they also both believe that it's not the case for the other one. Yulia thinks Lena is happy with her boyfriend, and Lena thinks Yulia stays with her only because she feels indebted to her. They don't really trust each other yet. Yulia doesn't trust Lena enough to tell her the truth about her sexuality and Lena doesn't trust Yulia enough to tell her about the reality of her relationship with Roman. There are too many lies, or at least untold truth between the two of them.

[amikana]

[huff] argh. yulia just *can't* want to get with tanya...
argh - it's so damn annoying that they just don't see how into each other they are!! [frusterated sigh]

don't get me wrong, i'm totally in love with this fic - it rocks. very much so actually since it can get me worked up over the characters, so great job vicky!

amikana :D

[guesshoo]

poor lena, she must be feeling awful!
as far as this whole bathroom secen is concerned, it looks like its gonna be a fight between tanya and lena..........over you know who!

interesting, very interesting.
great job vicky!

[vicky7]

Hey guys thanks for your comments here's an update for you

Chapter 17 cont

The trio pushed their way through the crowd and outside the club managing to grab a taxi without too much trouble because it was still reasonably early. Tanya was the first to be dropped off. “Good night Lena, hope you feel better in the morning.” Lena who was barely conscious smiled weakly in return, she just needed her bed now.

“And you call me!” Tanya whispered in Yulia’s ear.

“Ok” Yulia said flatly regretting what she had done with Tanya that evening but she’d have to live with it, she couldn’t take it back.

They soon arrived home and Yulia lay Lena down on her bed “Can you manage to get undressed?”

“Mmm” Lena mumbled in way of reply.

“Gonna make you a nice strong cup of coffee to sober you up. Do you think you could eat some toast too?” Yulia asked, eager to make amends in any possible way.

“I’ll try a coffee but no toast, I couldn’t eat anything” Lena moaned, the thought of food making her stomach churn.

“Ok, be right back” Yulia said as she headed out of Lena’s room

“You decent Lena?” Yulia hesitated outside her door not wanting to walk in on her in the nude.

“Yeah” Lena replied.

Yulia entered and could see Lena tucked up in bed having put on her pyjamas and washed her face clean of makeup her freckles clearly visible now, she was so cute it melted Yulia’s heart just to look at her “There you go” Yulia placed the coffee on Lena’s bedside table and sat down on the edge of the bed.

“Thanks Yul, why don’t you come over here” Lena patted the left hand side of the bed for Yulia to join her. Yulia moved from the edge of the bed and repositioned herself next to Lena lying on her side to look at her.

“Thanks for looking after me, again!” Lena acknowledged. Yulia taking care of her like this was becoming a common occurrence.

“Don’t worry about it, I’m just sorry we left you on your own like that” Yulia apologised.

“It wasn’t great on my own must admit” Lena shrugged not really wanting to make too big an issue out of it, the main thing was that she was now at home with Yulia.

“I’m so sorry Lena, I can’t tell you enough” Yulia expressing her regret yet again.

“Hey you offered to stay” Lena reached out and pushed a stray strand of hair away from Yulia’s eye “It’s my fault I got in that state sweetie not yours.”

“You were so upset though Lena I feel so bad about it, you’re the last person on earth I’d wanna hurt” She paused, “I wish we hadn’t bothered going now”

“Yul, don’t feel bad” Lena said stroking Yulia’s cheek enjoying the silky softness of her skin beneath her fingertips. “I understand that you wanted to dance with Tanya, I know she’s more fun than me”

“She’s a great girl and everything but I much prefer spending time with you, I really do. Tanya doesn’t even come close to you; no one does for me. We’ve been through so much together, good and bad but none of it matter as long as I have you on my side because I know we can get through anything as long as we’re together” Yulia poured her heart out to Lena.

“Aww, you’re so sweet, you know you’re absolutely wonderful Yulia Volkova you really are” Lena said running a hand through Yulia’s hair and looking into her eyes mesmerised, resting her head close to Yulia’s.

“No you’re the wonderful one” Yulia argued. Lena was switching off to what Yulia was saying now completely lost in her eyes relieved that Tanya hadn’t replaced her in her affections. Yulia was still her girl and right now she felt so incredibly drawn to her, so much so that she had a strong urge to kiss her.

Lena brushed her fingers over Yulia’s lips tracing the outline of them her delicate touch causing a large lump to form in Yulia’s throat stripping her of speech. To Yulia’s amazement Lena replaced her fingers with her lips planting a lingering kiss on her mouth. It shocked her as much as it thrilled her especially when she did it again. They were innocent kisses of love far removed from the sexual undertones of her kissing with Tanya. These kisses were all the better because they were from Lena, everything she had dreamed of.

They jumped apart at the shrill sound of the phone, halting their kissing. “You want me to go get it?” Yulia asked to which Lena simply nodded; Yulia was so frustrated. Who the f**k was ringing at this time of night?

“Hey Yulia it’s only me just wanted to see if Lena’s ok” It was Tanya, the last person she wanted to talk to right now.

“She’s fine” Yulia couldn’t quite manage to hide her annoyance; she had said she would call Tanya so why the hell was she phoning now?

“Good, good” Tanya said “Erm and I wanted to say that I enjoyed myself tonight and that if you want to get together sometime, you know just to do stuff, give me a call” It was obvious what stuff Tanya was talking about and Yulia didn’t want any of it.

Yulia decided to be honest with Tanya, it was wrong to lead her on “Look Tanya, I’m sorry but tonight was a mistake, it shouldn’t have happened”

“What? You saying you didn’t enjoy it?” Tanya accused.

“No, I’m not saying that” Yulia defended herself.

“Well what exactly are you saying?” Tanya asked sounding ever increasingly agitated.

“That it was wrong for me to do that when I have feelings for someone else” She was careful not to mention Lena’s name afraid she might hear her talking to Tanya from the bedroom.

“Lena doesn’t know you f**king exist! Christ Yulia! You need to get a f**king grip!” Tanya chastised.

“On that note I’ll say goodnight” Yulia said preparing to hang up.

“Look I’m sorry, I’m… I’m just upset” Yulia could hear her snivelling down the phone her voice breaking.

“Please don’t be upset, it’s the last thing I wanted to do. If I didn’t feel like I do then things would be so different” Yulia tried to comfort Tanya but was failing to find the right words.

“And that’s supposed to make me feel better?” Tanya snapped again.

Yulia didn’t have an answer. “I’m sorry Tanya, what else can I say?”

There was a loud sigh, “I shouldn’t have phoned, I guess I’m all emotional because of the drink, forget I ever said anything. I like you Yulia I really do, I just hope we can be friends.”

“Of course we can, I like you too”

“Good. I’ll speak to you soon” Tanya said finally bringing the conversation to a close.

“Ok night Tanya” Yulia put the phone down, she felt bad, everything was so complicated all of a sudden but one thing remained the same she wanted Lena. It brought her smile to her face to think of her, the sweet kisses projected in her mind as she went back to Lena’s room hoping to find her waiting for more.

“I’m back!” Yulia called out as she barged in. However, there was no response; Lena was fast asleep.

[parrish122]

Awwwwww....Yulia's so sweet in this chapter.

Wake up Lena! :)

Parrish

[guesshoo]

damn, things have gotten soooo complicated now until its become stressful. lena and yuli finally kissed but tanya is now feeling a bit......used, but who can blame her? now yuli just wants to brush her off, and clearly she has feelings for the volkster, even if they're only sexual.

sad indeed.

[samegirl]

i love this chapter :d i just can imagine the whole scene and it's so...
and ok, i think i have been hearing too mucho the demo of nich'ya but i think that it would be a fantastic background music for the scene, and the kisses would be placed in the moment when they sing nich'ya nich'ya nich'ya.
The moment was so full of love, and the things lena though...he thought yulia as her own a very soft and captivating chapter. very good writen vicky7!

[amikana]

i very very *very* much like yulia here. so sweet and loving - just what lena needs...she just doesn't really see it yet. i'm so glad lena finally kissed her, geez! took her long enough. too bad she's drunk [again]. hehe, ah well. i'm sure it'll happen in good time.

great job vicky!! :)

amikana :D

[angeljas01]

That was a great chapter Vicky...I was almost on cloud nine with Yulia when she got that kiss :)

[dare2dream28]

...relieved that Tanya hadn’t replaced her in her affections. Yulia was still her girl...

Seems as if Lena unconsciously feels as if they're in a relationship type manner also. So sweet! Yulia was too cute in this update by saying those things to Lena. The big question is whether or not Lena's going to remember all this when she wakes up. Great update as usual Vicky and I am anxious for more! :D

[vicky7]

Chapter 18 – Friends and Lovers (part 1)

Yulia was buzzing around in the kitchen, humming happily to herself as she fixed some breakfast. There was no sign of Lena yet however many times Yulia thought she heard movement from her bedroom. She had willed the bedroom door to open a thousand times to reveal her love to her stood in the doorway but still there was no Lena. She knew she would just have to wait there wasn’t much else she could do. Waiting was all the more difficult because she couldn’t concentrate on anything, no matter how hard she tried her mind always drifted back to Lena.

Yulia had a slight hangover and was depraved of sleep having tossed and turned all night thinking about what had happened with Tanya but more so about Lena kissing her. She felt extremely nervous. What if Lena didn’t remember or if she just put it down as being a drunken mistake? The what ifs were driving her crazy, her mind working overtime as to the possible scenarios that would take place when Lena finally emerged from her bedroom.

The kiss had been real, she was fairly confident she hadn’t dreamt it and Lena in those few minutes had really seemed to want her. There was a chance that Lena might want to be with her wasn’t there? The prospect of showing Lena how much she loved and cared for her excited Yulia; she suspected no one had ever treated Lena with the adoration of which she was so deserving. She was going to change that, with her Lena would be happier than she had ever known, she would personally sweat blood to ensure it.

Yulia having been so caught up in her thoughts hadn’t noticed Lena was now stood in front of her looking as tired as Yulia felt. “How are you this morning? Or should I say afternoon?” Yulia was unable to resist teasing Lena in her dishevelled state, someone really needed to look after her properly; she just hoped that someone would be her.

“Tired and a little confused” Lena said groggily rubbing her eyes.

“Confused?” Yulia asked, anxious that Lena might have failed to recall what she had done with her the previous night.

“Yeah, I can’t even remember leaving the club, I know I was sick but after that my mind is just blank!” Lena exclaimed looking hopefully at Yulia, requiring her to fill her in on the details of the hours she had lost.

Yulia was overwhelmed by sadness that Lena couldn’t remember those wonderful kisses. “You didn’t miss anything, nothing important anyway” Yulia murmured softly unable to meet Lena’s eyes with her own. She felt she would surely cry if she did, her chance to make Lena her own had vanished and all she could do now was to mourn her loss, suffering in silence.

“Oh, right, ok, cool, I feel better knowing that” Lena smiled tentatively as she headed out of the lounge.

“Where you going?” Yulia demanded to know surprised at Lena’s sudden departure.

“Gonna have a bath, have a bite to eat and go to Roman’s” Lena said not looking back at Yulia as she spoke to her, she couldn’t, she knew she would betray her feelings.

[dare2dream28]

I've calmed down a bit since I posted what I thought of this section at the tatu.us forums (haha) and have had a little time to think about this. I see two good things from this chapter:

1. Now we know that Lena realizes she does have feelings for Yulia.

2. Hopefully since she's going to Roman's (and I assume he's not expecting it), she'll finally find out how much of a bastard he really is!! :mad:

Lena...geeze she just frustrates me to no end!!!!! She constantly belittles herself by putting up with Roman's crap, she shows no sign of self respect, and when she knows she has feelings for someone who I'm sure she knows will actually treat her right, she runs from it!!! Even though that frustrates the hell out of me, in a way I'm glad Lena's doing what she's doing since it makes it seem more realistic. And poor, poor Yuila. Always geting her hopes up just to be shot down again. :( Argh! Anywho, very interesting update Vicky and all this frustration just further proves how great of a writer you are! :D

[parrish122]

Great chapter, as always Vicky.

I think this is very realistic. With the way Lena's character has been developing, it would have been quite odd for her to suddenly be willing to let Yulia know how she feels. I think she's just trying to find out how *Yulia* feels. That she remembers the kisses and is afraid that Yulia will hate her now.

Parrish

[guesshoo]

argh!
i am way to frustrated to state my opinion at this point!
*murmur begins*
sometimes it makes me wish tanya and yuli hit it off, just b/c of lena's ignorance.
*murmur ends*


thanx for the chapter vicky!

[samegirl]

I'm feeling depressed now..
I can understand how confused and freaked out must be princess Lena, and Vicky has been very wise portraiting them as real as they can be, and i think princess Lena's attitude is compeltely normal. It's very hard, and painful realize that you have feelings for your best friend that's not the "friend" type. I remember i was in denial for almost 4 months...
But Yulia...poor girl! She has been so careful and so sweet, she's near, very near, but she can't just give up again, she know the kisses were real! (and now i'm talking about them like they were real...*slaps her in the forehead*) she just have to have a little hope! and i think that maybe...mayyybe if she's a little bit more obvious about her feelings for Lena, things would be easier to accept, don't you think?
Vicky, you are amazing, you always leave us screaming for more...
Now with you and parrish and lena410 and two other guys in tatu.us i can say that i have a severe case of fan-fic addiction...
After a hard day in college dealing with stupid people, you made me smile, even when the chapter breaks my heart like this had...
I only hope roma's messing around cheating on Princess lena, it would hurt her big time, but she will have her Yulia, and the she will see...

[prostrel]

Originally posted by samegirl
Vicky, you are amazing, you always leave us screaming for more...

I sign that! Thank you Vicky7. I love you fic. :done:

[vicky7]

Chapter 18 part 2

Lena lay very still in the bath embracing herself in an act of comfort. She was so confused, not about what had happened last night, of that she remembered every detail but she was bewildered about why it had all taken place. She had pretended she hadn’t remembered anything when talking to Yulia because she had wanted her to speak up and tell her how she felt about it all, as she was too much of a coward to broach the subject herself.

What would she have said? She had kissed her best friend in a more than friendly manner and had obviously embarrassed not only herself but also Yulia. When Lena had asked her, Yulia had dismissed the events that had occurred after they left the club as unimportant. To Lena that meant she hadn’t enjoyed the kiss or wanted anything more from her.

The more she thought about it as she lay in the bath the more she was relieved the phone had rang last night, the person who phoned had saved Lena from making an even bigger fool of herself. Nothing could have come from their kissing, she wasn’t gay and Yulia most certainly wasn’t but now she probably just thought Lena was so weird.

But she had felt different kissing Yulia, it had been so…special almost, it was the sweetest kiss she had ever known Lena thought dreamily for a moment before snappily swiftly out of it. It had only seemed that way because she had still been so drunk she told herself, if she had been sober she would never have done such a crazy thing in the first place. Anyway, it didn’t matter how she felt about it because she had to forget about it now just like Yulia obviously had.

All of a sudden she thought of Roman and felt so guilty. In a way she had cheated on him by kissing Yulia, you weren’t supposed to kiss other people when you were in a happy, committed relationship with someone, that much she knew despite her relative inexperience. However, she would make it up to Roman by redoubling her efforts to be the best girlfriend she could possibly be. That was what she had to do now, just forget about the kissing Yulia nonsense.

[parrish122]

Well-written,as always.

I *so* wish this Lena was a real-life person, so I could shake her and say, "NO! You need to be with Yulia!" LOL

You are so good at making us connect with these characters and making us care about them.

Parrish

[PoisonousTruth]

*steps in line behind Parrish to shake some sense into Lena*

[amikana]

and i'm right behind Parrish and PT!

amikana :)

[parrish122]

*Laughs* This reminds me of that scene in the movie "Airplane" where everyone is in line waiting to slap the hysterical woman!

Parrish

[haku]

when you were in a happy, committed relationship with someone
*rolls eyes and shakes head*

Well, while you're all shaking Lena, i'll be shaking Yulia because she deserves it too.

True, Lena is completely lost in her own little nightmarish world where she thinks that getting a**raped by your boyfriend is a happy thing and i'm short of words to express how frustrated i am with her, but Yulia needs to be more proactive about the whole situation. She's the one who should be shaking some sense into Lena, and even if she thinks that there is no possibility of a relationship with her, as a friend, she should at the very least do everything she can to kick Roman out of Lena's life. Yulia should have tried to find some dirt on the guy to show Lena what a scum bag he is, and that shouldn't be too difficult since he's probably been cheating around with half the city.

[samegirl]

*waiting in line behind amikana* hum after i shake her can i kiss her too? :d that can help too, because, sadly, she won't feel the same as when she kissed yulia, so she will realize and i'll be broken hearted, but anything for the continuing of the fic (and a perfect excuse to kiss my princess :p)...

And, it's official, i'm in love-hate relationship with this fic!i'm not going to tell why, i think i'm not the only one feeling like this...but it's weird... :spy:

I don't remeber if i said it here or in tatu.us but i do think as haku that yulia needs to be more proactive and start acting like a real friend and help the princess to get rid of this...roman-guy eventhought she thinks she has no opportunity with Lena.And for what the princess said she only needs Yulia reafirmating the feelings so she can see things in a clrearer way.
So, Yulia have faith shorty! but most important of all, DO SOMETHING! and don't be depressed, the whole audience can be it for you...

[dare2dream28]

haku, once again I agree with you. :) I'm allllll for Yulia digging up some dirt on Roman, but the catch is she has to present it in a not-so-obvious way or else I think Lena may get angry since Lena is so sensitive about her "relationship" with Roman. Like I said early, I hope Lena goes over to Roman's unexpectedly and catches him in the act of cheating so she'll realize how much of a jerk he really is. And Yuila...the poor girl I can't help but feel sorry for her, but at the same time, she needs to start leaving some subtle hints or *something*! Don't just sit there girl!!!! Fight for who you love!!! *realizes I'm talking to Yulia like she's a real person* Uhhmmm, yeah. Aaaaaanyways, can't wait for the next update! :D

[prostrel]

We have a little step forward now, Lena remembers that she kissed Julia and she admits that it felt wonderful. Let`s be happy about that. :) Thank you vicky7 !

[vicky7]

Chapter 18 part 3


After Lena had bathed and dressed, she made herself something to eat and sat down in the living room where Yulia was scribbling away, her brow furrowed in concentration. Yulia had such a beautiful face, those gorgeous eyes seemingly able to penetrate right through her, that perfect pout, the dimpled cheeks and that adorable cleft in her chin. Lena couldn’t help but stare she seemed to be looking at Yulia in a different way now and it terrified her. She had never felt this way before and she wasn’t sure what it meant.

“You ok Yulia?” Lena asked attempting to make conversation as casually as she could.

“Mmmm fine” Yulia replied barely acknowledging Lena as she continued to draw “just busy.”

“You always are. Don’t you ever stop?” Lena said fondly shaking her head.

Yulia couldn’t help but smile. “No I guess I don’t” She couldn’t ignore Lena.

“Yulia, about last night, I just want to say how sorry I am, you’d think at twenty three years of age I’d know my limits” Lena admitted embarrassment flushing her cheeks.

“You’re not twenty three yet!” Yulia exclaimed, sure Lena’s birthday hadn’t passed her by.

“As good as”

“Over two weeks yet! Are we having a party or something to celebrate?” Yulia said clapping her hands together in excitement, she loved parties.

“What’s to celebrate?” Lena responded glumly.

“Hello! Your birthday!” Yulia drawled sarcastically.

Lena shrugged. “It’s no big deal, I hate birthdays”

She looked so distant that Yulia began to worry, why was Lena so down all of a sudden. “Why do you hate birthdays?”

Lena looked into Yulia’s eyes and knew she could tell her anything so she began to explain. “It’s just that they always remind me that I don’t really matter to anyone”

Yulia eyed Lena sceptically “You matter to lots of people”

“No I don’t, the last time I enjoyed a birthday I was seven, since then they have all been so s**t!” Lena could felt all her emotions starting to brim over, unable to suppress the resentment she felt towards her ‘family’.

“In what way?” Yulia asked softly, her eyes full of sympathy giving Lena the encouragement she needed to talk openly.

“I never see my Dad because he can’t be bothered to make the effort.” She gulped hard, it hurt her to admit that her precious father had a habit of letting her down. “And my Mum just looks at me in a way that tells me that the last thing she would ever want to do is celebrate the fact she brought me into the world. As for the rest of my family, Katya my half sister hates me so much and has always set out to ruin my birthdays and my stepfather Boris just says nothing. So much for happy families eh?” Lena finished with a sardonic smile, a deep sadness betrayed by her eyes.

“Oh s**t Lena! I didn’t realise things were that bad, I mean I know things aren’t great with you and your family but…” Yulia’s voice trailed off, she didn’t really know what she could say to make things any better.

“There’s not much to say apart from birthdays suck.” Yulia didn’t say anything at all but leaned over to place her hand over Lena’s but she pulled away from Yulia’s touch and jumped up off the sofa. “Anyway I’m going to Roman’s, see you later”

“Ok…Bye” Lena was gone, again, but Yulia wasn’t angry, finding out that she hadn’t had one good birthday in sixteen years extremely saddened her. However, Lena would have a good birthday this year, Yulia would make sure of it, the only thing was, she would need Tanya’s help.

[amikana]

tanya's help? huh?

heh can't wait for the update :)

amikana

[haku]

That Lena is driving me crazy. First i want to hug her because she's such a poor little thing, but then she pulls away from Yulia and runs off to Roman! Argh!!! Apparently all that shaking she got from us last time didn't do any good.

And Yulia is driving me crazy aswell! What is she doing? Lena tells her she doesn't matter to anyone and what does she say? "You matter to lots of people" I mean, what's that?! Could she be *more* vague?!

*Leaves thread to drink some coffee*

[dare2dream28]

Originally posted by haku
And Yulia is driving me crazy aswell! What is she doing? Lena tells her she doesn't matter to anyone and what does she say? "You matter to lots of people" I mean, what's that?! Could she be *more* vague?!


I was thinking the same thing!!! I was *so* expecting Yulia to tell Lena how much she mattered to her, or at least that she matters. I mean, that was the perfect time to do it!!! I'm going out on a limb here and put some faith in Yulia to give Lena one hell of a birthday party. Although I think it'd be *much* sweeter if she did it without Tanya's help, but who knows, it could work out for the best. *keeps optimistic attitude.....for now*

[parrish122]

Well.....I think they are both making baby steps. Lena confided something painful to Yulia, and Yulia wants to make Lena happy on her birthday.

*Joins Dare2dream in being optimistic*

Parrish

[samegirl]

well i don't know if i can be optimistic...is that allowed in a love-hate relationship??
And well haku, do not drink too much coffee...otherwise you're going to get crazier :D
I'm trying to understand lena and yulia, and as parrish says, they are making little baby steps, and it's not easy...but i do think yulia is going too slowly...and why does she need tanya? for what? why? why? why?
And when lena said she was sorry, all yulia could say was you're not 23 yet???? Come on! that was the moment! she must say, you don't have to be sorry... or something like that to help lena...yuliaaaaaaaaaaaa move faster!!

[guesshoo]

tanya comes into play again huh?
to ne totally honest, i actually like tanya.
she gives ths story the edge that i want.

thanx vicky7.

[vicky7]

Hi guys. I'm back, although not sure if this latest update is up to scratch have been ill this week so I don't think my brain power is 100% but hope you enjoy it anyway.

Chapter 18 part 4

“Hi Yulia” Tanya stood in the doorway of her apartment obviously having made a special effort with her appearance, done up in full make up and dressed in a pair a tight fitting designer denim jeans and a red low cut top. She was stunning as always, which Yulia couldn’t help but appreciate. If only she didn’t love Lena she couldn’t help but think wistfully.

Tanya made then both a cup of tea before leading Yulia into a cosy living room “Take a seat” Tanya ushered her to sit down “So this party, how many people do you want to invite?”

“Er, I don’t really know, figured would invite some people off our floor, talk to her friend Irina from the practise to see who to invite from work and try to look up some of her old school friends” Yulia reeled off.

“Well I can tell you who to invite from Uni but if this party is only at your apartment it is probably best just to have about 10 or 15 people there.”

“Yeah, that’s plenty” Yulia agreed.

“You gonna invite Roman?” Tanya knew Yulia hated him but as he was Lena’s boyfriend surely he had to be invited.

“Figured would have to.” Yulia looked pleadingly at Tanya “But was kinda hoping that you’d phone him”

“Me?” Tanya looked surprised.

“Pleaseee Tanya!” Yulia said putting her hands together in prayer. “It’s bad enough that I have to invite him to this party without having to do it personally. I can’t tell you how much I hate that guy!”

“You’re just jealous of him because he’s with Lena!” Tanya blurted out.

“No! He’s just a complete and utter bastard! He can only be bothered with Lena when he feels like it and she just runs to him and does whatever he wants. It pisses me off so much!” Yulia said through gritted teeth, thinking about Roman always put her in the foulest mood.

“Ok I’ll phone him” Tanya conceded, an ulterior motive already in mind. If Roman was at the party that would leave the way open for her to be with Yulia, which could only lead to something more happening between them and she would get to finish off what she had started the other night.

“Cool” Yulia smiled, relieved she didn’t have to phone Roman.

“But you owe me!” Tanya pointed at Yulia before shaking her head to Yulia’s confusion.

“What?”

“It’s just you’re so sweet to her and she doesn’t deserve it”

“Tanya, don’t say that! That’s your friend you’re talking about!” Yulia said defensively disliking any criticism of Lena.

Tanya didn’t get a chance to reply as Yulia’s mobile phone rang “Yulia, where are you?”

“Am just on the way home”

Tanya started to laugh hysterically at something funny on the TV so Yulia tapped her on the shoulder putting a finger to her lips to which Tanya responded by holding her hands over her mouth trying to muffle her laughter.

“What’s that noise? You got someone with you?” Lena recognised the laughter as belonging to Tanya.

“Erm, no but I’m gonna have to go Lena, the battery’s about to die on my phone” Yulia lied.

“Alright, I’ll see you when you get home.” When Lena hung up she could feel her insecurities beginning to get the better of her. Yulia was lying to her she knew it. She’s wasn’t alone she was with Tanya. Where were they and why hadn’t they invited her?

[guesshoo]

i know lots of ppl are gonna get angry at me for saying this but......
~yay for tanya!~
i mean come on, you gotta give respect where respect is due.
sure tanys isn't lena, but come on she is trying hard at winning yuli over, which is more than we can say for lena.
and at lena's slow pace, tanya could actually have a chance w/ volk.
ms. katina, if you want her, fight for her. its a much easier battle than you think!


thanx vicky.

[denial]

okay .. I read the whole thing today until Chapter 18 part 4. :gigi:

This story is so good now I'm joining the group of addicts. :hmmm:

*glances at prostrel* .. *smiles her sweetest smile*


Thanks vicky7, I'm waiting for more... :rose:

Your fan,
-Denial

[prostrel]

Originally posted by guesshoo
[B]i know lots of ppl are gonna get angry at me for saying this but......
~yay for tanya!~
i mean come on, you gotta give respect where respect is due.
sure tanys isn't lena, but come on she is trying hard at winning yuli over, which is more than we can say for lena.
and at lena's slow pace, tanya could actually have a chance w/ volk. ms. katina, if you want her, fight for her. its a much easier battle than you think!

guesshoo, I agree with you. And I`m glad that Lena heard Tanya`s voice backround when she called to Julia.

D , Iґm really impressed, did you read the whole fic at once? But then again, this is VERY good fic. :)

Thank you vicky7 , good chapter!

Ps. D , smiling suits you. Such a cute smile...;)

[vicky7]

Hi guys, I'm back with the first part of chapter 19. Also want to say hi to denial, glad to hear that you like the fic so far and I hope you continue to enjoy it!

Chapter 19 – Surprise! (part 1)

Yulia was so excited as the plans were now firmly in place for the party. She was going to be able to do what she loved doing best - spoiling Lena rotten. Her girl (in her eyes anyway) had been alive for twenty-three years and to her that was something worth celebrating.

Yulia was especially relieved that Roman wouldn’t be there. When Tanya had phoned to invite him to the party he had told her he couldn’t come because he would be on a business trip. This meant Yulia could fuss over Lena all she liked without Roman constantly getting in the way so she was ecstatic; it was going to be the best birthday party ever.

The plans for the party were so shrouded in secrecy that Yulia had been avoiding any discussion with Lena with regards to making plans for the Friday of her birthday. She wasn’t even staying at the apartment tonight so she could avoid any questions from Lena about what she was up to and work on the decorations and do all the other last minute preparations she needed to make.

As much as it had pained her to spend so little time with Lena over the past two weeks and to lie to her so blatantly she knew it all would be worth it. She only had to picture the expression on Lena’s face when she returned home tomorrow night and saw what Yulia had been planning all this time to know that and she simply couldn’t wait.

However, she had a slight trepidation about giving Lena the special birthday present she had picked out for her. She had pondered whether to get it for so long but in the end she simply had to buy it, it was the perfect present for Lena. A beautiful platinum heart shaped locket, which had been engraved with her name inside.

Perhaps it was a little inappropriate for her to give Lena such an exquisite gift but she loved her and now needed to show it so badly. Since they had kissed Yulia had often thought she should have braved telling Lena what had happened between them. How it had made her feel, that it was what she had been praying for, her angel Lena in her arms, all she would ever need to be truly happy.

Yulia knew she could not no longer repress her love for Lena; one way or another it all had to come out in the open. Maybe now was the time for her to be honest about the way she felt, it wasn’t too late was it?

[prostrel]

Maybe now was the time for her to be honest about the way she felt, it wasn’t too late was it?

No, it is not too late. :D Thanks Vicky7 !

[samegirl]

I can't wait to the see what will be going to happen in the party!!

*dances around the forum singing and hugging everybody* Yulia thought at last!!! she's gonna make her move she's gonna make her moove!!!

I'm picturing lena's smile and tanya's expression jijiiji and roman won't be there ehehehehehe

*keeps dancing around* :D :coctail: partyyyy!

[denial]

OMG! chapter 19!! Thank you Vicky ! :D ..can I kiss you?

Well .. actually I don't know where this going to. I actually lost hope in both of them. Yeah the b'day party .. but .. and I pity Tanya too .. well .. I just dont know how I feel about it..:grustno: ..oh I pity all three of them... :hmmm:


Originally posted by prostrel
D , Iґm really impressed, did you read the whole fic at once? But then again, this is VERY good fic. :)


Yes prostrel .. I read the whole thing just today ... including the funny comments from everyone.. LoL..

Well actually I got a tremendous kick-start from these sentences by Yulia on the early chapter.

“Don’t touch me, don’t ever touch me again!”

"I thought we had more than that but then again I thought I knew who you were but now I see you both as you are, you’re a complete and utter bastard”

“You are a slut, you ab-solute-ly f**king disgust me and I never want to see you again!”

I could definitely understand how Yulia feels when she said those ... :gigi:

[haku]

I'd like to be happy about the party, but i have the feeling that it's not going to go well.

Lena must be deep into paranoid land right now, she said she doesn't care about her birthday, but people often say that to see if anyone does care about them. So far she hasn't gotten any reponse.
Roman must have told her he'll be gone on a business trip on the date (did he even remember that it was her birthday before Tanya told him, i doubt it). She must think that Yulia is having a thing with Tanya behind her back and that she won't be there either. And she's not expecting anything from her family. So right now, she's probably thinking she's going to be all alone on her birthday and extremely depressed. Yulia should watch her that day and not just wait for her to come back home, she might do something stupid and desperate.

[vicky7]

Here's another update, enjoy!

Chapter 19 part 2

Lena arrived home to find the apartment engulfed in darkness. It was almost 11’O clock at night but there was no sign of Yulia, unless she had already gone to bed. Once Lena had switched on the lights she went to Yulia’s room. The door was wide open and Yulia as she expected wasn’t there.

This had become typical of Yulia over the past few weeks, she was barely at home always whizzing off in her new car, going out with friends from work seemingly doing anything to avoid spending time with Lena. And why? All because she had made a stupid mistake and had kissed her. She had to live with it constantly replaying over and over in her head, surely that alone was punishment enough for what she had done without Yulia having to ignore her.

It was bad enough Roman was going off on his business trip first thing in the morning but she didn’t even have Yulia to talk to anymore. Lena tried to be positive but it was difficult. Maybe she would see her in the morning before she went to work. They had talked about her birthday only a few weeks ago so surely Yulia hadn’t forgotten. Then again she didn’t have time for Lena like she used to and who could blame her? Lena didn’t.

The following morning for some unknown reason Lena woke up especially early. When she glanced over at the clock on her bedside table she groaned loudly, it was only 5:49. She didn’t have to get up for over an hour so why the hell did she have to wake up so damn early? She groaned again and rolled over onto her side, she could just about get an extra hour’s sleep if she was lucky.

She lay perfectly still for several minutes trying to doze off again but the rain pelting hard against her bedroom window refused her the luxury of sleep only serving to add to her already wretched mood. Eventually she gave up and decided to go and make herself a drink, usually a caffeine fix was enough to pick her up, she figured it was worth a try.

As she walked past Yulia’s room she saw that the door was still wide open and noted that her bed hadn’t been slept in. Something deep inside of Lena told her that Yulia had a boyfriend. Why else would she have stayed out all night? It would explain why Lena had barely seen her for two weeks. But if that was the case then why was Yulia hiding it from her? Didn’t she trust her anymore?

She sat in the kitchen for over an hour brooding, putting the fact that it was her birthday as far to the back of her mind as possible. Lena knew this birthday was going to be as bad as any she had ever had and knowing that Yulia was romantically involved with someone didn’t help; it really hurt even just to think about it.

The person Yulia was with right now had taken her away from Lena. Only a few months ago Yulia would have been the first person to wish her a happy birthday. She would have made her feel so special, Yulia always had such a knack for doing that unlike anyone Lena had ever known, even Roman. Things had changed so much and she wanted desperately to go back in time and change things, bring Yulia back to her and make her care again, she missed her.

[amikana]

awwww, she's so sad!! :( i hope yulia can make it better :)

amikana

[denial]

awwww ... :( ..I can't wait for the b'day party. Please do something.... Lena is so sad .. I can't handle this. *eyes watery*

[prostrel]

Poor Lena. But I think it`s good that she has to go through this and her own feeling towards Julia.

*passing a handkerchief to D. Pssst, your mascara is running....* :D

[vicky7]

Hi, here's another update for you. Any feedback on this would be gratefully received as I don't normally use song lyrics (well have used one song) and not quite sure if it works so please let me know what you think. Cheers

Chapter 19 part 3

Yulia looked around the apartment admiring all the hard work she had put in for decorating it for the party; it looked magnificent. However, one question kept nagging her conscious, by doing all this was she making it too obvious she was in love with Lena? Well, f**k it! She was tired of being cautious. It didn’t suit her. ‘The Volk’ was fearless and she wanted Lena. Now it was up to her to make her move, she could have Lena, she knew it. That thought brought a smile to her face as she rushed off to shower; she wanted to look her best for her Lena.

With the water pounding around her ears Yulia didn’t hear the phone ring as she started to sing joyfully in the shower. “*Please forgive me, if I act a little strange, for I know not what I do, feels like lightning running through my veins, every time I look at you, every time I look at you”

She loved this song it explained exactly how she felt when Lena so much as smiled at her. The whole world disappeared when they were together, nothing else mattered she thought blissfully as she continued to sing at the top of her voice. “Help me out here, all my words are falling short, and there's so much I want to say, want to tell you just how good it feels, when you look at me that way, when you look at me that way”

Yulia eventually climbed out of the shower quickly shaking herself off and rubbing a large towel over her body. Once she was semi dry she wrapped it around her and scurried out the bathroom trapping the towel in the door in her haste, leaving her body exposed. “Shit” she swore looking at herself and laughing out loud, if Lena had walked in that second she would have got an eyeful!

She picked up the towel again this time slowing down. As she was walking past the phone she noticed it was flashing, there was a new message. She pressed the play button and the automated voice said, “You have one new message, message left at four twenty six pm”. Then there was a loud beep as the message began to play.

“Hi Yulia” It was Lena. “It’s only me. Guess what? Roman just turned up to the practise, he’s taking me to New York!” How good is that for a surprise, huh? So you’ve got the place to yourself this weekend! Be good! Speak to you soon. Byee!”

Yulia’s face crumbled – yeah it was a great surprise, better than her shitty little party, better than anything she had to offer Lena.

Yulia dissolved in a heap on the floor hugging the towels around her tightly, her little body racked with tears, her heart broken into a million ragged pieces, the dream of her and Lena being together shattered in the cruellest way….

**All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
And their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cos I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World

*Please Forgive Me by David Gray
**Mad World by Gary Jules

[haku]

Roman knew about the party, he did it on purpose. In fact, i think Tanya suggested the idea to Roman. She knew Yulia would be devastated, and now she can show up and "comfort" Yulia. Nice plan.

Oh well, some things are not meant to be... *Shrugs and tries hard not to think about what Roman is going to do to Lena in NYC*

[samegirl]

i need a glass of vodka...
He's going to...*shut her eyes* nevermind...
Vicky you are mean with us...
And this is no good for my menthal health...I'm so sad i could hug yulia and cry with her right now...It's not fair, it's not fair...
and haku is right...he did it on purpose...i could kick him and bit him and put riviera's baseball bat in roman's everybody knows where...
Hate-love relationships are like a rollercoaster...i'm feeling dizzy right now...poor volk! :(
*tries to sneak in the fic to comfort yulia, but fails and sats in a corner hugging her stuffed lena and her stuffed shark...*

[amikana]

bastard!!! [scowls at Roman]

[prostrel]

Well, well, well. That`s life. Poor Julia. And poor Lena, she don`t know what she missed. Thank you vicky7 . IMO you picked up great songs here, they suit very well to this chapter. :done:

[rivierakid]

Grrrr...Boo on Roman...:mad:

And no sticking my baseball bat up his you-know-where. I'd have to burn it afterwards...>.< Although you're welcome to beat him with it all you like, as long as I can help.

And yeah, this chapter just makes you wanna hold Yuli close and tell her everything's alright. Poor girl...:(

Good one Vicky. You rock!

[guesshoo]

roman is such a little bastard!
he makes me wanna hurl!

poor yuli!


thanx vicky.

[Violane]

Great story! But just to let you know, "Mad World" was
written by Tears For Fears or more specifically, Roland
Orzabal. It's a cool video too, but you might be too young
to remember it.

cheers

[parrish122]

I say we hunt down Roman and stomp him!

Anybody want to join me? :D

Parrish

[xena225]

vicky7, you are such a meanie. :yes: Dangling the carrot before our collective noses, and then pulling it away at the last second. Tsk. ;)

Thanks for the update!

xena225

[showMElove2]

Im thinking that maybe Lena made the whole trip with Roman up as she feels neglected by Yulia and wants it to seem like she will have a good day after all. Knowing Lena she is probaly somewhere sulking and just when Yulia gets up the courage! I only hope that Tanya dosent show up for the "party" and manipulate Yulia. Good job with the torture Vicky (lol)

Eidted to add: I think the song fits perfectly with what Yul is feeling and sometimes a song fits the situation better as it did here so no worries:done:

[denial]

*off to Roman's apartment*
*knocks the door*
*Roman opens the door*
*kicks Roman on the stomach real hard* ..
*Roman thrown to the corner of the the room*

You are.... you are......grrrr
Stay away from Lena you bastard! or I'll kill you!

*leaves the thread*

:mad:

[dare2dream28]

Originally posted by parrish122
I say we hunt down Roman and stomp him!

Anybody want to join me? :D

Parrish

You bet I will join you!!! That will be the one time I will go hunting...and one I will most definitely enjoy. Ugh that freaken bast...MEAN, EVIL MAN!!!! I still think that Roman did this just to piss Yulia off and show her up since he *knew* about this darn surprise party!!!! Damn that Roman! Damn him!

[prostrel]

*kicks Roman on the stomach real hard* ..
*Roman thrown to the corner of the the room*

You are.... you are......grrrr
Stay away from Lena you bastard! or I'll kill you!

I say we hunt down Roman and stomp him!

Although you're welcome to beat him with it all you like, as long as I can help.

...i could kick him and bit him and put riviera's baseball bat in roman's everybody knows where...
:mad: [/B]

So much violence here. I`m scared. We all might end up to a gail... :yes:

[vicky7]

Chapter 19 part 4

***

“Please Yulia just calm down, I don’t understand why you’re crying. What’s the matter?” Tanya asked completely bewildered by Yulia’s distress.

“The party…” Yulia sobbed.

“What about it? I’m about to come round now”

“It’s off!” Yulia once again whimpered forlornly unable to stem the flow of tears.

“What do you mean?” This was so confusing, she had only spoken to Yulia a few hours ago and everything was fine, so what had happened?

“It’s off…cancelled.” Yulia said choking on the words “Lena’s on the way to New York… with Roman”

“But…he said he was going on a business trip!”

Reminded of Roman only served to agitate Yulia her tears now of anger rather than sadness. “The b**tard lied! And now Tanya I just don’t know what to do! Everyone will be turning up soon, it’s all such a mess ”

“Hey I’ll come round and I’ll phone everybody to tell them what’s happened ok?” Tanya said soothingly trying to comfort her.

***

When Tanya arrived at the apartment she was greeted by Yulia dressed only in a dressing gown, her face pale and tear stained, her short hair scrapped back and still damp from the shower.

When she saw Tanya she immediately burst into tears to which Tanya responded by encircling Yulia with her arms. “Hey, it’s ok Yulia, we can sort this” she whispered in her ear reassuringly gently rubbing her back.

Yulia pulled out of Tanya’s embrace and looked at her questioningly with big sad eyes “How can we sort it? Lena isn’t here so all the time and effort was for nothing.” she said gesturing towards the decorations she had so carefully put up all around the apartment.

Tanya didn’t answer, Yulia was right, it had been a waste of time but she didn’t have the heart to agree with her. “You got everyone’s numbers?”

Yulia handed her a sheet containing all the names and numbers of the people they had invited. Her hands were visibly shaking and she looked so physically ill. “Now while I do this you go and dry your hair and put some clothes on before you catch your death of cold.”

“Like it would matter!” Yulia shrugged unhappily, “who would give a s**t anyway?”

“I would, you know I would” Tanya said softly putting a hand to Yulia’s cheek and caressing it delicately and smiling at her sweetly “Now go and I’ll take care of this”

“I’m gone.” Yulia said smiling gratefully at Tanya before going into her bedroom.

Tanya saw the door close behind her and stood for a moment lost in thought. She felt so sad for Yulia, she looked so depressed and world weary and all because of Lena. Tanya would never have thought she could resent Lena like this; so much had changed. She was beginning to fall seriously in love with Yulia but hadn’t realised how deeply her feelings ran for Lena. It was all so frustrating for her; she wanted Yulia so much.

An hour later Tanya had finally finished phoning all the people who were due to attend the party. She needn’t have bothered because they all already knew it was cancelled having received messages from Roman informing them that there would instead be a birthday dinner for Lena on Monday night when they returned from New York.

All the while Yulia had just sat there stony faced in disbelief until Tanya hung up from making the last call on her list. “Let me guess, she knew it was cancelled”

Tanya nodded. “B**tard! B**tard! B**tard!” Yulia swore having finally reached the end of her tether. “He’s f**ked us right over!”

“I know but what can we do? It’s done now and it looks like we’re the only two not invited to this dinner thing on Monday.” Tanya was perplexed by all this Roman had sounded so charming on the phone so why had he so blatantly set out to ruin the party for Lena?

Yulia crossed her arms stubbornly her face set in a scowl “I wouldn’t want to go to the stupid f**king dinner anyway”

“I know you won’t wanna hear this but you don’t suppose he’s going to ask Lena to marry him do you?” Yulia looked mortified as Tanya continued. “It just seems like he’s making too big deal out of all this for it to be just for her birthday”

“DON’T BE SO F**KING STUPID!” Yulia snapped.

Tanya tried to keep a lid on her temper but she was struggling, she was the last person Yulia should be getting angry with. “Hey! Will you stop shouting at me please!”

Yulia didn’t want to shout but why was Tanya trying to add to her torment couldn’t she see she was already suffering enough. “I’m not shouting but why the hell did you have to say that?”

“It’s just…” Tanya started before Yulia cut her off.

“LOOK I DON’T WANT TO HEAR IT, JUST SHUT THE F**K UP!” Yulia lashed out wanting to hear no more about Lena, Roman, the party or…anything else.

Tanya grabbed her bag “I don’t have to listen to this I’m going” she said heading for the front door.

Yulia followed halting Tanya in her tracks pleading with her desperately to stay, “Please don’t! I don’t want to be here alone. Please Tanya stay with me!”

Tanya softened, she would stay, she hated to see Yulia so upset. All she wanted to do was take the pain away, kiss her and soothe her better, release her from the shackles of her love for Lena and make Yulia hers.

[prostrel]

"...you don’t suppose he’s going to ask Lena to marry him do you?”

You dropped a bomb vicky7 , I haven`t thought that possibility. :eek: To Roman :bebebe: Great chapter vicky7, thanks! :)

[denial]

*sigh*... I don't know. :(

Originally posted by prostrel
:eek: To Roman :bebebe: [/B]
That ..... is ... sexy ....Prostrel...

[haku]

Ok, Tanya was not involved in the ruining of the party. I've lost my ability to think lately LOL. Oh well, that was bound to happen, i'm getting old.

Marriage? Argh, i'm going to be sick. :bum:

[vicky7]

Here's a short update, figured it was better than nothing!

Chapter 20 –All That Glitters… (part 1)

“Hello”

“Tanya? Is that you?” Lena asked. Why the hell was Tanya answering the phone in her apartment? Where was Yulia?

“Yeah hi Lena! Yulia’s just in the bathroom” Tanya replied chirpily.

“Oh right”

“So you having a good time in the Big Apple?”

“The best!” Lena said forcedly, she had wanted to talk to Yulia about something important, she hadn’t prepared herself to talk to anyone else especially not Tanya.

“Good, good that’s what I like to hear!”

“We’re back tomorrow and I was just phoning to check that Roman left a message inviting you and Yulia to this dinner he’s arranged. He can’t remember who he has invited, can you believe it?”

“He’s a man what do you expect? He hasn’t invited us but we heard about it off other people” Tanya said nonchalantly.

“You’ll come won’t you? And make sure Yulia knows about it?” Lena wasn’t really bothered if Tanya came or not but she wanted to see Yulia there.

“Of course I will, no problem”

“Great thanks Tanya, it’s at the Polanski Hotel in the Harvard suite at eight O’clock.”

“Got it!” Tanya declared as she finished jotting the details down.

“Good! Will see you both there then,” Lena cleared her throat almost nervously “Tell Yul I said hi. Anyway I’d better go Tanya, Roman’s calling me so I’ll see you tomorrow”

“Ok Lena see you tomorrow”

When Lena got off the phone she felt incredibly disappointed, she had wanted to talk to Yulia so badly but typically she had been unavailable to her. She hadn’t seen her since last Wednesday and it was now Sunday. She’d also not even received a card or a present off Yulia for her birthday obviously she didn’t care about her now that Tanya was her friend. She was sure Yulia would always make herself available for Tanya, it was just Lena she couldn’t give a s**t about.

The jealously she felt hung over her for the rest of the day even when Roman took her out to do some shopping. Wherever they went she kept seeing things that reminded her of Yulia. If only she could just forget her…

[denial]

vicky7, thanks for the update .. for you :rose:


*suddenly from distance*
Aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh!! *bangs head on wall* bang! bang! bang!

[parrish122]

Wow....I'm starting to really feel sorry for Tanya too.

It sounds like she truly cares about Yulia, and it is frustrating to fall for someone who wants someone else, who doesn't want them...or at least doesn't seem to.

Parrish

[prostrel]

Originally posted by parrish122
Wow....I'm starting to really feel sorry for Tanya too.

It sounds like she truly cares about Yulia, and it is frustrating to fall for someone who wants someone else, who doesn't want them...or at least doesn't seem to.

Parrish

I agree, it`s frustrating to see when people are "falling in love in line", cos then there is just a line of sad faces and broken hearts.
But I think there is some light in this fic, cos Lena is a little bit jealous and she thinks Julia all the time. :)

Thank you vicky7 !

[vicky7]

Chapter 20 part 2


“Why the hell did I let you talk me into coming here?” Yulia moaned as a waitress seated them to a table.

“You know why, if Lena asked you why you weren’t here what would you say?” Tanya protested.

Yulia folded her arms resolutely “I would have come up with something”

Tanya decided to lay it on the line maybe then she would be able to get through to Yulia “Just ask yourself one question do you want to be Lena’s friend?”

Yulia wanted more but if she had to would she be prepared to settle for less? “Tanya you know how I feel”

“But it’s not gonna happen!” Tanya said exasperated. “So realistically you have two options, one you can carry on as normal and be her friend or two get out of her life completely”

“I can’t just cut her out of my life, she’s… “Yulia hesitated she didn’t even want to contemplate the second option. “I just can’t!”

“Well that’s why you’re here, for Lena, your friend” Tanya emphasised the word ‘friend’ because no matter how hard she tried she couldn’t get Yulia to see Lena as just that. She hoped that maybe being here might actually hammer it home to her especially if Roman was to do what Tanya expected.

“Yeah ok fine but I just wish she’d hurry up and get here already” Yulia was impatient by nature but this was absolute torture.

Tanya consulted her watch “It’s only five past eight we’re really early”

“I told you it was better to be fashionably late.” Yulia moaned once again.

“But at least we can have a drink and it’s all free so what you complaining about?”

“True” Yulia said downing her vodka “And I think it’s time for another one”

“Crazy!” Tanya exclaimed shaking her head “At this rate you’ll be under the table by nine O’clock!”

“Let’s hope so!” Yulia smiled seductively “You gonna join me under the table?”

“That depends” Tanya said arching her eyebrow provocatively. “What we gonna do under there?”

“Maybe you’ll find out later…”

***
By nine O’clock there was still no sign of Lena and Roman and all the guests had started to eat dinner without them. Yulia was on her fourth vodka and taking great delight in people watching. “Who’s that?” she said pointing at a haughty looking middle-aged red head “Is that Lena’s Mum?”

“Quit pointing! She’ll see you! And yeah that is Lena’s Mum” Tanya said in a whisper glancing around to see if anyone had seen Yulia pointing.

“What’s her problem? She got a cork up her ass?” Yulia slurred before taking another slurp of her vodka.

“Shhh not so loud” Tanya said stifling a giggle.

“To think she brought Lena into the world ‘tis unbelievable she managed to have such a sweet daughter” Yulia squinted at the sulky girl sat next to Lena’s Mum, “And who’s that kid next to her? Is that Katya?”

“Yeah the brat from hell!” Tanya had met Katya several times and had always wanted to slap her silly face, because she was such a horrid little bitch.

“God Lena had a lot to put up with at home! That guy next to her Mum must be Boris right?”

Tanya nodded “Yeah he’s horrible, so slimy!”

“No wonder she’s got crap taste in men it’s obviously a genetic thing” Yulia guffawed setting them both off into hysterics to the extent that they were practically crying with laughter much to the disapproval of the other people sat on their table. “What’s your problem?” Yulia asked a stern looking man who was staring at them in disgust. He didn’t reply but just turned away setting them off laughing again, which continued until a commotion signalled Lena and Roman’s arrival.

[denial]

oh no! no! no!

..well maybe this is just birthday dinner for Lena ..

...

its hopeless! .. Yulia should just date Tanya .. she's not bad anyway..

:hmmm:

[vicky7]

Chapter 20 part 3

Lena looked radiantly happy as she walked in on Roman’s arm, she had never looked so beautiful in Yulia’s opinion. Just being in the same room with her was stirring up all the feelings of longing she had been trying to suppress all weekend.

As Lena and Roman were heading to the top table they stopped to talk to Lena’s family, Lena’s Mum threw her arms around her while Boris shook Roman’s hand. Her Mum seemed to study Lena’s hand and from where Yulia was sitting she could see something sparkling on her finger, it couldn’t be, could it?

“It’s looks like I may have been right” Tanya said nudging Yulia and eyeing her sadly, “you ok?”

“Mmm” Yulia didn’t know what to feel anymore she just was so numb to it all “Could do with another drink though”

“I’ll go and get you one” Tanya said gently squeezing her shoulder “Same again?”

“Yeah thanks that would be great” While Tanya made her way to the bar Yulia once more studied the scene before her, it was all such a farce couldn’t anybody else see that?

A few minutes later Roman stood up in an attempt to get everybody’s attention clearing his throat before beginning to address the room full of people. “Excuse me for a minute I’d kinda like to make a short speech. It’s not really my style to make speeches but for Elena I make an exception.”

This was greeted by a chorus of awws from the women in the room with Lena blushing shyly like she always did when she was embarrassed even her ears flushed red, it was so cute, Yulia had always found it so endearing.

Roman continued once the level of noise died down “First of all I’d like to thank you all for coming but I must confess I have brought you here to celebrate more than Elena’s birthday. In fact we are celebrating because I have asked Elena for her hand in marriage and she said yes!” This was met with a roar of approval while Yulia could only sit and pray it was all just some nightmare from which, any minute now she was going to wake.

Roman pulled out an envelope, “And I have another surprise for Elena.” Yulia was too nervous to even contemplate its contents but how could things get any worse? “ Here honey.” Roman said affectionately as he held out the envelope to Lena. She took it off him sheepishly not enjoying being put on the spot in such a manner; she was uncomfortable with all this attention.

When she read the card that was inside the envelope she couldn’t hide the shock she felt, she really didn’t know what to say. “So what do you think?” Roman turned to her grinning broadly. “Is that alright?” Lena nodded before looking at the card again trying to absorb what it said. Roman bent down and whispered in her ear. “I can tell them all can’t I?”

“ Yeah, why not?” she smiled hesitantly.

“Ok everybody one final thing. I just want you all to know that we have just set the date for the wedding and that your invitations will soon be in the post, we are going to be married on Christmas Eve” There were many gasps around the room and Yulia nearly choked on her vodka, Christmas Eve was only two and a half months away.

“Right so I’ll leave you all to enjoy the rest of your evening and on behalf of Elena and myself I would just like to thank you once again for being here to celebrate our good news.” There was applause from around the room as Roman finished his speech, sitting down and pecking Lena on the cheek before a hoard of friends and family made their way over to offer their congratulations to the happy couple. The rest of the room seemed to literally buzz with talk of the surprise announcement and it was too much for Yulia she couldn’t just sit there and pretend to be happy.

“Don’t you think we should go over there and say something to Lena?” Tanya asked tentatively.

“Are you for real? What’s there to say? Congratulations you are marrying a complete and utter bastard you must be so happy!” Yulia said her voice dripping with sarcasm.

“You’ll have to say something even if it’s just for show.” Tanya reasoned.

“No I don’t, I’m going” Yulia finished up her drink “You coming? I thought perhaps we could, you know, do stuff” Yulia said coyly before fondling Tanya’s leg under the table.

“Really?” Tanya responded not quite believing her luck.

Yulia gazed deeply into Tanya’s eyes. “Yeah, your place or mine?”

“Mine” Tanya smiled at Yulia happily; ecstatic her persistence was finally paying off.

“Come on then” Yulia grabbed Tanya by the hand but not before she took one last look back at Lena stood with Roman surrounded by well wishers. Roman had made Lena happy in a way Yulia never could, it really was the end of a dream. However, the reality was she could at least make Tanya happy and be provided with some much needed comfort in return, she would have to settle for that.

[amikana]

argh!!!

everything is apparently going to shit here.....

:(

amikana

[angeljas01]

I'm sorry I don't comment more but everytime I read this fic I just get so angry at Roman and did want to write an anger post...but I still need to give you props for an amazing job Vicky :) I still hate Roman and the situation though grrr...

[denial]

hump!

*follows Yulia back to Tanya's place*

[haku]

Well, i hope Yulia and Tanya are going to have some fun this time. Yulia sure deserves it, otherwise she's going to explode from frustration.

I'm like everyone else, i hate Roman, but i'm so angry at Lena! She said yes?! WTF! Even if she won't admit to herself that she loves someone else, she should at the very least realize she doesn't love him, not to mention that the guy is pure scum. Trophy wife, that's her goal in life? Argh! I'll shut up now.

Yulia should have said to Lena that she was gay from the beginning though, that was a big mistake and not fair to hide that from Lena.

[dare2dream28]

At first I was just extremely mad and hateful towards Roman. Now I'm just flat out pissed at Lena. WTF is going through her head?! And Yuila!!!! SPEAK UP GIRL!!!! I am just frustrated with all these characters!!!! Lena needs to better herself and not accept the role as trophy wife. Yulia needs to wake up and smell the flowers...Lena isn't going to leave Roman for no reason, she needs to give Lena a reason, and a damn good reason at that!!! And Tanya...acting as the rebound girl, yet offering Yulia the comfrot she needs. I have mixed feelings towards her. I'm like "GO AWAY and quit trying to steal Yulia!" but then I'm like "Awww Yulia needs comformt" but then I get all mad again because of Yulia's lack of expressing her feelings to Lena. Geeze this is so frustrating, but I love it!!! AWESOME work vicky! :D

[Alonely]

I wanna kick Roman's cheating, self-centered, ass. Leeennna what the hell? He's a bad fcuk, dump him. Cause if she marries him thats the only fcuk she'll get. You'd be light years happier with Yulia...

WHY CANT THEY JUST FIGURE IT OUT?!

*little voice in my head* because then we wouldnt be so desprate to read it...

[prostrel]

Originally posted by Alonely
Leeennna what the hell? You'd be light years happier with Yulia...
WHY CANT THEY JUST FIGURE IT OUT?!
*little voice in my head* because then we wouldnt be so desprate to read it... [/B]

Yessss. And this fic would be in the end... :D Good work again vicky7 ! :done:

[denial]

Originally posted by prostrel
Yessss. And this fic would be in the end... :D Good work again vicky7 ! :done:

Yep I thought so too .. if everything is okay .. this fic will goes to end .. eeeek I dont want that. Can a fic last for a life time .. ? I mean they are human characters right ..

Anyway ..this story remind me of the song STAR ..

"...and like the night we camouflage ...denial"

Was listening to the song on my way to work today .. ehh actually the song reminded me of the fic .. urr.. vise versa .. both can be reminding each other .. okay I shut-up .. I'm in the mood of talking .. okay flat face.. final ... :none:


vicky7 ..I love your writing .. I'm ready for update! For you :rose:

[guesshoo]

so sad.
so sad.

yay for tanya tho'!

[Veggie Delite]

*peeks in thread*

*reads whole fic*

update, please...? :rose:

[Devilish Yulia]

ahh yess.......i read dis in the other forum and i must say........NOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but i cant believe im saying dis but.........yulia have some fun wit tanya.......she does deserve it. after all the misery she has gone thru now dis! lena getting married wit roman.............now i dun feel so well!!!

BUT......im am well enough for an update! :D

[vicky7]

Chapter 20 part 4

Lena looked around the room trying to spot Yulia but it was difficult to see anything with the crowd of people waiting to congratulate her and Roman forming a solid wall around them. Eventually when she stood on her tip toes she could just about see Yulia sat at a table with Tanya seemingly deep in conversation. She felt a stab of jealousy penetrate her heart; Yulia really didn’t need her now.

As she was pondering that thought she was quickly brought out of her reverie by someone tapping her on the shoulder, it was her neighbour Dominik. “Congratulations Lena”

Happy to see a friendly face Lena relaxed slightly, Dominik was such a nice guy she was glad he had been invited to the party especially as she barely had time for most of the people there. “Thanks Dominik”

“So did you enjoy New York, I got the message from Roman saying your party was cancelled, would imagine it was a damn sight better than having us all jumping out at you shouting surprise!” Dominik said jokily.

“Party?” Lena scowled in confusion. “What party?”

“Oh you don’t know? Yulia was having a party for you” Dominik explained. “It was all very hush hush.” He said exaggeratingly putting a finger to his lips in mock silence.

“Really? This is all news to me” She looked around to where Roman was chatting with another guest looking as handsome and charming as ever. Why hadn’t he told her about the party, he obviously knew about it, so why?

“Didn’t Roman tell you?” Dominik asked wide-eyed, his surprise clearly evident.

“No, I guess it must have slipped his mind” Lena said softly uncertain what to make of Roman’s apparent absentmindedness.

“Yeah I guess so, you know what us guys are like, that’s why we all need good women behind us to sort us out” Dominik smirked trying to raise a smile out of Lena.

“Yeah you’re all bloody useless that’s for sure!” Lena smiled back.

“Anyway I’ll leave you to it, I can see the rabble are getting slightly disgruntled!”

“Yeah you’re not wrong” Lena laughed as she surveyed the masses waiting impatiently to take a look at her ring. She was on display and she wasn’t enjoying it, all she wanted to do was to go home and put her feet up but she had no choice she would have to grin and bear it. It didn’t really matter though because at least Yulia hadn’t forgotten about her she couldn’t help but smile to herself as she waved at Dominik as he headed back to his table

Then before the onslaught continued she looked back to where she had seen Yulia sitting with Tanya just a few minutes ago. Gone. Had they left already? Lena was disappointed, the party would have been slightly more bearable if she had been able to talk to Yulia at some point but now she would have to spend the majority of the evening making polite conversation with people she barely knew. However she was contented knowing that Yulia still cared about her after all. It was the happiest she had felt for weeks….

[guesshoo]

so she found out about the party huh?
wonder what she's gonna do about it.....

[vicky7]

Chapter 20 part 5

“You want a drink Yulia?”

“Mmm ok” Now Yulia was back at Tanya’s she felt very nervous. Was this really what she wanted she thought as Tanya set the mood by dimming the lights and putting on some music in the background.

When Tanya returned from the kitchen with a large vodka in hand for Yulia she eyed her sultrily. “Here you go, you alright for a minute while I go get changed?” she purred softly.

“Yeah, sure” Yulia said smiling enjoying the lustful feeling running through her veins as she studied Tanya’s face.

Yulia waited patiently for Tanya and walked around the apartment scrutinizing the photographs on her fireplace only to be stunned at the sight she was greeted with, making her choke on her drink for the second time that evening. Tanya had re-emerged from her bedroom resplendent in her nakedness and was now stood in the shimmering light clearly anticipating Yulia’s needs.

Tanya had such beautiful body that Yulia knew she was going to enjoy this. She didn’t feel guilty, why should she? What was wrong in her taking comfort from another woman’s body? She didn’t belong to anyone despite what her stupid heart was telling her otherwise.

“Hey you, did you miss me?” Tanya said throatily, her body aching for Yulia’s touch.

“Mmmm”

Tanya glided across the room her eyes never leaving Yulia’s almost daring her to look down at her naked body, to admire her obvious assets. Then she stood before Yulia hesitating slightly before sitting astride of her, her bosoms so temptingly close to her mouth that she had to give in to her weakness, Tanya’s breasts were absolutely magnificent and she badly wanted to kiss them and lick them.

However, Tanya’s breasts were pimpled by the cold air, which meant that Yulia had to quickly kneed them in her hands in order to revive them. Tanya meanwhile wrapped her legs more firmly around Yulia’s waist revelling in the excitement of Yulia taking one nipple then the other in her mouth before running her hand down her stomach and teasing a hand down each of her thighs.

Yulia then kissed her rampantly on the mouth and moved to stand up to which, Tanya obliged and stood up beginning to direct Yulia to her bedroom but Yulia stopped her with a seductive glint in her eye. She didn’t want to wait until the bedroom; there was something she wanted to give Tanya right there and then. Yulia slid into position between Tanya’s legs looking up at her with a devilish smile before giving her a ‘special’ kiss, the killer kind, which would have her on her knees begging Yulia for more.

As Yulia thrush her tongue deeper and deeper inside of Tanya, Tanya lost her head completely running her hands through Yulia hair, tugging at it brusquely trying to gain some control before slumping to her knees. However, Yulia continued exploring her weakness, toying with her, extracting every ounce of pleasure out of her body until she came.

“Oh my fuck-ing god!” Tanya howled with gratification as her orgasm hit her in waves.

“You had enough?” Yulia said coming up for air.

“No, no, don’t stop, please don’t ever stop!” Tanya pleaded with her to which Yulia conceded and set again about carrying on her work until at last she heard one final anguished screech from Tanya that told her she was done. Good, now it was her turn.

[samegirl]

good good good wow! holy cow! but...at the same time...lena is being so stupid...

at least yulia had fun and she's not feeling miserable at the moment...

Way to go vicky!

[parrish122]

Wow!

Hot chapter Vicky...and well written, as always.

Parrish

[guesshoo]

yay for tanya.
congratulations on achieving the 'special' kiss from a female that most ppl would give their right leg just to touch.
i am definately proud of you, keep up the good work. and since lena is to blind to see the friggin obvious, i feel like you deserve to have yuli to yourself for a while, even if its temporary.
a honest pay for a very hard worker. :done:

*runs and hides before fellow-forumers begin to throw objects at her*

nice work vicky.

[prostrel]

Originally posted by guesshoo
yay for tanya. I feel like you deserve to have yuli to yourself for a while, even if its temporary.
a honest pay for a very hard worker. :done:

*runs and hides before fellow-forumers begin to throw objects at her*

I throw you a :rose: guesshoo , cos that was exactly what I think too!

Good work vicky7 , very good work! No frustrations after reading this chapter. :D

[Veggie Delite]

whoo, this sure was a hot chapter...!

and good written !

[denial]

Awww... Lena Lena Lena.. darling... look what happened now...

okay .. that was hot! lol

...waiting for Yulia's turn!!

Thanks for update Vicky7! I'm ready for next!

[vicky7]

Chapter 21 – The Aftermath (part 1)

Where the hell was she? This wasn’t her bed Yulia thought as she tried to prise her eyes open, fighting against a raging hangover. Having managed to sit up she decided to investigate and looked down under the covers. Naked. Her headache intensified further as she saw Tanya sleeping soundly next to her wearing only a smile of contentment. What had she done?

Yulia felt so guilty as she remembered what had happened the previous night, the pain of Lena’s engagement, leaving with Tanya…

Yulia was ashamed, she had used Tanya to forget about Lena, had even enjoyed having sex with her and now she felt a cheat for having traded the love she had for Lena for the cheap thrill of being with Tanya.

She was dirty, disgusting even and a coward for wanting to leave before Tanya woke up, not prepared to hang around to explain that she had made a mistake. Yulia knew Tanya would be hurt by her behaviour but she couldn’t lie and say that last night had meant anything to her because it didn’t, it was just sex.

Yulia moved gingerly to get up out of the bed trying not to wake Tanya so she could retrieve her clothes. As she looked around the large room she was pretty sure that they had been discarded long before they had moved proceedings to the bedroom and continued what had turned out to be a marathon sex session.

Tanya had proved to be more than a match for Yulia’s sex prowess with a libido to match her own together proving to be if nothing else sexual dynamite. But it was only physical pleasure there was none of the gratification you got when you made love to someone special, there had been no feeling, just f**king.

As she left the bed Yulia was stopped in her tracks. “Hey, where you going?” Tanya yawned as she propped herself up on her side.

“Gotta run home and change before I go to work” Yulia said really not wanting to engage in conversation with Tanya.

“Ok I’ll let you go on one condition” Tanya said huskily trying to draw Yulia back to her.

“What’s that?” Yulia asked timidly afraid of what Tanya might require of her.

Tanya smiled sweetly making Yulia thaw a little “I need a kiss”

Yulia paused before obliging her with a swift peck on the cheek. “Is that it? I was thinking of something more like this” Tanya put her hands either side of Yulia’s face and kissed her deeply, the smell of her numbing Yulia’s senses, weakening her resolve as she kissed her back massaging Tanya’s tongue with her own.

Tanya pulled away first. “That’s better,” she whispered.

Yulia stunned at how easily lust was able to take hold of her moved before Tanya could tempt her back again “I really have to go now” she stated simply.

“That’s such a pity,” Tanya said mournfully “can’t you call in sick or something? Then we could stay in bed all day or even christen the kitchen, we didn’t get that far last night did we?” Tanya said letting out a raucous laugh.

Yulia smiled falsely eager to escape. “That would be great but I can’t. I’ve got too much on at the moment” she lied.

“Oh how you disappoint me!” Tanya exclaimed dramatically throwing her head back down onto the pillow “ You just make sure you call me later ok?”

“I will, anyway I really must grab my clothes and go, so speak to you later”

“Yeah ok Yulia bye bye for now”

“Yeah bye”

“And Yulia” Yulia stopped and spun round to face Tanya at the mention of her name “Thank you for the most fantastic night of my life, you’re amazing”

“You too” Yulia said before departing.

Tanya didn’t move out of bed instead spreading herself out across the bed smiling triumphantly. She was completely knackered yet fulfilled having finally cracked it. After last night Lena was ancient history screwed out of Yulia’s heart forever. Tanya was more than happy to fill the void…

[haku]

I liked the previous chapter a lot... :lalala: I was hoping we would get a little bit more of that in this one but... oh well, i'm just being greedy... :lalala:

As for this chapter, when i saw Yulia and Tanya's reactions to the situation, a few exasperated thoughts immediately came to my mind but they are *so* typically male that i feel embarrassed and i won't write them Lol.

[Veggie Delite]

common haku, u can tell us :rose:

*joins the <let's beat up roman badly!> club*

[guesshoo]

interesting.
interesting indeed.

[denial]

I won't blame Yulia .. well.. Tanya does sound like a hottie .. and its bad bad bad to dissapoint such a nice kind heart hottie like her .. :hmmm:

[prostrel]

Haku , I would like to hear your manly opinion! :done:
Don`t be shy.

Well, good chapter vicky7 . IMO there`s no need Julia to be ashamed about what happened. But I didn`t like Tanya not so much in the end.